China Fahui | Removing Attachments and Saving People with Compassion
(Minghui.org) Greetings, Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I started practicing Falun Dafa in 2004, and I'm now 46 years old. Looking back on my ten years of cultivation, I have a lot to share. I will now share the most important experiences.
When One Person Obtains the Fa, the Whole Family Benefits
My son developed a strange illness when he was nine years old: he had migraines, stomach pain, leg pain, nosebleeds, and systemic anaphylaxis. We tried Chinese medicine, Western medicine, acupuncture, folk remedies, and even asked a sorceress to cure him, but none of them worked. All of his illnesses sometimes came at once, and his situation got worse and worse. He often lost consciousness.
I was busy with taking care of our household and seeking a cure for him. For years I also suffered from arthritis, stomach pains, and blood in my stool. On top of that, I lost my job, and my family life was not easy. I was skinny and had a dark complexion; I had white hair at age 30. My life was so painful that sometimes I would think, “What is the point of my life? I should put an end to this.” But I also thought I should not give up the last hope.
In March 2004, I fortunately encountered Dafa while I was in despair. Before I even finished reading Zhuan Falun, my illnesses all disappeared. The revered Master saved me from a life like hell, and gave me my life back. I asked my son to recite sincerely "Falun Dafa is good" and "Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good." In just a few days, my son also recovered miraculously!
My husband had his share of chronic illnesses as well, including hypertension, heart disease, lumbar disc herniation, and shortness of breath. He witnessed Dafa's amazing healing power on me, so he was very supportive of my practice. Master also purified his body. Three people in my family became free of illness and immersed in happiness and joy. When one person obtains the Fa, the whole family benefits.
Memorize the Fa, Melt Into the Fa
After obtained the Fa, I eagerly read Zhuan Falun, Master’s lectures, and new articles. My xinxing improved rapidly. I often dreamed of flying in the sky. When I learned from the Minghui website that a lot of practitioners can memorize the Fa and recite the book Zhuan Falun, I wanted to try.
But could I do it? Just because of this doubtful thought, I could not memorize it well. I stopped and resumed reciting it a couple of times. In the end, I recited to the eighth page of Zhuan Falun and could go no further. I gave up.
In 2012, I wanted to recite the Fa again. This time, I decided that I must keep it up. I first started with reciting Hong Yin–it took me only three days. I was greatly encouraged. Then I started with Hong Yin Vol. II, which took me five days. Reciting the poetry part of Hong Yin III also took five days. Later, I recited Essentials for Further Advancement and Master's new articles and poems.
With this foundation, I became more confident. This April I started to recite Zhuan Falun. I first recited one sentence after another, then recited all sentences in the paragraph together. It took me over a month to finish Lecture One and Lecture Two. It was too slow.
Sometimes I felt sleepy when I first started to recite–the interference was intense. I would send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference. Then I would get up and move around, and go back to reciting again. Things started to get easier after I recited Lecture Three. I took 78 days to finish reciting Zhuan Falun.
In the process of reciting the Fa, I clearly felt Master's blessing. I could study the Fa with all my heart. I enlightened to a lot Fa principles that I had not realized while just reading. I continued to assimilate to the Fa and melt into the Fa. I experienced the wonderfulness and sacredness of the Fa by reciting the Fa. I can only thank Master Li for giving me this wisdom, strength, and encouragement.
Now I have started to recite Zhuan Falun for the second time. While reciting Zhuan Falun, I also read Master's lectures and new articles. Each time I study them at least twice.
I learned while reciting the Fa: only when we study the Fa more and study it well, can we use the Fa as a standard to measure our actions and thoughts to find shortcomings and get rid of attachments, to be firm with righteous thoughts and to save more people with compassion.
Getting Rid of Resentment toward Family Members
My mother is also a practitioner; she obtained the Fa in 1999. Jiang Zemin's regime began the persecution of Falun Dafa after she just started to practice. She did not study much of the Fa and had a lot human attachments, so her understanding of the Fa was still on the level of healing and fitness. She did not follow the requirements for Falun Dafa practitioners, and her xinxing did not improve. As a result, she could not regain her health.
I obtained the Fa very late. But seeing my mother's situation, I was very anxious. I often complained about my mother instead of looking within to find my own attachments based the Fa.
