China Fa Conference | Disabled by Medicine, Reborn with Dafa
(Minghui.org) Whenever I saw fellow practitioners' experience-sharing articles on Minghui, I also had an urge to write, but was stopped each time by human notions. I came up with all sorts of excuses that prevented me from writing: I am disabled, I did not do well, I was not qualified.
When I saw the call for papers for the 10 th China Fahui on Minghui, I suddenly awakened. I refused to accept the notions the old forces imposed upon me. I would walk out of the selfish state; I would share with all how I, as a disabled person, fortunately obtained Dafa and experienced cleansing and karma elimination by Master, and how Master has protected me while I've cultivated firmly to this day.
Disabled from Medicine
In May 1964, I developed an urgency and increased frequency of urination, as well as difficulty having bowel movements. I saw doctors of Western and Chinese medicine, but nothing worked. My symptoms got worse. In July, my father found a famous Chinese doctor. After two doses of his medicine, my condition got worse. My legs became heavy and numb. This quack doctor said that as long as I had a reaction, it was good. After 60 doses of his medicine, my legs were completely paralyzed; I have not walked since.
In 1977, I married a girl with mental retardation who was nine years younger than me. In the winter of 1979, I developed rheumatoid arthritis. The pain was more than I could handle. I wanted to die. I wrapped myself up with electric wire and asked my wife to turn on the light. But the power was out. I could not die!
In the winter of 1981, I developed tuberculosis. My appetite was gone, and I could only eat several small buns a day. My parents were in despair. My condition took a turn for the worse, and they borrowed money to make my coffin.
The Wonder of Dafa
On the morning of April 2, 1998, a neighbor brought over a book called Zhuan Falun and asked me to read it. She said it was a Buddhist book for cultivating Dafa, and it was extremely precious. Due to my father's influence, when I heard that it was for cultivating Buddhahood, I was very interested. I asked if I could get a complete set of books. The neighbor saw that I truly wanted to learn, so she replied yes. I received four books that afternoon and a set of audio tapes of the Jinan lecture series.
It took me three nights to finish Zhuan Falun. When I closed my eyes and went to sleep, I saw a plate on my abdomen. It had three characters on it that said: “Cultivate Buddhahood.” Then I saw Master's fashen install a Falun into my abdomen.
On the fourth day, my tooth ached badly, my nose was all swollen, and I felt dizzy. I immediately realized that Master was cleansing my body. I maintained my xinxing and did not take any medicine. I continued reading the Fa. On the eighth day, when I finished reading the Fa and closed my eyes, I saw a colorful Falun, 3 meters in diameter and 30 cm thick, turning rapidly above my head. It was radiating golden light. I was surrounded by red draperies. The wonderful feeling I felt was beyond words!
That afternoon, my neighbor brought me pictures showing the five sets of exercises. I finished learning the exercises that afternoon. As soon as I closed my eyes, I saw Master as a golden Buddha statue in front of me to the left, one meter above the ground, with colorful lights radiating out. As I read the Fa, the characters turned into a golden color. From that point on, I became even more firm in Fa-study, and I got rid of all other qigong books at home.
I abide by the principles of the Fa and regard myself as a true cultivator. I also practice the exercises daily.
One month after I obtained Dafa, I was meditating in my wheelchair. When I closed my eyes, I felt a strong light shining on my eyes. I turned my wheelchair to a different direction. When I settled down again, I felt like I was immobilized. I felt a big hand reach into my abdomen and pull out numerous filthy substances, like raw meat; then it pulled things out of both knees.
After the illness karma was gone, I felt very comfortable. That night, when I went to bed, I saw a big bag of golden substances used for cultivation placed into my body.
Master said in Zhuan Falun :
“Here we will provide you with Falun, qiji , and all the mechanisms for cultivation practice and so on—more than ten thousand of them. They will all be given to you like seeds being planted in your body. After removing your illnesses, I will do everything that needs to be done and give you everything that should be given. Then, you will be able to truly continue your cultivation practice in our school until the end.”
