(Minghui.org)
Mom,
You might be surprised and wonder why your daughter is writing you a letter. I am writing this letter to you, sincerely hoping you will acknowledge that Falun Dafa is good and Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance [Zhen-Shan-Ren] is good.
In February of 2011, I visited a friend at her home, and she was reading Zhuan Falun. I was very curious and asked her what she was reading. She immediately handed me another copy and we read together. I clearly remember we were reading Lecture Two, and it was about the tianmu (the third eye). I was amazed because I remembered an incident at our home village in the summer of 2010 when a farmer accurately stated the color and appearance of the house we have overseas. We could not figure out how could she see that. It was unbelievable! I did not understand until I read Zhuan Falun. I did not think much about it at the time, I just felt that this book was very well written. It explained how and why certain things happened to me in the past. Since then, my friend played Teacher Li Hongzhi's lectures on her car stereo whenever I rode in her car. I enjoyed listening to Teacher Li's lectures. Everything he said made so much sense; the more I listened the more I wanted to listen. There were times when I did not want to get out of her car because I wanted to listen more.
In March of 2011, I did not want to get out of my friend's car because I wanted to listen to more of Teacher Li's Fa. Therefore, I said to my friend, “I want to read with you, too.” She looked at me surprised and immediately handed me a copy of Zhuan Falun. I went home and read Lecture One. It was written so well and explained so much, and it interpreted everything I could not understand in the past. Some areas of the book are so profound that I cannot completely comprehend the entire meaning. After I finished reading Zhuan Falun for the first time, I felt that my mind had elevated up to a new level. I cannot lie anymore, and I must also treat everyone with kindness. I also learned that one would gain karma from doing bad deeds, saying hurtful words, or hitting and bullying others. On the contrary, if one can restrain oneself and not react when being yelled at and hit, one will gain virtue. Teacher Li said in Lecture Four of Zhuan Falun:
“In cultivation practice, there may be two scenarios when dealing with specific conflicts or when others treat you badly. One is that you might have treated this person badly in your previous life. You feel in your heart that it is unfair, "How can this person treat me like this?" Then why did you treat this person that way in the past? You might claim that you actually did not know it at that time, and this life has nothing to do with the other life. That does not work. There is another issue. In conflicts, the issue of transforming karma is involved. Therefore, in dealing with specific conflicts we should be forgiving instead of acting like ordinary people. ” (Zhuan Falun)
Thus, I knew Falun Gong was cultivation!
I wanted to be a Buddhist nun ever since I was a little. I told you of that wish when I was in elementary school. Now, I have found a way to cultivate without going into a temple, and I can cultivate and elevate my virtue in ordinary society. I cannot find the right words to express my feelings! I am so fortunate! I want to show this book to everyone in the world! With this thought in mind, I told my classmates in school about the goodness of Falun Dafa and how Dafa expects a person to live up the standard of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. My classmates also acknowledged it and saw the changes in me. All of the people around me know that I practice Falun Dafa, and they are very supportive! A few classmates who had watched the Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) slander of Falun Dafa did not say anything to me. Right after I began cultivating, I dreamt every day about studying the Fa with you and letting you know the truth about Falun Dafa when I return to China. When I imagined studying the Fa with you every day, I became very happy.
When I returned to China in April of 2011 during my school break, I had only been learning Falun Dafa for one month, so I did not have a good understanding about the Fa at all. However, I knew I wanted to return to my true self, to my pure original self. I remember during my middle school years, I made some wrong friends: I dyed my hair, had my ears pierced [it is inappropriate for school girls in China to have ears pierced], I dressed in shocking styles, missed classes, talked back to teachers, I smoked and drank alcohol, and my grades were always amongst the lowest in class. I would kick and flip over my classmates' desks if they did not yield to me. My classmates called me “Big sister Sheng;” I was almost like the “head of the bad kids” in my school. The school wanted to suspend me many times. You were afraid of going to my parent-teacher conferences, too.
You were the top manager at your business and never encountered difficulty, but for me, you acted humble and begged for favors on my behalf; you shed so many tears because of me. Here, I want to apologize: I gave you too much trouble, and that was very selfish and insensitive of me! I could not stay in school anymore in China, and you sent me to school overseas. After I left China, without adult supervision, I became more wild. I pretended to be good in front of you, but I always lied and told you I was doing my school work when we talked on the phone. As a result, I haven't graduated from high school after four years. In fact, I was out drinking and partying with friends until midnight every night. If I had not learned Falun Dafa, I would be living in hell!
