(Minghui.org) I had a rude awakening after reading the article “Put an End to Plagiarizing and Undermining the Fa” from the editors of the Minghui website. This was another warning for us to examine whether we are in the correct cultivation state and in the mindset of a Falun Dafa practitioner. I wondered why I still couldn't be rational and mature after years of cultivation. I could not let go of human notions and handle everything rationally. I read, circulated, and recommended the story carried by the Epoch Times. I was exactly like the description in the article, “starting up something new just to be different, validating himself, seeking novelty, being elated, and showing off—and this persists for a long time—the bad beings in the cosmos will seize upon this and interfere, stir up trouble, and disrupt Master’s rectifying of the Fa and saving people. When a person cannot regard things correctly, often he is destroying more than just himself.” The person who wrote the article as well as those who read it are all putting themselves at risk.
After I looked within, I realized that it was a problem of not having enough understanding of the serious nature of cultivation. Teacher has many times warned us in his teachings that cultivation is a serious matter, and this is precisely what I did not pay attention to. I often put my personal preferences into Dafa work I did, and so the work I did was not pure. I have to wonder whether the work I did had a significant impact on the sentient beings or not. I am afraid the answer is no. My curiosity often made me carry on propaganda. For example, there were practitioners who often came to me to get the materials I downloaded from the Internet. I often shared with them interesting news I read when browsing online, the kind of news that I knew was improper to spread among practitioners, and told them, “There is a small attachment for you.”
When I promised to edit something, most of time I was able to keep my promise. However, sometimes I took on other work I liked to do such as making amulets (1) or cards. The other work ended up taking most of my time, including the time for studying the Fa, and, eventually, I fell into a bad cultivation state. Had I followed the teachings and cultivated myself better, I could have assisted Teacher in validating the Fa with the expertise Teacher gave me. Instead, I did not keep a clear head and was constantly influenced by various human notions and made mistakes. On the path of cultivation, I often went astray. I tried to do a lot but was often tired and did not seem to improve. I did the three things, but I did not do them well. I could not let go of human notions and so the interference never stopped.
Having a weak main consciousness was one reason for being interfered with so much. I could not focus and stay clearheaded when I studied the Fa. It was just another routine: I read and memorized the teachings but I did not see the meaning. I fell asleep when I meditated and sent righteous thoughts. This bothered me and I am now trying to improve.
Being eager to accomplish Dafa work was another attachment of mine. It was a major bump on the path of cultivation that kept me from calming down. I was always busy and I thought about work when I studied the Fa and vice versa.
Believing in Teacher and the Fa is what makes us look within. Some of us wanted to read articles about other dimensions and were willing to hear about magical things other practitioners saw. What Teacher taught us is far beyond any of these things. Why then did we want to read about the low level things in these stories? In my opinion, it was because we could not see other dimensions. We felt that what was in the Fa was too high to reach and we could not understand many things. As for the things we don't understand, we should not try to enlighten to them at will, which is very hard to do. The stories written by practitioners had a lot of suspense and interesting twists and turns. These stories conform to our notions and emotions. They were easy to read and entertaining. Reading these stories did not make us good practitioners. In fact, reading them was worse than watching television, because these stories were interference from the low levels that could destroy our cultivation.
We must eliminate our notions and truly believe in Teacher and the Fa. We must study the Fa and study the Fa well. There is everything we need to know in the Fa, whether or not we can see other dimensions.
Please point out anything incorrect in my personal opinions.
Note: (1) Amulets – In China, practitioners sometimes clarify the truth by giving people something small to wear or cherish, bearing a few words reminding them of the goodness of Dafa.
