Cultivating Xinxing while Clarifying the Truth in Difficult Situations
(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Gong in late 2000. I had suffered from many long-term health problems, including insomnia, severe depression, chronic gastroenteritis, and hypotension, and took many medications.
One of my colleagues introduced me to my future wife. Although the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) had been persecuting Falun Gong, my wife introduced me to the practice and shared with me how she had experience improvements to her health and wellbeing after cultivating. She also gave me the book Zhuan Falun. At first I repeatedly read Zhuan Falun and listened to Master's audio recordings. Soon my body was purified, and my suffering was no more.
All my illnesses have since vanished. I don't know how to describe my joy. It has also strengthened my determination and confidence in cultivating. In these troubled times I am so lucky to have found something so precious. I don't know how to properly show my gratitude to Master.
1. Cultivating Xinxing: Reciting Fa
I began memorizing Zhuan Falun in 2001. In the beginning I often forgot what I had just memorized. I spent two and a half months memorizing Zhuan Falun . I was able to quickly eliminate some attachments while memorizing the Fa.
One day when I had almost memorized the book, while I was reading, every word appeared in the image of a Buddha who was smiling at me.
My employer at the time held many meetings where Falun Gong was slandered. I was in an organization unit so I had to participate at each meeting. I was very anxious because I knew Falun Gong was good. What should I do? I felt that it was very important to tell them the truth.
At one of the meetings when it was my turn to speak, I said directly, “You expose and criticize Falun Gong. Who has read the book, Zhuan Falun ?” No one answered. I said, “If you haven't read it, how can you say anything?” I then clarified, “Falun Gong teaches people to be good, and teaching people to be good is now being persecuted. Isn't this right?” They looked at each other. The leadership may not have thought someone would speak up in a different voice. Everyone became silent, and then the meeting ended. This kind of meeting was not held again.
After buying lottery tickets early in 2002, I won third prize. The day when I was given the money I was so happy to have had such good luck. However Master's Fa appeared in my mind:
“One practitioner in Beijing took his child to Qianmen for a walk after dinner and saw a commercial vehicle promoting lottery tickets. The child became interested and asked to play the lottery. He gave the child one yuan to play, and the child ended up with the second prize, a luxury junior bike. The child was very delighted. At once an idea flashed into the father’s mind: 'I’m a practitioner. How can I go for such a thing? How much de must I give away if I get something that isn’t paid for?' He said to the child: 'Let’s not take it. We can buy one ourselves if you want it.'” (Zhuan Falun)
I then understood that a cultivator should not take this money. Someone on the street held a fundraiser, so I donated all the money to them. I haven't since bought a lottery ticket.
At a meeting one of the directors once suddenly lost his temper and cursed at me in front of 20 people. I said nothing, and the meeting continued. A person later told him that if he talked to other people that way, they might fight him. Actually, I wouldn't have kept silent if I wasn't a cultivator. I was not upset, and kept Master's Fa in my heart,
“Think about it, everyone: Living to prove one’s point or to save face—isn’t it tiring? Isn’t it painful? Is it worthwhile? Han Xin was an everyday person after all. As practitioners, we should be much better than he. Our goal is to rise above and beyond the level of ordinary people and to strive toward high levels. We will not run into that situation. Yet the humiliation and embarrassment that a practitioner endures among everyday people are not necessarily easier than that. I would say that friction among one another that tempers your xinxing is not any easier than that and can be even worse—it is also quite tough.” (Zhuan Falun)
Sometimes I was criticized by someone without reason, and my heart was moved.
“It is precisely because that person has created this conflict for you that there is this opportunity to improve xinxing, and you can make use of it to upgrade your own xinxing. Isn’t your xinxing raised this way? You have gained in three ways. You are a practitioner. With xinxing upgraded, won’t your gong also increase? You have gained four ways in one shot. Why shouldn’t you thank that person? You should sincerely thank him from the bottom of your heart—it is actually so.” (Zhuan Falun)
Master's words clearly appeared in my mind, so I slowly put down the battle over who was right or wrong. I strictly held myself to the standard of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I had a unique environment to clarify the truth, and it created a good foundation.
2. Creating a Home-based Production Site for Truth-clarifying Materials
In 2009, we finally received Master's lectures which were dated after 1999. My wife and I burst into tears when we browsed the Minghui website and read the stories of Falun Gong disciples validating the Fa inside and outside China. We decided to help validate the Fa too!
We bought a computer plus supplies and then we downloaded, printed materials, and burned DVDs from the Internet. We soon established a good family data and materials production site.
We found in the beginning that it was difficult to distribute flyers. We were both fearful and had attachments. I then remembered that we had made many DVD's. That is the best thing for sentient beings. We also behaved based on Dafa's principles and brought bright futures to many sentient beings. So why should we be scared? It is really as Hong Yin Vol. II said:
“If thoughts are righteous, evil will collapse” (“What’s to Fear?” from Hong Yin Vol. II)
It soon went well. We distributed many truth-clarifying DVD's.
My wife and I often drove many miles to distribute the materials. One day a police car followed me for a long time. I knew that I was saving people in accordance with Master's Fa. They did nothing to me and then drove away.
My wife's home village had a party head who was spreading CCP propaganda by radio every day. One night my wife had a dream in which Master reminded her to clarify the truth to the Party head. We drove hundreds of miles to clarify the truth to him. He agreed to quit the Party and never again repeated the slander against Falun Gong.