Teacher Li fished me out from hell, and washed me clean bit by bit. Just like Teacher Li said in Zhuan Falun:
“We have said that no matter how much human moral values have changed, this characteristic of the universe, Zhen-Shan-Ren, will forever remain unchanged. If someone says that you are good, you may not really be good. If someone says that you are bad, you may not really be bad. This is because the criteria that evaluate good and bad are distorted. Only one who complies with this characteristic of the universe is a good person. It is the sole criterion which determines a good or bad person, and it is recognized by the universe. Although great changes have taken place in human society, human moral values have declined tremendously. Human morality is deteriorating daily, and profits have become the sole motivation. Yet changes in the universe do not occur according to changes in humankind. As a practitioner, one cannot conduct oneself based on the standard of everyday people. It is not permitted if you go do things simply because everyday people consider them right. When everyday people say that it is good, it may not be good. When everyday people say that it is bad, it may not be bad, either. In this time when the moral values are distorted, if you tell someone that he is doing something bad, he will not believe it! As a practitioner, one must assess things with the characteristic of the universe. Only then can one distinguish what is genuinely good and what is truly bad. ” (Zhuan Falun)
I used to waste a lot of food, and now I never even waste a grain of rice. You used to force me to study every day, and I gave my teachers a lot of headaches, too. Nowadays, I study on my own, and my teachers all like me. I take the initiative to do household chores that I had never done before. You saw the changes in me when I went to visit for vacation, however, you also believed the slander about Dafa. Mother, why are you unwilling to see the changes in your own daughter? The self-immolation at Tiananmen Square was staged, which is known outside of China. It was a fake! It is too bad you don't get to see genuine news in China, so I don't blame you for being deceived. Falun Dafa has spread to over 100 countries, which you would not have known in China. During my three-month stay in China, to prevent me from practicing Falun Gong, you sent me to work, you threatened me with suicide, and almost made me leave the house. My heart was not moved. I knew that this Fa has cleansed my soul, it has changed me for good, and I will never, ever give up practicing it!
Maybe you don't know what it is like to be treated coldly by your only family. Once you found out that I was practicing Falun Dafa, your attitude toward me became just like all the other deceived ordinary people's attitudes toward Falun Dafa. Don't you remember? You would get a headache after you said disrespectful words about Falun Dafa. Falun Dafa is a Buddhist cultivation practice. You have heard people from our home village who experienced similar symptoms when they did not show respect to Buddha and Gods. You asked me, too, about why your head would hurt so much after you shouted at me. I have never told you this before: your headache was not due to shouting at me, but due to shouting at Buddha.
During the Christmas holiday in 2011, you came to visit me. We got along very well, and we were very happy until you found out that I was still practicing Falun Dafa. You changed into a different person, and you asked me to leave. I refused to leave, not because I was afraid of leaving, but because I did not want to leave you at home alone. You don't speak English. How could you get around, and what if your old illness recurred and you passed out on the floor? When I did not leave, you then said many ill words toward Dafa. I told you that Falun Dafa is good, and that it is Falun Dafa that has changed me. I went back to my room quietly and cried, not in feeling sorry for myself, but in truly wanting you to know the truth about Falun Dafa. I read Zhuan Falun with tears. Such a good Dafa; why wouldn't you want to read and hear about it? I cooked dinner for you that night. After dinner, you said: “Mom overreacted, I apologize. I treated you terribly, and not only you did not get mad at me, but you cooked me dinner.” I smiled and told you not to worry about it. Dafa had taught me this! Cultivators will neither talk back nor hit back.
I am crying again as I am writing this. It is not your fault. You are a kind person, and those who interact with you are moved by your work ethic and fortitude. However, it is because you are kind, that you are thus deceived by the CCP and have believed their lies. Do you know that since the CCP took over the government, all the news is simply the news that the CCP wants the Chinese people to know? They make up the news. You know of Liu Shaoqi. The CCP praised him at the beginning, but he was later labeled as a traitor and a rebel overnight. He was declared to be innocent after he died. It is the same way with how the CCP slanders Falun Dafa.
Prior to 1999, over 100 million people were practicing Falun Dafa. They were good people living by the standards of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. Falun Dafa also has unbelievable healing power, thus many cancer patients were cured from practicing it. However, due to jealousy, Jiang [Zemin] fabricated lies and stirred up hatred toward Falun Dafa, and Chinese people began treating their own people as enemies! Then the lies started to spread around the globe. Do you know that in China, there are already over 110 million people who have severed their connection with the CCP [the Young Pioneers, the Communist Youth League, and the Communist Party]? Withdrawing from the party does not mean that you have to take your file out of the system. It is an act of making an announcement on the overseas website, Dajiyuan.com. Why is it done like that? It is because Buddhas and Gods judge people by their hearts. The CCP has done so many bad things since 1949: the Great Leap Forward and the resulting three years of famine in the '60s, the Cultural Revolution, the Tiananmen massacre, the persecution of Falun Dafa, and other political movements. During these movements, the Chinese people were themselves the targets. Eighty million Chinese people died from causes other than natural death, which exceeds the number of casualties of the two World Wars combined. Look at today's China: workers losing jobs, farmers losing land, corruptions, and injustice. Heaven will one day take care of this chaos. Withdrawing from the CCP is not to act against the CCP, the end of the CCP is determined by the cosmic climate. Don't you know, as an innocent civilian, when the CCP is eliminated by heaven, we would all be dragged down with it if we were still in their party?
We are mother and daughter in this lifetime, and we rely on each other in this world. I would never harm you, so my every word is for your own benefit. During the days we are not together, I hope you can say, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” with a genuine heart, and you will receive blessings! I hope you choose the right path and safely pass the calamity.
March 8, 2012
Category: Improving Oneself
