(Minghui.org) Although I started cultivating much later than some veteran practitioners, Teacher's requirements for me are the same as for other Dafa disciples, to be a steadfast Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple.
When I had just started cultivation, Teacher arranged for me to be with a practitioner who was very good at studying the Fa. Every day we compared how we studied the Fa and how we were doing in cultivation. That solid two years of Fa study allowed me to improve very quickly. It helped me establish a good foundation to think based on the Fa and to have a smooth cultivation path.
Two years later, Teacher arranged for me to meet a practitioner who was very good at clarifying the truth. We have collaborated well for the past few years in clarifying the truth to people, distributing truth-clarification VCDs to villages, and discussing the truth about Falun Dafa at the police station.
I am truly grateful to fellow practitioners for pointing out my attachments, which has allowed me to improve rapidly in my understanding of the Fa.
Recently however, I had difficulty letting go of some of my attachments, and doing the three things well. The practitioner that I was collaborating with pointed out my attachments again and again, but I didn't listen. When he asked me to go out to clarify the truth, I refused to go because of my attachments. Despite my attitude, he kept asking me to collaborate with him so that I wouldn't fall behind in the progress of Fa-rectification.
Now I think about him, about how pure he is! But I couldn't look within at that time. Instead, I kept thinking, “You also have a lot of attachments. Why don't you look at yourself? You just keep criticizing me.”
I had many attachments. I didn't want to be criticized, I pursued fame, and I blamed others. The root cause was jealousy. Teacher repeatedly used the words of other practitioners to give me hints. Yesterday, that practitioner benevolently pointed out my gaps again and said, “If what I said was wrong, please let me know. But don't use excuses to avoid seeing me when I ask you to collaborate on truth-clarification. I won't know that you are angry and that your attachments are interfering.” This felt a shock at the bottom of my heart, and I felt like crying. I knew that he was being responsible for me, and I felt very regretful for my recent behavior. In spite of having such a good practitioner helping me cultivate, I didn't cherish it. Instead I rejected him out of my jealousy. I was very wrong!
I said thousands of times in my heart to Teacher, “I know I was wrong. I will eliminate my attachment to jealousy. I will cherish this sacred predestined relationship with fellow practitioners, and I will cultivate well and follow Teacher home.”