When meditating, I saw my dark, sticky asphalt-like skeleton fly away, and in came the new skeleton, like white jade. I was completely reborn! This was what I personally experienced after I obtained Dafa. Compassionate Master and Dafa granted me a brand-new life!
All of the miracles that happened took me by surprise: I never would have imaged that a disabled person could also cultivate Buddha Fa!
It was just as Master said:
“Cultivation paths are different Yet all are within Dafa With no attachment to anything The path underfoot is naturally clear” (“No Obstacles” from Hong Yin Vol. II)
From studying the Fa, I understood Master's words:
“Due to karma resulting from past wrongdoing, one has illnesses or tribulations; suffering is repaying a karmic debt.” (Zhuan Falun)
If I had not committed so many wrongdoings in the past, I would not have so much karma in this life. Believing the quack doctor had just been a surface phenomenon. Dafa unraveled my knot of several years. After I understood the Fa regarding retribution for sin, I no longer resented the doctor. I am grateful for Master's grace in enabling me to find myself again.
I acquired all of the Dafa books, as well as audio and video tapes. My bother purchased a TV and a DVD player. I played Master's lectures daily, so that people with predestined relationships could learn the practice.
“Dafa is being spread far and wide. Those who hear about it are looking for it. Those who have obtained it are delighted with it. The number of cultivators is increasing daily and becoming countless.” (“Seeking Discipleship with Teacher” from Essentials for Further Advancement)
Improving My Character in Daily Life
I have a neighbor who is problematic. He borrowed 3,500 yuan from me in 1995. With what he still owed me from before, his total debt was 3,850 yuan; it was not a small number. In order not to pay me, he spread a rumor that I had raped his wife. What a pity that he would behave like that, in order not to repay me!
After insisting that he repay the money, I only received 2,500 over two years; each time, he would curse me. After I obtained Dafa, I stopped asking him for the rest. I viewed it as my debt from past wrongdoing.
My yard was airy and cool—a good place for the neighbors to congregate. Several times, I heard my neighbor again denigrating me pretty badly. When he saw me, he cursed me even more, laughing that I was paralyzed and my wife retarded and saying that we only knew how to make money and did not know how to enjoy life.
His words were not only hurtful, but also insulting. I did nothing. Since I am a cultivator, I knew he was giving me an opportunity to improve my xinxing. Thus, I maintained my xinxing.
For the 34 years before I obtained Dafa, I had never taken off my thick cotton pants, even in the summer. Since obtaining Dafa, I've been able to wear thin pants without getting cold. My rheumatoid arthritis and prostate disease also disappeared. I no longer need reading glasses, and I am full of energy every day. I have not taken a single pill in the past 15 years, since I obtained Dafa.
In November 1998, I developed a finger-size bump on my tail bone. Four days later, it was as big as a bowl and dark red. When the skin broke, it began oozing blood. I had to see a doctor. He wanted to give me an anesthetic, but I said: “I am a cultivator. You don't have to give me anesthetics—just cut.” He cut an opening in the shape of a T, and I did not feel any pain.
The bump was just bloody, without much pus. He cleaned the wound well, covered it with gauze and told me to change it daily and use antibiotics. All of my four siblings practice Falun Dafa, and we decided not to use the medicine. When the doctor changed the gauge again, there was no pus and the swelling was gone. The doctor was very surprised. He witnessed the wonder of Dafa. Twenty days later, the wound was completely healed.
Another tribulation of mine lasted 40 days. During that time, I could not sleep, and the area of rheumatoid arthritis was hurting again. I could not breathe well, and my appetite was gone as well. But I still listened to and studied the Fa daily. I firmly believed that Master was cleansing me again, and I continued cultivating diligently. I recovered on the New Year of 1999 and began exercising again. My mother also began cultivating then.
Entire Family Benefits from One Cultivator
After I obtained the Fa, my wife's chronic gastritis also improved. My daughter often had a hoarse voice in winter for several days. When she had it again in 2009, I did not view it as a cultivator and asked her to take some medicine. The medicine did not work, and she began vomiting. I was worried.
