After Strengthening My Righteous Thoughts, I Was Able to Establish a Materials Production Site in My Home
(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1997, and I've been a practitioner for 14 years. After the persecution started in 1999, our group Fa-study environment was damaged. In Essentials for Further Advancement II, Master said, “Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy.” (“Rationality”) So I also joined fellow practitioners' efforts to validate the Fa.
When I first began helping prepare truth-clarification materials, the persecution was very rampant and there were not many production sites. One day, a practitioner took me to practitioner A's home. After entering the door and seeing computers, printers, as well as other equipment everywhere, even on the floor, I became nervous. The practitioner said, “You two are responsible for this materials production site from now on.” Back then I didn't know what to do and I was fearful, but after seeing how the other practitioners were so calm, my fear lessened.
Practitioner A and I worked together to prepare truth-clarification materials. She put a lot of effort into it and paid attention to details. With help from the other practitioners, we learned the whole process, from downloading and editing to printing files. With Master's care, we were able to run the production site steadily for three years. My attachment to fear was removed some during this process.
As the Fa-rectification continued, many materials production sites were established. I also wanted to set up one on my own. Although I had this thought and the related technical skills, there was some difficulty. Many of my human notions were blocking me and my husband didn't understand me. However, I reminded myself that no matter how hard it may seem, I had to do what a Dafa disciple is supposed to do.
Master saw my determination and arranged other practitioners to help me. One day, Practitioner B invited me to her home. After I arrived, she showed me a printer and said, “You can take it back to prepare materials.” I was very happy and after wrapping it up in a bag, took it home. My husband saw it and asked what it was. Thinking he was an everyday person who could not understand the urgency to save people, I didn't answer him directly.
When I began preparing materials myself, I became nervous. It took me some time to put everything together and I felt I had to avoid my husband when doing this. My mind was not calm and the printer often had problems. I knew this situation was not right, and I had to adjust myself and view the situation from the standpoint of the Fa.
Through continued Fa-study, I gained a better understanding of Master's words, “Pacify the External by Cultivating the Internal” (Essentials for Further Advancement) I knew my xinxing could affect the surrounding environment. Gradually I became less nervous and the printing went smoothly as well. Nonetheless, I was still afraid that my husband would see what I was doing when he returned home. I asked Master for help and sent forth righteous thoughts, “I am preparing truth-clarification materials and this is the most righteous thing in the universe. Any interference through my husband by the old forces is not allowed.” As long as I maintained righteous thoughts, things went well. He always left home when I needed to print materials and came back after I had finished. So for a long time he was unaware of what I was doing.
After some time, however, I slacked off in keeping my thoughts righteous, and the evil took advantage of my omission. One day, I set up the printer not long after my husband left. However, he soon returned and saw me printing pamphlets. He became very angry and punched the printer. The printer stopped working, but I didn't argue with him. I knew the old forces were manipulating him and I quickly thought about what to do next. After he left again, I turned on the printer and surprisingly, it worked just fine. I was very grateful because Master helped me again.
In order to protect the printer, I gave it to another practitioner. Her family supported her and soon after receiving the printer she was able to prepare materials independently.
One year later, we bought a new house but did not immediately move in. A practitioner gave me another printer and I put it in the new house. One day, my husband came in while I was printing pamphlets. He became angry with me and told me to get rid of the printer. I didn't want to lose this opportunity and thus I moved it back to our old house. However, several days later, my husband found it again. Just as I was wondering where to move the printer, I found Practitioner S. After listening to me explain my situation, she said I could place the printer in her home. Her family was very supportive. This way, with help from S, I was able to study the Fa and print materials in her home every week.
As time passed, I felt bad whenever I came back from Practitioner S's home. As a Dafa disciple, I could no longer provide a safe place for the printer, and instead placed the burden of keeping it safe on other practitioners. I was ashamed of myself. I decided to move the printer back home and I knew as a Dafa disciple I needed to take the lead and change the situation. In Essentials for Further Advancement II, Master said,
“Forbearance (ren) is not cowardice, much less is it resigning oneself to adversity. Dafa disciples’ Forbearance is noble; is the manifestation of beings’ magnificent, indestructible, and diamond-like solidity; is tolerance for the purpose of upholding the truth; and is mercy toward and salvation of beings who still have human nature and righteous thoughts. Forbearance is absolutely not the limitless giving of free rein, which allows those evil beings who no longer have any human nature or righteous thoughts to do evil without limit. With Forbearance, one can give up everything for Truth. But Forbearance does not mean tolerating evil beings—that no longer have human nature or righteous thoughts—defying both human and divine laws as they corrupt sentient beings and Dafa’s existence at different levels, much less is it ignoring terrible crimes. Zhen, Shan, Ren is the Fa! And It is the manifestation of the Great Fa of the cosmos at different levels. It is absolutely not some human theory or guiding principle for ordinary human living, as human beings take it to be. If the evil has already reached the point where it is unsavable and unkeepable, then various measures at different levels can be used to stop it and eradicate it.” (“Beyond the Limits of Forbearance”)
I continued to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil that was interfering with me through my husband. I knew that I had to move the printer back home, and this time I was determined. Then one day, my husband suddenly told me I could move the printer back home. I almost couldn't believe it, and felt very happy for him. We worked together and moved the printer back home. I knew the evil that manipulated him had been eliminated. I was very thankful for Master's help. My husband is now very supportive and he even bought me a new printer to prepare materials. He also purchases paper and ink cartridges for it from time to time. He has benefited from Dafa as well.
As I look back, I realize that because my righteous thoughts were not strong, the old forces were able to take advantage of the situation and manipulate my husband to interfere with me. After I identified my loophole and decided to correct it, Master helped me and the interference was eliminated.
I'm sharing this with other practitioners hoping that all of us can improve our righteous thoughts together.