(Clearwidom.net) I have been cultivating in Falun Dafa for more than ten years. Although I have persisted in my Fa study, my improvement in various areas has been slow. After practicing for so long, I was perplexed. At one point, I thought that perhaps I did not know how to truly cultivate and did not know what true cultivation was.
I read articles written by fellow practitioners about how they cultivated and elevated through seriously studying the Fa. Their articles describing how they did the three things inspired and motivated me. In the past I read many of Master's lectures, and I really understood that it's important to study the Fa well. Afterwards, each time I studied the Fa, I would first send righteous thoughts to clear the interference and evil elements that were preventing me from calming down and truly studying. I would study intently for a while, and for a period of time, I felt that the quality of my Fa study was much better. Furthermore, I would occasionally have a new understanding of a particular paragraph. I felt that I finally knew how to study the Fa.
But gradually, I would once again feel that my improvement was too slow. I realized the new understanding I had of a paragraph of Fa was at a lower level. The truth is, I still did not know how to truly study the Fa, I had only become more diligent at it. I discovered the root of the problem. When I was studying the Fa, I was not concentrating. I was interested in everyday people's matters, and as I read, I was thinking about these things. Whether I was studying the Fa, doing the exercises or sending righteous thoughts, they would appear. When I still did not recognize how I allowed them to interfere, but continued to study the Fa, these thoughts wrapped themselves like a layer of fog around the Fa that I had just read. They would even totally erase the Fa I had just read from my mind, preventing me from remembering it. However, when I eliminated these thoughts, the Fa that I read would stay in my mind. When I strengthened my righteous thoughts, I felt that these substances gradually became lesser and weaker. However, they still existed, and they were still interfering with me.
A few days ago when I was studying the Fa, I suddenly realized that in the mind of a cultivator there are many attachments and perceptions. They are accumulated from many thousands of years ago. Why would they be willing to let us eradicate them? Master said,
“If you do not want to change your human state and rationally rise to a true understanding of Dafa, you will miss the opportunity. If you do not change the human logic that you, as an ordinary human, have formed deep in your bones over thousands of years, you will be unable to break away from this superficial human shell and reach Consummation.” (“Cautionary Advice” in Essentials for Further Advancement)
When I identified the root of my problem, I knew what to do. I sent strong righteous thoughts to fundamentally eradicate the evil beings that were interfering with my Fa study. I wanted to eradicate the evil elements that were blocking me from truly obtaining the Fa. Within a few days, I felt that the thoughts that revolved around every people’s matters were not as strong as before. These last two days, I could clearly sense that the substance had been removed.