I asked Master for help and asked her to recite, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” My daughter vomited from noon to night, along with having diarrhea. In the evening, she told me that she was sweating. I said: “That is great! Master is helping you.” She was back to her normal self the next day, with no more hoarseness since.
After this incident, I searched within. I found that I still had some attachment to accepting a little medical relief. But as a cultivator, I knew that Master is taking care of everything, including my family. Our work, life and cultivation are one; whether you can handle things that happen as a cultivator is critical. How can one use ordinary people's solutions to solve problems in cultivation? When I realized this, I felt myself elevated, improved and completely submerged in the Fa.
Clarifying the Truth about Falun Dafa to Save Sentient Beings
After I read Master's article “Turning the Wheel Towards the Human World” and the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party in 2005, I began participating in clarifying the truth about Dafa and persuading people to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
Initially, I could only clarify the truth to relatives and friends. I had an attachment to fear and a lack of experience; the result was not good. After I read the Nine Commentaries many times, along with experience-sharing articles on related topics, I gradually gained more confidence. From studying the Fa well, my righteous thoughts also strengthened. I paid attention to sending forth righteous thoughts and asked for Master's support. The results got better and better.
In my 44 years of life up to that point, I was always introverted and did not like to talk to strangers. After studying Master's Fa, I understood the importance of clarifying the truth and saving sentient beings. Thus, I changed my selfish, self-centered state. I have been actively persuading people to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated youth leagues since 2008.
In June 2011, I began going to parks at noon to clarify the truth to middle school students. I would send forth righteous thoughts on the way there and ask Master to reinforce me and arrange predestined sentient beings to come to me. Master arranged many newcomers daily.
This spring, more and more people agreed to quit the CCP. One time, there were 14 people who chose to quit the Party. They asked me lots of questions, and I answered them all. I stayed a bit longer and didn't notice the two policemen right away. They asked the students to leave. I was calm, not afraid, and went home safely.
The park bench can sit four people, so I could persuade four people at a time to quit the Party. I would start by telling them about the rock that had split to reveal naturally carved characters, “Heaven will eliminate the Chinese Communist Party.” Then I told them about quitting the CCP to secure their future.
I also talked about the Tiananmen self-immolation incident, which was staged by the CCP to defame Falun Dafa, about the persecution of Falun Dafa, and how Dafa has spread worldwide. Students usually accepted the truth and were willing to quit the CCP's youth leagues.
In my neighborhood, there are many rental homes; people come and go. Many relatives and friends visit those families as well. I have had the chance to meet numerous people with predestined relationships and clarify the truth about Dafa to them.
I've run into all sorts of people while clarifying the truth. Some would withdraw from the Party immediately, some would also persuade their family members to withdraw, and some would bring even more people to hear the truth and withdraw.
There were also those who would not withdraw and even wanted to report me. I tried to persuade one relative many times. He would curse me each time and say: “The CCP gives you money and you still want others to quit it. Your name is on the wanted list at the police department. You would have been arrested long ago if you were not disabled.”
Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions
I study the Fa daily, for four to five hours at night. I also do the exercises, send forth righteous thoughts, read fellow practitioners' sharing articles on Minghui, clarify the truth and persuade people to quit the CCP. My daily schedule is very full.
We have very few practitioners here. My sisters and I could not form a Fa-study group, but we study at home and share together every few days. Over the 14 years of persecution, the village authorities have not caused much trouble for me, mainly because of my firm belief in Master and the Fa. I was able to let go of the attachment to fear.
No matter how the environment has changed or how long the Fa-rectification has gone on, even during the most crazed persecution periods, I have always viewed the Fa as Master, cultivating as diligently as on day one—cultivating solidly.
When I became determined to write this sharing article, I had a dream that I was lying in bed with a blanket. When I took off the blanket, I noticed that my skin had shed, and I had new baby-soft skin. My physical body improved and I elevated spiritually again.
This is my cultivation experience over the years. Please kindly point out any shortcomings.