(Minghui.org) “On September 10, 1997, I started to learn Falun Dafa. Before I even learned the five exercises, only after listening Master’s lecture for three days, I returned from the brink of death. Master gave me a new life!” - by the author
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Tribulations Abound
My body was covered with lesions from when I was young and my family didn’t have money to take me for treatments. Before I was twelve, I covered my body with mud to stop the itch. Then, I was diagnosed with nephrotic syndrome, tuberculosis, multiple uterine fibroids, and so on. I was told to have the fibroids removed because they could become cancerous. Reluctantly, I decided to undergo surgery in September 1996 at a hospital that was well-known for its gynecology expertise. Because I had only partial anesthesia, I could see the reflection of the doctor and nurses on a light fixture during the surgery. They were talking and laughing and didn't seem to care about me. That was not what I expected, and I felt helpless and very worried. I suddenly heard, “We're missing a piece of gauze!”
I was opened up again and they took out the gauze, but they accidentally sewed the uterus and bladder together. After the stitches fell out, urine leaked into the abdominal area and caused an infection. The pain was excruciating. I had a catheter for twenty-five days, which caused a urinary tract infection. I couldn’t sleep, had pain in the kidney area and my tuberculosis returned. I was in despair. The hospital kept demanding more money. After thirty-five days, they sent me home to die.
But I didn’t want to die. My elderly mother and young children all needed me. I dreamed of going to Tibet to study Buddhism or finding a master in the mountains to cure my illnesses. My dreams all went up in smoke, but I still hoped for miracles, even if it was only a sliver of hope.
Experiencing a Miracle After Learning Falun Dafa
In September 1997, many of my acquaintances had started to practice Falun Dafa. But, they dared not tell me in case I would die and discredit Falun Dafa. On September 10, an acquaintance who no longer could bear seeing me suffer told me about a truly good practice. She said that she returned to health after studying it for ten days. I went to the practice site and the practitioners welcomed me warmly. They introduced Falun Dafa to me and told me to get the Falun Dafa books, which I did. They didn’t shun me because of my appearance. They pointed at a lady and said that she returned to good health after practicing Falun Dafa for one month. I looked at Ms. Tang with envy. She looked healthy and had a kind smile. I thought, “I wish I could be like her.”
The practitioners arranged for me to watch Master’s lectures among a group of people. I kept falling asleep when watching it. Every time I woke up, I was very embarrassed. But very soon after, I nodded off again. But, within three days I was no longer in pain. I no longer took medication and my shoe size changed from 38 to 35. Wow! It was so amazing. I was saved and my suffering ended!
My children and seven of my husband's co-workers came to my home to learn Falun Dafa. Our apartment was filled with people learning the exercises. For the first time, I became someone else's envy and received respect. I didn’t have any education, but I was teaching a group of teachers the Falun Dafa exercises.
Sharing Falun Dafa with others was what I wanted to do the most. I kept repeating “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good , Master is good” in my heart. I told everyone I met that “Falun Dafa is good” and about the miracle I experienced. I rode my bicycle or walked as if someone was pushing me. I repeatedly recited “Lunyu” and Hong Yin. I was very diligent in practicing the exercises.
Remaining Firm Despite the Persecution
After July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began to persecute Falun Dafa and spread lies about Master and Falun Dafa. I locked myself in a room to study the Fa. I lost the environment to study the Fa and doing the exercises with fellow practitioners. Such a good practice is hard to come by in many millennia. But I had only started practicing a year before the onset of the persecution.
My husband was afraid and stopped practicing the exercises. He was worried that I would be persecuted. Out of fear, he stopped me from telling others about Dafa. He didn’t want me to study the Fa or do the exercises and did everything in his power to stop me. Then he tried to take away my Falun Dafa books. I held on to them tightly and let him beat me. One day he tried to grab Zhuan Falun again. This time I was prepared. To frighten him, I told him I would jump out the window, so he stopped trying to take the books from me.
I didn't want to die! Master saved me and gave me a new life so that I could return to my true self. If I killed myself, it would be disrespectful to Master. I am a Falun Dafa disciple, remembering that
“...when it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” (“Zhuan Falun”)
I cannot make Dafa look bad. Protecting Dafa books and not letting people commit sins against Falun Dafa is my responsibility.