My brother and my sister-in-law were deceived by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP)'s lies about Falun Dafa. My mother also suffered from sickness karma. Therefore, they were hostile to Dafa. In particular, my younger brother set up a will in the name of his mother, without her consent, to usurp her house and savings. For this reason I was stuck in my human notions and had resentment toward my brother and my sister-in-law.
On the surface I was nice to them, but the deep resentment was in my heart. I often felt a bad substance wrap me tightly like a layer of black netting. I said to Master in my heart: Master, that's not me. I do not want this bad attachment. My brother and my sister-in-law are sentient beings I should save. They are deluded in the maze and do not know the truth of Falun Dafa or the purpose of life. They are very pitiful. How can I complain about them?
When I stopped complaining about my mother, my brother, and my sister-in-law, everything changed. Mother finally told me the truth: after the start of the persecution, CCP personnel from the residential committee came several times to pressure my mother to give up practicing Dafa. Due to fear, my mother promised to give up the practice against her will. She was very sorry and asked me to help her write a "solemn declaration" to declare that everything she had said and done against Dafa was null and void. She said she will practice Falun Dafa again and wants to cultivate well.
A few days ago, my nephew was hospitalized. I stayed by his side and took care of him. I also paid for his medical expenses. I told my nephew about Falun Dafa and the persecution. He quit the Young Pioneers. My brother also withdrew from the CCP, and my sister-in-law thanked me.
I spent a lot of money, energy, and time on my mother and brother's family. But thinking about how they have been saved, I am very happy. I thank Master for helping me to get rid of resentment and resolve family conflicts so that my family members can be saved from elimination.
Getting Rid of Jealousy
Last year, my mother-in-law came to my home and said she wanted to give her house to her eldest son. I felt uneasy for several days after hearing this. My mother-in-law was very biased towards her eldest son. She brought up his daughter, and their whole family took advantage of her for a long time. They ate at her home, took her possessions, and asked for money. When my father-in-law passed away, her eldest son's daughter moved straight into her home. However, my mother-in-law did not help me with my son at all.
Before I practiced Falun Dafa, I took those things very seriously. I would be angry and hurt. Now I know everything has its reason, and I know the Fa principle of not fighting for self-interest and that of no loss, no gain. I follow the course of nature. Those things do not get to me, and I do not think about them either.
I am a Falun Dafa practitioner; therefore, I need to do well in every aspect, and I am kind to everyone. I should be kind to my mother-in-law and my eldest brother's family, too. But I still felt uneasy when my mother-in-law is mentioned the house. The uneasiness was triggered by my thinking that she had bias, because I did not get the house. Isn't this an attachment to personal interest? Isn't this a competitive mentality?
Some time ago, when I was reciting the paragraph about jealousy, Master repeatedly referred to “uneasy.” “Uneasiness” is a manifestation of jealousy. Master said,
"Today I am telling practitioners that you should not keep yourselves in the dark without being enlightened to it. The goal that you intend to achieve is to practice cultivation toward high levels. The attachment of jealousy must be relinquished..." (Zhuan Falun)
"A wicked person is born of jealousy.Out of selfishness and anger he complains about unfairness towards himself.A benevolent person always has a heart of compassion.With no discontentment or hatred, he takes hardship as joy.An enlightened person has no attachments at all.He quietly observes the people of the world deluded by illusions." (“Realms” from Essentials for Further Advancement)
With Master's warning, I realized the consequences of jealousy is so serious. Master, I was wrong. I did not want to be a wicked person with selfishness and anger. I am determined to get rid of jealousy.
My mother-in-law had joined the Young Pioneers before, and she was deeply poisoned by the CCP's lies. I repeatedly told her the facts of Falun Dafa, but she did not want to listen. She thought quitting the CCP and its affiliated organizations was not a big deal.
My son later invited me to travel to South Korea with him. I said, "Bring your grandma with you. Maybe she will change her mind after seeing the outside world, and be saved." My mother-in-law was very happy and knew that I really wished her well. She quit the Young Pioneers when she returned from South Korea.
I sincerely thank Master for arranging all of this to get rid of my jealousy and allowing my mother-in-law to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I sincerely thank practitioners in South Korea for clarifying the truth to her.
Getting Rid of the Attachment of Dependence
Last fall, fellow practitioner L and I teamed up. After sending forth righteous thoughts at twelve o'clock, we went out to persuade people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations in order to save them. Fellow practitioner L talked to people, while I sent forth righteous thoughts. Gradually I started to depend on her. I felt she cultivated well and that she was thorough when she clarified the truth. I felt good when we went out together.
