(Minghui.org) I produced truth clarification materials for years on my own. I also maintained my own printer and computers. Whenever I needed technical support, I went online to learn the skills and solved the problems independently. I was able to accomplish this because Teacher opened my wisdom and protected me all the way. Within this environment, I lacked the experience of cooperating with fellow practitioners. Moreover, I had a strong attachment to self. I couldn't accept criticism, appropriate or not. I knew that this was an attachment that I had to eliminate in cultivation.
Once I developed this heart, compassionate Teacher arranged for me to participate on a technical team. All team members are practitioners skilled in technology. They all did the three things well. When we were together, I saw my gap and admired them very much.
When I first joined the team, they were developing a truth clarification project. I also worked on the same project before; however, I found that they didn't pay attention to security issues about the project. They didn't even reach the basic requirements in this respect. I pointed out the problem, but they didn't listen. They gave me hints, like: “It's a human attachment. It's all right as long as we keep righteous thoughts.” I talked to them about it twice, but they didn't accept my advice, so I never mentioned it again. However, when I saw them again, I was extremely tired of them. As soon as I became aware of this feeling, I smiled in my heart. I knew that I hadn't joined the team in vain. I was reluctant to attend their regular meetings at first, but once I realized my attachment, I felt that it was really worthwhile to keep coming because I'd finally identified my feelings, feelings of tiredness/impatience, which may be the same as what others felt about me. The fellow practitioners didn't have the attachment to self, but I did. Teacher let me sense how others felt about me, and that I was so attached to self! Once I'd identified my attachment, I needed to let it go. Then how to let it go? Lay down my self, and cooperate with fellow practitioners silently. I began studying the technology regarding the security issue. I was going to teach them after finding the solution; it didn't matter whether or not they'd accept it. When I let go of self, they wanted to know more about my suggestion.
One time, I was given an opportunity to improve myself in our Fa study group, during a discussion about producing Falun Dafa books. Two veteran practitioners needed two Dafa books. They wanted to print the books themselves and asked me to bind and make covers for them. The coordinator asked us to produce more books and assigned one practitioner to print the covers. The coordinator also asked me to teach that practitioner how to print the books and assigned me to do the binding. Since he knew how to print materials, I asked, “Is it necessary to teach him such easy work? Moreover, it's unnecessary to get so many people involved. I'll print the covers, then bind the books myself.” The coordinator said, “Why do it on your own? Why can't you cooperate with others?” Upon hearing this, I knew in my heart that I was wrong. However, I still argued with him and defended myself. I didn't feel well on my way home; I felt so remorseful. I thought, “I've been practicing cultivation for years. Why couldn't I tolerate criticism? Why am I so attached to my self?” Such a feeling accompanied me and didn't diminish until I was almost home. My brain gradually quieted. I thought that maybe Teacher had removed the substance for me.
The following day, I went to the coordinator's home. I smiled and said, “I came to cooperate with you.” He also smiled. I felt lighter after I let go of self-attachment. Enjoying the harmonious feeling together with fellow practitioners is so wonderful!
I was enlightened to this point from my experiences: This was a manifestation of the old cosmos' selfishness - to attach to self, validate self, be self-centered, tolerate no criticism, etc. The root is selfishness. If we do not align with the Fa and let go of our selfishness, our cooperation with fellow practitioners will be seriously affected. As a result, this will prevent us from doing the three things well and saving sentient beings.
After I studied Teacher's new article “What Is a Dafa Disciple”, I realized the responsibilities and mission on my shoulders. Only by studying the Fa and cooperating well with fellow practitioners can we accomplish our prehistoric vows together here on earth!
Category: Improving Oneself
