(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa in August 2010, so I didn't experience the magnificence and happiness of exercising and group study before the persecution. Neither did I experience the omnipresent evil persecution. I learned about these things by reading experience sharing articles on the Minghui website. Through the articles, Teacher let me understand the attachments that I needed to eliminate in the process of Fa rectification, and urged me to catch up with the process.
Painstakingly Eliminating Attachments
Before I became a practitioner, I pursued emotional love but at the same time doubted whether there was true love. I was in and out of relationships. After I learned Falun Dafa, I knew that what I was doing was morally wrong, and decided to change my behavior. A month after I became a practitioner, my boyfriend at the time, whom I could not get rid of, suddenly decided to break up peacefully. I was a bit surprised but let go quickly.
Soon after that, I heard that my ex-husband was marrying his girlfriend. Upon learning this my heart was beating so fast. If I had not been a practitioner, I would have interfered in various ways. Jealousy, hatred, and aggressiveness prevented me from calming down. However, I knew that everything happened for a reason, and as a practitioner I had to let it go. I asked Teacher to help me when I meditated. I remembered that I went to several fortune tellers, all of them told me that I would get back with my ex-husband. I wondered why this happened the minute I became a practitioner. I then remembered what Teacher said in Zhuan Falun,
“As a practitioner, your path of life will be changed from now on. My fashen will rearrange it for you.”
I realized that Teacher had rearranged my path of life, and used such methods to let me quickly free myself from emotions and all sorts of notions.
I questioned myself whether I wanted to return to my true self or to be a everyday person. I quickly answered Teacher, “I don't want the so-called happiness of everyday people. I want to follow Teacher and return home.” After I said that, my heart contracted and I felt excruciating pain. I understood at the moment that I had parted with all the pains and sorrows from before. Half an hour later, the jealousy, hatred, ego, aggressiveness, and vengeance faded away and my heart calmed down. I felt so relaxed and comfortable. I knew I had passed the test.
Righteous Thoughts Are Key to Supernormal Ability
Teacher said “Dafa Disciples’ Righteous Thoughts are Powerful” (Essentials for Further Advancement II). I was enlightened that Teacher had given every practitioner supernormal abilities. I believed that Teacher also gave me, a new practitioner, the ability because I was a practitioner during Fa rectification. I finally got a chance to use the ability last year on the Internet.
The first two days I was occasionally able to read articles on the Minghui website. The third day I could not get on Minghui at all. I knew it was the evils blocking the website. I suddenly remembered, “Hasn't Teacher already endowed me supernormal abilities? A practitioner accessing the Minghui website is a most righteous action, and no one can interfere.” I immediately sent righteous thoughts, “I am Master's disciple and no one can stop me from accessing Minghui to study and share. I will access Minghui from another dimension and the Internet blockade won't hinder me. Disintegrate the Internet blockade and let the people of the world know the truth and be saved.” I recited the formula of righteous thoughts and opened my eyes. I was on the Minghui website! I finished reading all of the sharing articles on Minghui that day without a problem. From then on, when I tried to get on the Internet, I thought, “Link to Minghui through another dimension.” From that day on, I have been able to access Minghui every day.
I have enlightened that Teacher has endowed us with certain supernormal abilities whether we are new or veteran practitioners. Teacher also handed us the key to the abilities--our righteous thoughts.
Practitioners Are Born Selfless
Teacher said,
“To tell you the truth, the entire cultivation process for a practitioner is one of constantly giving up human attachments.” (Zhuan Falun)
When I was an everyday person, I often thought that I did not care about fame and personal gain. Now I know that I was far from it. When I began the practice, I could see that I had an attachment for personal gain in everything I did. When I gradually let of the this attachment, the attachment to fame emerged- vanity, ego, jealousy, showing off, could not be criticized, wanting perfection, wanting to save face, etc. As the attachment to fame faded away, I realized that both attachments to fame and personal gain come from emotion. In the process of letting go these two attachments, I also let go of emotion. As my cultivation progressed, I realized that self is the root of all emotions.
From the Fa principles, I knew that I could break through the old universe if I could break through self. However I could not carry it out. It bothered me that I did not have much compassion. For example, I knew that saving people was urgent but I just did not want to act accordingly. I knew that every being came for the Fa but I didn't think those who dwelled in fame and personal gain were worth saving. I also knew that I was opinionated, had preferences, and wanted comfort, but I just could not change the way I was.
A while ago I was suddenly awakened after I studied a new article from Teacher. I realized that all the thoughts I had were wrong; they were the old forces' thoughts. The old forces wanted to weed out lives, and this was definitely not what I wanted. The old forces had forced these thoughts upon me. The moment the true me decided to risk everything to come down to this world with Teacher, he removed the selfishness that belonged to the lives in the old universe from me. At that moment, I was selfless. I was a new life that lived for others. Hence all the practitioners who came here to help Teacher rectify the Fa were born selfless.
When I was enlightened to this, I suddenly felt relieved. Now every time I send righteous thoughts, in the first five minutes I think, “Thoroughly eliminate all the elements of selfishness and deteriorated matter the old forces forced upon me.”
In the two years of practice, I have lived in the joy of feeling completely different in body and mind. I still have many things to do and there are still many notions awaiting for me to eliminate. My vows and responsibilities are waiting for me. I must be more diligent because Teacher is waiting for me.
Cultivation is a very serious matter. This is absolutely true. Please kindly point out anything incorrect.