One day, I dreamed of wearing someone else's clothes. I wanted to take them off, but no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't take them off. I realized that my attachment of dependence had became so strong. After I realized this problem, she no longer showed up at our meeting place. What should I do? I decided to do it myself next time. The next day when she did not show again, I decided to go alone! I asked Master to strengthen my righteous thoughts and arrange predestined people to come to learn the truth. I recited along the way:
"Dafa is what you carry everywhere,Zhen Shan Ren, rooted in the mind;A great Arhat walks the earth,Gods and demons fear with awe." (“Benevolent Might” from Hong Yin)
That day my mind was very pure. All I thought of was to save people. As a result, it went very well. All twelve people I talked to agreed to quit the CCP and its organizations. When I got home, I burned incense in front of Master's portrait to thank him for helping me to get rid of my attachment of dependence, and to bring predestinated people to me so they would learn the truth and be saved.
I want to share two interesting stories from my persuading people to quit CCP:
1. "The CCP does not support us financially. We support the CCP financially."
I clarified the truth to a woman who sold water in a park. The sixty-year-old woman looked like she came from the countryside. I bought a bottle of water from her. Actually I was not thirsty, but I took the chance to talk to her. I asked her where she came from. She said she came from Haze in the countryside. She came here to take care of her grandchildren. Her son and daughter were off-duty today, so she could come out to sell water to make some money. Her children did not have an easy life. They needed to work and also pay rent.
I asked whether she ever joined the Young Pioneers. She said she did not, because her family could not afford to send her to school. I told her she was a good person and very kind. I asked her to remember "Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good" and told her she would have good health if she recited it often. I said she would not burden her children if she has good health, and that a safe future is a blessing.
The woman replied, "You are so right. A few days ago I was arrested. They confiscated twenty bottles of water. They also dragged me to their office and fined me 50 yuan. For us normal people, life is not easy. I was so angry that I almost fell ill again."
A man came over to collect plastic bottles. I took the opportunity to clarify the truth to him. He had served in the military before. When I asked him to quit the CCP, he shouted, "Quit the CCP? You are a counterrevolutionary. The CCP gives you money, and you are still against the CCP? No. I won't quit."
To my surprise, the woman replied, "We earn our own money. If you don't work, will the CCP give you money? The CCP does not support us financially. We support the CCP financially. The CCP's corrupted officials take money from us. You should not be fooled by them. She asked you to quit the CCP. That is good for you. You will be saved. You see, things are changing like the rain will fall from the sky. Can the CCP stop that?" The man said, “Okay, okay. I quit. You are so right."
I gave him a pseudonym called Mingli (“understanding the truth”) and told him to remember “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good."
The woman did not go to school, but she has a clear mind. Her words were substantive and struck the right note. She helped me to save this person. I know it is Master’s arrangement. I want to thank Master from the bottom of my heart.
2. "Please greet Master Li for me when you see him!"
A few days ago, I went to a riverside park to clarify the truth. I met man who was 77. He had joined the CCP before. He had also read our booklet, so he knew the truth. But he did not know how to quit the CCP. I said, "I can help you. Please let me know your name."
The elderly man was excited. He held my hand and said, "Girl, when can you see Master Li? Please greet Master Li for me. In my lifetime I admired Master Li the most. He can produce such good disciples like you guys. It is amazing. Even though I do not practice Falun Dafa, Master Li takes care of me. One time I fell hard down the stairs. I was stunned. When I awoke, I suddenly remembered it said on a Falun Gong booklet that said reciting "Falun Dafa is good" will bring good fortune when you encounter danger. So I recited it several times. Then I got up by myself and did not have any problems. If Master Li did not save me, I would be dead. I went home and kowtowed to Master Li to thank him. Please greet Master Li for me when you see him. Do not forget..."
There are many stories like this. Every thank-you from someone who learned the truth would bring out my tears.
I usually go out every day to tell the public about Falun Dafa and the persecution. Saving people is my mission. I feel fulfilled and happy as long as I can save people. I walk down the streets and feel that everyone seems familiar. I just want to save them. With compassion, I give people a smile, regardless of whether they quit the CCP. The effect is good. More and more people are being saved.
I still have many shortcomings compared to diligent practitioners. But I know I am a particle of Dafa and Master has given me everything. I'll cultivate well, constantly look inward to get rid of my attachments, save people with compassion, and put Master at ease.