Practicing Falun Gong Pulled Me Out of the Abyss of Hopelessness
(Minghui.org) I used to be young Dafa practitioner, but stopped practicing. Now I'm 21 years old. I've always loved animals since childhood, so at the age of 15 I began studying to be a veterinarian.
I did very well in my studies and got excellent grades. After graduation, I became deputy director of a breeding farm. Later, I started my own little farm. It was very difficult at the beginning, as I was trying to make it all by myself. I couldn't eat or sleep well and sometimes found it hard to make ends meet. However, after two years of hard work, my little farm began to do well.
As if fate was playing tricks on me, my back suddenly began hurting and sometimes I could hardly straighten it due to the pain. I couldn't sleep well either. Initially, I thought I had just caught a cold or I was working too hard. I had already fallen and hurt myself once, so I didn't take much notice of it, thinking that I was young and it shouldn't be anything serious.
I rested at home for a few days, but the pain got worse. I then went to the hospital for a checkup, and found that I has 3 slipped discs in my lower back. The most frightening thing was that I had an exposed spinal canal . The news came like a bolt from the blue and I was completely dumbstruck, as anything affecting the spinal cord can be very dangerous, and the consequences can be life altering.
When I got back to the farm, I was feeling really miserable. Looking at what I'd just managed to achieve in my life, the only thing I could do was cry. A few days later, I gave up my farm and returned to the city to take care of my health. Every morning, I woke up in excruciating pain and my lower limbs were numb. I took lots of pills, but nothing seemed to work, and the heavy smell of Chinese medicine made me nauseous. I threw up as soon as I swallowed the pills, and then I would try to take them again. I was bored lying in bed, so I watched TV programs that had a certain sameness about them. This made me feel even more depressed.
I was 19 at the time and I should have been in the prime of life, but I was bedridden with no hope for the future. I couldn't work and couldn't go out to see the outside world. It seemed like I was wasting away. Feeling completely hopeless, I felt like I had fallen into the abyss, with no hope and no future.
My mother is a Falun Gong practitioner. She started to practice in 1996 and has always been in good health. Seeing the situation that I was in, she encouraged me a number of times to return to Dafa, but I refused.
On March 5, 2013 when I was suffering so much, I agreed to practice again as a last resort. That evening, I did the five exercises with my mother. I felt my body was heavy and I could hardly raise my arms. I was shivering from exhaustion and was sweating profusely. However by the time I finished the fifth exercise, I was surprised to find that my back pain was gone. I was so excited that tears ran down my face. It was miraculous! This was how I returned to Dafa cultivation.
It's been just over month now since I started to practice Falun Gong again. My back problem has completely disappeared and I can even carry a heavy bag of rice.