(Minghui.org) I obtained a new copy of Minghui Weekly and started reading it as soon as I got home. I was eager to read it. In fact, I've already read it twice.
I go to the “Cultivation Sharing” section first. The first article is “What's Stopping Us from Being Diligent,” and it mentions that some senior practitioners are attached to their grandchildren.
I reflect on myself. I haven't been diligent for a while, and, although I have no grandchildren, I think I have a similar problem. For example, when I go back to my mother's home, I love to play with my niece. She's so cute. I haven't realized that playing with my niece takes away time from my Fa studies until I read the article.
This article also talks about how some practitioners have attachments to their children. I find I have this problem, too.
As the article illustrates, it looks like I am concerned about my son's cultivation, and I do encourage him to be diligent. But I am motivated by my hidden attachments to fame and self-interest. I asked him to study the Fa more to increase his attention span. But how can I treat a child as an adult?
I think that cultivation will help him do well and get good grades. Then I can show off and satisfy my vanity. I spend much energy trying to acquire what I want, but when things don't match my expectations, I am so disturbed that even my truth-clarification efforts are affected. I have not acted according to the Fa but am driven by my pursuits.
As I continue to read the articles, I learn more from fellow practitioners.
I argued with my husband several days ago. I immediately remembered “Don't Argue” in Hong Yin III and I knew I shouldn't argue. I tried to identify my attachment.
He criticized me all night and continued the next morning. I didn't stop him. Instead, I said, “Thank you for your criticisms.” He got even more angry and scolded me and said that I was just pretending to be nice. I wasn't happy, of course, but I felt this wasn't my real attachment. I couldn't find my loophole.
When I read an article titled, “About My 'High Stance,'” I was shocked. My arrogance made him angry. On the surface, while it seemed to me that what he said didn't bother me, to him it appeared I didn't want to be on the same level as he. I wasn't very compassionate. No wonder he continued to say bad things about me. I will pay attention to it and get rid of this attachment.
I learned a lot from reading Minghui Weekly. For my xinxing tests, I can find weekly articles related to my attachments. It's really helpful to get some insight from reading fellow practitioners' sharing.
I just finished reading The Essentials of Diligent Progress Vol. III again. The volume includes many of Master's comments on practitioners' articles. I realize that Master also reads Minghui articles and gives us timely guidance on any group-level issues.
The articles included in Minghui Weekly are noteworthy. Fellow practitioners, have you read it lately? It's really helpful for practitioners who want to cultivate diligently. For those mainland fellow practitioners who cannot visit the Minghui website often, the Weekly is even more of a good read.
The above is my personal understanding. If there is anything improper, please kindly point it out.
Category: Improving Oneself