Validating Master's and Falun Dafa's innocence is my responsibility. I arranged my time so that I could write truth-clarification flyers about Falun Dafa and mailed them when my husband was working or sleeping. After a while, local police took notice. They didn’t talk to me, but they told my husband to monitor me around the clock. He frequently scolded and beat me. The police realized that he was scared, so they tried to frightened him even more. I didn't let up in my efforts to clarify the truth about Falun Dafa. When we visit our parents, he walks fast. I walk behind him and take every opportunity to tell people about Falun Dafa.
As I continue to study the Fa calmly and improve my level, I know that:
“Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.”(“Zhuan Falun”)
Everything is given to us by Master and as long as I have the desire to save people, Master will arrange opportunities for me to do it.
Advising People Not to Persecute Falun Dafa
After the publication of the Nine Commentaries of the Chinese Communist Party, Master told us to tell people the facts about Falun Dafa and advise people to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. No matter how many or how few people I was able to advise, I never stopped for one day. I always tell people the facts about Falun Dafa face to face, and then give them materials so that his or her family can be saved too.
All these years, I carry truth-clarifying materials with me daily and quietly save people. I pay with money that has truth-clarifying messages on them when shopping for vegetables and fruit. Many people at the three nearby vegetable markets have withdrawn from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I also send forth righteous thoughts intensively to eliminate evil factors in other dimensions. There has been very little interference in that regard.
One day I saw a person selling popcorn. He said, “Everyone says that there is a person with great kindness here, everyone knows her. I have been looking for her, is that you?” I said, “Anyone who practices Falun Gong is kind. For the safety of this person, please stop looking for her.” I then told him about the staged Tiananmen self-immolation and other persecution facts. In the end, he withdrew from the CCP and its affiliated organization for himself and his family. I gave him some material and told him that he must let his family know the truth. Withdrawing from CCP is only effective if his family agrees to it. He said there would be no problem and kept thanking me before he left. It’s just like what Master said,
“All beings are waiting for you to save them.” (“Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa – Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference”)
Another evening I passed by a market. One young man was yelling, “Chinese chives one yuan per pound.” I asked him, “Other people sell it for two yuan per pound. You are selling it cheap. What if you and your wife start arguing after I bought it? This vegetable is fine, you can sell them to me two yuan per pound.” He and his wife had just started to argue about it. When they heard what I said, they said, “How can it be that there is still such a good person nowadays?” I told them, “Falun Dafa practitioners are good people.” I told them the facts about Falun Dafa and advised them to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I gave them some Falun Dafa material and told them to show it to all the people they knew.
One time, I was buying string beans. I said, “The price went up, it was a yuan fifty yesterday.” He said, “I am not going to raise the price for you.” I asked him why. He said, “Everyone here knows that you are a good person. You understand that it is not easy to sell vegetables.” Then someone else came and wanted to buy the string beans for a yuan fifty and he firmly refused. Upon hearing that, I took out the vegetables that I already picked out. I told him, “A practitioner who believes in Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance needs to be a good person. It is not nice for other people to buy those that I have picked through. You can just get some for me with today’s price.” I then said, “If this happened to me before, I would be delighted. But I have learned Dafa, and I already have many blessings. I cannot take advantage of you. My conscience wouldn't allow me to do so. If you recite Falun Dafa is good, you will be blessed and safe. It is better than anything you can give me.” I told him about the self-immolation and gave him some Falun Dafa materials. I asked him to pass the material to other people so that others can know the truth as well. Using this opportunity to tell people the facts about Falun Dafa to more people is very meaningful and worthwhile.
The merchants at three booths always call out, “Falun Dafa is good” with a big smile when they see me. One day, I saw that one of them was playing a DVD, and he told me that he was playing a Falun Dafa DVD. I thought he was joking, but it was the 2012 Shen Yun performance. I was grateful to fellow practitioners and happy for these three who know the facts about Falun Dafa.
I have realized that when everyday people are helping practitioners to spread the Fa, we the disciples need to do even better. The old forces want the world's people to be destroyed along with the evil spirit of the CCP. Falun Dafa disciples need to help Master in the Fa-rectification and save people. It is hard, but it is not so hard if one studies the Fa more and cultivates well. It is Master’s wish to let everyone in China know that “Falun Dafa is good.” That’s the sacred mission of practitioners. It is the disciples' wish to do well on the things that Master wants and please Master. I will do well in the three things and make the best use of time to save more people during the last leg of the Fa-rectification period.
Thank you to merciful Master! Thank you to fellow practitioners!
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