3. Firmly Cultivating Dafa in Harsh Times
My wife clarified the truth to the students in her classroom in 2010, and played the truth-clarifying video on the Tiananmen self-immolation. She persuaded students to quit the Party organizations. Everything went well.
We both had attachments to zealotry, so we were taken advantage of by the old forces. My wife was arrested by local Domestic Security officers. Such a sudden turn of events made me think... Did we do the right thing? On consecutive nights, I finished memorizing Zhuan Falun again. I then concluded: Our Master is the most righteous! Cultivating Dafa is not wrong! We helped Master validate the Fa and save sentient beings, which is the greatest thing! We are cared for by Master so nothing terrible would happen.
My home was searched and my computers and other belongings taken. My wife was detained first at the police station and then at a detention center. My boss, 610 Office staff, and other police officers came to talk to me one after another. My leadership position was terminated and my colleagues began avoiding me. Some former colleagues who had had good relations with me then even trumpeted around these things. Pressure followed. I remained unmoved and I recited Zhuan Falun every night.
I understand the point that only when we are immersed in the Fa are we able to pass through these tribulations. I went to find the head of the police station and the head of detention center and told them that my wife taught her students in accordance with Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, and that persecuting her was absolutely wrong. I told them that she must be immediately released. I then clarified the truth to my colleagues and friends. They were willing to withdraw from the CCP. They knew that the Communist Party was evil, and that it must fall because it persecutes good people.
I then hired a lawyer for my wife and clarified the truth to the him. The lawyer understood the truth, but he did not withdraw from the CCP. Later when I met him, he told me that the Communist Party was really bad, and didn't allow him to plead not-guilty for my wife. Later when he traveled to Hong Kong he resolutely withdrew from the CCP.
I realized that the old forces try to test us during such an evil persecution. But I had both the Fa and Master in my heart. Nothing can remove the cultivation from my heart. Master said,
“Whether it is a Buddha, a Tao, an immortal, or a demon, they should not move your heart. In conducting oneself this way, success is bound to be in sight.” (Zhuan Falun)
Master's Fa was imprinted in my mind,
"As a student, if his mind is filled with nothing but Dafa, this person is definitely a genuine cultivator. So you must have a clear understanding on the matter of studying the Fa. Reading the books more and studying the books more is the key to truly elevating yourself. To put it more simply, as long as you read Dafa, you are changing; as long as you read Dafa, you are elevating. The boundless content of Dafa plus the supplementary means—the exercises—will enable you to reach Consummation." (“Melt Into the Fa” from Essentials for Further Advancement)
4. Clarifying the Truth and Validating the Fa
My wife returned home from the detention center after being sentenced to probation. By looking inward we concluded that this was a lesson regarding our gaps. First, we found that we did not learn the Fa well. Usually we considered it unimportant as to when we studied the Fa. So what Master said was closely related to us. Secondly, we did not know the law. So when the CCP agents arrested, detained, and tried my wife, we failed to prevent that occurrence. So the CCP lawyer was allowed to plead guilty for her.
In the following days we studied the Fa while downloading legal provisions from the Minghui website. We figured out the ins and outs of the CCP from a legal perspective. We collated these legal provisions and wrote complaint materials. At the time, 610 Office agents, Domestic Security, police, and the company's leaders, plus several members from the Party committee came to talk to us. We wisely told them the facts.
One afternoon an officer from the Domestic Security Division found my wife and talked to her aggressively. He asked her what she did after being released from the detention center. She said that she had been learning the law because she previously had ignored it. She took out the legal documents to show him. The officer was immediately polite after reviewing them. He said, “I originally wanted to question you, but you brought these legal documents to me. I wish you good luck!” He never came back.
Later on as long as someone came we gave them the legal materials. No one subsequently came to bother us. We understood the power of these legal documents. We went to the 610 Office, court, police, etc., to submit legal materials. They all looked at the legal documents. Their attitudes have since undergone great changes. That laid a good foundation for their own good futures.
During this process, we found that many government agencies had been deceived by the CCP propaganda. They did not understand the facts, and we need to clarify the truth to them. We targeted more people so they could learn the truth. We referred this legal information to the relevant national agencies, and asked them to provide legal assistance.
We constantly received calls and letters from all over the country. Some of them told us that they studied our materials, and discussed whether to take up our cause. One man told us that he was 81 years old and had recently found that he had aortic bleeding. He had one chance in nine lives to stay alive. He it was the Falun Gong informational materials that saved him. Actually, it was Master's compassion that saved him and offered him the opportunity to let him learn the truth.
There was also a caller who said, "Your letter came late!" His tone was one of complaint. I asked what was going on. It turned out that his relative was the recipient of a letter and materials from our colleagues. He had looked at our materials and called to tell us that his relative had just died in a car accident. I listened and felt extremely regretful. We then felt more urgency to save sentient beings. They are looking for truth-clarifying materials! If Falun Gong truth-clarification materials had arrived earlier, he might have been able to understand the truth and be saved. A fatal car accident might have been avoided.
During this period a lot of people looked at the materials, and they wanted to help. Some wanted to help us produce materials. And some personally came to my home and took the truth-clarification materials.
Thank you Master for teaching me how to conduct oneself and how to be a cultivator. I have the responsibility of saving sentient beings, so it will benefit them.
My understanding is at a limited level. If anything is improper, please kindly point it out.