My Long Search Finally Led Me to Falun Dafa
Greetings Master! Greetings Dafa practitioners!
Thank you Master for the opportunity to share my cultivating experience here at this European Fa conference with other Dafa disciples.
1. The search for the eternal truths
Very early on, Taoist and Buddhist ideas inspired me. I collected so called wisdom from many traditions from mystics to philosophers of east and west. But then two situations happened in my life that turned everything upside down.
About 9 years ago I succeeded in giving up my resentment toward the German people, who I believed to be the cause of the Holocaust. It was an indescribable relief to get rid of this irrational hatred. Almost at the same time that happened that my wife was very worried about our eldest daughter and asked help from some spirits of the universe. This caused a very unpleasant experience of a demonic being coming to our home. Through three nights this being disturbed our home and tried to enter our bodies. This was a hard blow to me and therefore I sought remedies. Thus in 2004, I got in contact with the only German Dafa practitioner in Denmark and we hereafter studied Dafa together.
I studied Dafa with an open mind and understood at once it was just what I had longed for all my life. It was like awakening from a deep dream. I realized the immense profoundness of Dafa and felt very lucky to have obtained Dafa. My entire search stopped. I realized that Master had been there all the time and taken care of me in those difficult times. The truth that was revealed to me was a very strong experience. I wanted to cry it aloud to all, but I held myself back as it might be difficult for people to understand. I began to cultivate my inner self instead. Later on, I understood that it was my destiny to wander through all these ways, so that I can find our Master in the end. No words exist to express my gratitude, Thank you Master.
2. Solid cultivation of Dafa--learning to look inside and cooperate unconditionally
I cultivated myself and looked inwards and hereby came to understand Fa at a higher level. When I participated in Dafa projects, like hosting Shen Yun, the Free China documentary and other efforts I sensed various forms of disturbances from other dimensions. It caused oftentimes by my own human attachments and thoughts in combination with the evil old forces arrangements.
After some time I realized that I had become a quite new and different human. My mentality of competition and my outer strife were all gone. Now the challenge was how for us as Dafa practitioners succeed as being one body, validate Dafa and save sentient beings.
At first I saw conflicts as something negative in our cultivation environment, accepting them as normal, while looking outward and criticizing the main coordinators' shortcomings, instead of using the situation as an opportunity to look inside and release deeply held attachments. I also took part in this criticism, though only for a short while.
After some time I realized that finding faults from others was waste of time and in contradiction with Dafa. I therefore decided to cooperate with the coordinator. It was really hard to hear criticism and evaluations from some Dafa practitioners. Slowly I understood that I, again, was about to look outside instead of inside by looking negatively at conflicts. To react to those negative words means that I also to carry wood and gasoline to the fire, instead of dissolving the conflict in myself.
At same time I experienced a big conflict. I was responsible for sending out press releases to media and politicians and sent repeatedly from a wrong mail account. Understandably, I met with harsh language, nevertheless I made mistakes again. I was very disappointed with myself and sorry to have failed, so I had some hard days. It was as though I could sense the group's thoughts about me and they were not positive. It made me feel even worse. Later, I slowly understood everything from Dafa and came to my senses. A bad situation was turned around to be a positive situation.
I sensed from this experience the power of thoughts and learned the importance of my benevolent nature. I could not stand thoughts of thinking negatively or critically about other Dafa practitioners.
I am now very grateful to these practitioners somewhat harsh words. Later on, they apologized to me for their words, but they did not need to, because they helped me a lot. So, in these situations, what is lost is only the human ego and nothing else. I had really not many negative thoughts about other practitioners. After this experience, I understood more about the importance of having a righteous mind.
3. Cooperation with Free China screenings and other Dafa projects
Some time ago, I got the chance to save sentient beings through a screening of Free China: The Courage to Believe in Denmark. The cooperation and coordination for the project has been very good and the response has generally been positive and touching. To me it has been a great privilege to show the film, to tell the truth about the persecution about Dafa.
It was a surprise to me at the beginning of showing the film all around in Denmark, it was as though I already knew these people (more than half of them) that came to the screening, even if it was the first time I saw them. I recalled Master’s words from the New York Fa conference of 2013 as “To give people one more chance.”
Before the screening, I had some human thoughts appear in my mind and wondered if they could accept Dafa and understand the evil nature of the CCP. When that happened my head became very heavy and it was as though something impure tried to come out, but was kept and retained by the human thoughts. After being more mature and experienced in cultivation, these attachments are easier to discern and release. The film is a powerful truth-clarification tool. It helped me to understand more about persecution.
At a screening for some young women from an entertainment club, I saw a big change in these women. While setting for the screening, I overheard their discussion among themselves about nightlife, chasing young men and that sort of thing. After the film and during the discussion I saw they had totally changed. They were quite calm and thoughtful and they looked well, it was as though they lightened up from within. They expressed admiration for Dafa practitioners’ courage in China. I often see such rations after the screening and it touches me every time.
This tells us that there are many waiting to be saved and waiting for a chance to position themselves. The audience often asked us: “We see how brutal the CCP is, but what can we do?” So we talk about what they can do.
There is hope for all sentient beings, if they just get the chance to know the truth of Dafa.
Thank you, revered Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners!