New Practitioner: Master Helped Me through a Difficult Time
(Minghui.org) I am a new Falun Dafa practitioner who started cultivation in 2008. I used to be a playboy who engaged in eating, drinking, gambling and frequenting the brothels. This kind of hard living caused me to lose too much weight. I was in my thirties, weighed about 40 kilograms and suffered from serious heart disease. On the verge of death, I wrote a will to take care of my wife and son, and was ready to leave this world.
My mother, a Falun Dafa practitioner, was not reconciled to my failures. One day, holding the book of Zhuan Falun in both hands, she said, “Whether you can be saved or not depends on your fate. Only Dafa is able to save your life. Let us see if you have predestined good fortune.” With a little glimmer of hope, I started to read Zhuan Falun and finished the book very quickly. I understood that this book talked about a completely different reality, and I realized that I did not deserve to be a human being. Thus I decided to change myself and to cultivate under the guidance of Falun Dafa.
I started to become a good person, as the Fa requires, giving up my bad habits and making a clean break with the past. Being enlightened by Master, within several months, I quit smoking, drinking, and gaming, and eliminated my drug addiction. My weight returned to normal, and I felt like a new man. I resumed my job and everybody thought I was a new man. All my friends looked at me in a different light.
It was not long before the old forces took advantage of my loopholes. Since I did not join any local group Fa study, I did not develop a very deep understanding of the Fa. I was not clear about the principles of the Fa either. Due to a busy work schedule, I ignored studying the book. At the time, I did not know about the old forces. On the morning of August 20, 2010, a cooking oil pan burst into flames while my wife was on the phone. In a moment of desperation, I grabbed the pan and rushed outside. The wind blew the flame towards me and thus the upper part of my body was severely burned. At once, I was sent to the hospital where I was diagnosed with second degree burns. Heart problems occurred during treatment of my burns and the doctor gave me medicine to put under my tongue to prevent a heart attack. The strange thing was that the pills did not melt inside my mouth for over ten minutes. I spit the pills out and then I felt better and was able to breathe more easily. At that time, I could not help crying because I knew that Master saved me again.
I had not cultivated diligently, which provided a chance for the old forces to take advantage of me. The doctor said, “As a patient with second degree burns over such a large area of your body, you must stay in the hospital.” I did not follow his advice and went back home anyway.
The next morning, my family and I were shocked when the bandage on my arm was removed. My arm was badly swollen to double its size and was covered with blisters. My left hand was severely burned and the front of my chest and face were covered with blisters also. There was virtually no area on my upper body that was not burned. When I returned to the hospital, the doctor said that I could not go back home this time and must receive treatment right away. At that time, my mother did not know what else to do and said sadly, “This trial is not as easy to pass as some others may have been. You stay at the hospital and I will buy an mp3 player for you so that you can listen to the Fa here. You will not waste your time even if you are in the hospital.” This time I remained in the hospital.
During those tough days and nights in the hospital, I suffered as if tortured every time the dressing was changed. I shivered convulsively and ran a high fever, but I forbore without taking any medicine. With the protection of Master, my temperature went down two hours later.
When nobody disturbed me during the daytime, I would study the Fa. On the 20th day after the accident, when the doctor changed my dressing he said to another doctor, “I have never heard him complain of pain during a dressing change. He is so brave.” The other doctor replied, “I cannot believe it. I have never met such a patient.” I felt Master prompting me and realized that I needed to leave the hospital at once. When I told the attending physician about my plan, he was surprised and said, “Why do you want to leave the hospital since you are not yet recovered? Who will take responsibility if the wound is infected again? ” Then I told him that I was prepared to assume the consequences. I thought that I must follow Master and not allow myself to listen to others. I knew that Master wanted me to go back home.
My mother advised me to look inside myself and try to find what caused the old forces to persecute me. I realized that I studied the Fa too little and practiced the exercises rarely. I failed to do the three things completely according to the Fa and had not eliminated a lot of attachments. Thus, the old forces got the chance to persecute me. Benevolent Master protected me from persecution and saved me this time. My mother said that I could learn from these failures and start all over again. I must walk steadily along this road and cultivate diligently to pay back Master’s grace.
Within the following two months, I studied all of Master's lectures. I read some of them several times. Then I understood the mission and responsibility of a Dafa disciple during the Fa-rectification period. At a critical time in my cultivation, Master did not give up on me, even though I let him down. He still saved me and regarded me as a Dafa practitioner. I will fulfill my prehistoric vows by doing the three things very well. Master said,
“If you, as my student, truly want to “help Master rectify the Fa,” then you should concern yourself only with how to best fulfill what Master wants. This alone is what you should be doing, yet you want instead for Master to help you.” (“What does it Mean to “Help Master Rectify the Fa”?”)
We need to try our best to fulfill what Master wants, help Master rectify the Fa and eliminate the evil old forces. Two months later, I was nearly recovered and I could gradually do the five exercises. I witnessed the miraculous effect of the Fa. My mother helped me find a Fa study group and other fellow disciples taught me how to visit the Minghui website. I started to go out to clarify the truth. I knew that it was Master who helped me mature from a new practitioner, little by little, and catch up with the course of Fa-rectification. Today, I am a practitioner with strong determination and I do the three things well with the help of other practitioners. I will walk steadily along my cultivation road.
These are my personal cultivation experiences. Due to my limited cultivation level, please kindly correct me if I am wrong.