Firmly Walking on the Path of Cultivation
(Clearwisdom.net) When I was born, the midwife said that I would be a lucky person. When I was a child, I liked to draw fairies. During my teenage years, I saw beings in other dimensions that others could not see. I always believed that gods and Buddhas exist and that they are safeguarding kind people.
In January 1997, one of my colleagues lent me the book Zhuan Falun. When I read the section “Spirit or Animal Possession” in Lecture Three, I felt something blocking me from reading the book further. In the following days, I saw a black shadow flashing around me during the daytime. I immediately went to that colleague and learned the Falun Gong exercises from her. When I got home afterward, I saw a being like a fox fleeing away from a window. Since then, the black shadow has never showed up again. Later I understood that the evil had been trying to prevent me from obtaining the Fa.
When I first began to practice Falun Gong, I was working as an accountant and was strongly attached to wealth. Even though I knew it was wrong, I collaborated with the director of my workplace to embezzle some money. Master gave me hints in my dreams several times. In one dream, a boy was playing with a ship in a mud puddle, but then he and the ship started to sink. An old man with a white beard brought the boy and the ship to the bank of the mud puddle. When I asked the old man who that boy was, he pointed to a blackboard, where I saw a name and a birth date. Although the name was different, the birthday was the same as mine. In another dream, I was in a room that was about to collapse, with only a few boards left on the wooden floor. The abyss under the boards was full of snakes and animals. I was so scared that I woke up. Since then, I told myself that I would not let Master down and must be a true practitioner following the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
One day in August 1997, a month after I had obtained the Fa, one of my husband's friends who worked in the police department called us. He told us that there would be a big earthquake that night and that we should go elsewhere. My husband asked me to prepare quickly, but I didn't want to go.
I held Master's photo and said, “Master, would you tell me if there will be an earthquake tonight?” There was no sign of response, so I said, “Master, if there will be an earthquake, please nod your head; if not, please shake your head.” I could not believe my eyes: In the photo, Master shook his head while smiling at me. I rubbed my eyes and looked again—Master was still shaking his head with a smile. I excitedly told my husband that we didn't need to leave. I knew that this was Master's encouragement to me. I became more steadfast in my cultivation following this experience.
Persecution Affects Family
After the Chinese Communist regime began to persecute Falun Gong on July 20, 1999, a few fellow practitioners and I discussed that we should print some materials to clarify the facts about Falun Gong to people. We used our own money to print materials and then delivered the information to people's homes, covering our city and its surrounding areas.
My husband and I both worked for the Air Force. In 2001, the officials from my workplace and my husband's workplace came to my home almost every day to try to persuade me to stop practicing Falun Gong. My husband was under a lot of pressure. One day he called me and asked me to go to his office. When I got there, he said to me in a begging tone, “Would you stop practicing?” I shook my head. Then he punched my face. My tear sac was broken and my tears kept falling, but I did not say a word. When we got home, I immediately started cooking and brought the dishes to him with a smile. He said to me with tears in his eyes, “The Fa from your Master is great.”
Because I practiced Falun Gong, I was forced to transfer to a different workplace in the Air Force. There were five people in my new office who were the wives of high-ranking officers. They were assigned to monitor me. They were afraid that their association with a Falun Gong practitioner would affect their husbands' promotions, so they treated me coldly, but I never harbored any hatred toward them. Every morning, I came earlier than they did and cleaned up the office and their desks. I boiled the water and had their tea ready in their cups. At first, they poured the tea and wiped their desks again. However, I continued with the same routine. After a while, they came to realize that I was a good person and not the kind of person depicted by the false Chinese Communist Party (CCP) propaganda about Falun Gong practitioners. They started to talk to me, and I clarified the truth about Falun Gong to them. They have since withdrawn from the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
In August 2001, the officials at my workplace and the local 610 Office sent me to a brainwashing center. I was continuously brainwashed for three consecutive days and nights. I was also forced to squat for long periods of time and was deprived of sleep. I passed out a few times from the torture. Unable to understand the Fa righteously and to bear the torture and the pressure, I wrote a guarantee statement, promising to stop practicing Falun Gong.
In October 2001, because of my previous persistence in practicing Falun Gong, my husband, a high-level pilot, was ordered to stop flying at the age of 36. This was a huge shock to him. I felt sad but told him with tears in my eyes that practicing Falun Gong was not wrong. He did not say a word, and I knew from his look that he agreed with me. A miracle happened later on. The Air Force established a new rule that high-level officers could look for new careers, and domestic airlines started to recruit Air Force pilots. My husband got job offers from several airline companies within a year. I knew that Master was safeguarding us.
After being released from the brainwashing center, I left the Air Force to work at an insurance company. I pursued fame and money and was the top sales person of my branch for three consecutive months. I was rewarded every month and was then promoted to be a manager. Shortly thereafter however, the doctor found that I had severe atrial jitter. I had this condition before, but it disappeared after I began practicing Falun Gong. It had now come back. I was shocked.
I recalled Master's lecture:
“Mortals can’t escape the suffering resulting from birth, aging, illness and death.” ("Lecture at the First Conference in North America")
I went to visit another practitioner and talked to her about my situation. Six months after stopping to practice Falun Gong, I resumed my cultivation.
Making Materials and Improving Xinxing
In early 2002, many of our local practitioners were illegally arrested and many Falun Dafa books and materials were confiscated. I thought about setting up a materials production site at my home, and shortly afterward, a fellow practitioner gave me a printer. I learned how to get on the Internet and download and print materials in one day. With some practice, I soon mastered the whole process. The learning process went so smoothly that I knew that Master was helping me.
I was once preparing to print the Minghui Weekly for distribution. I saw that the cover of the Minghui Weekly on the web had a color photo. I thought to myself that I would also like to put that color photo on our cover, but I didn't know how to do it. Just after I had this thought, that photo appeared on my cover on the computer screen. When I moved the mouse cursor over it, the dialog box displayed “cut and paste.” I had tears in my eyes because I knew that Master was teaching me.
In the beginning, I only provided materials to a few local practitioners nearby. Later, with many more practitioners joining the Fa-rectification, more materials were needed locally and in other areas as well. Although I was an impatient person, I made sure to be diligent when making Falun Dafa books and materials. Through the process, I eliminated many bad habits, like getting anxious and not being very careful, and I became more responsible. On the weekends, I delivered the materials to the other practitioners. For some time, one practitioner was never satisfied with my materials and always found problems with them. I felt like I was not being appreciated and I made complaints and grievances toward the practitioner instead of looking within. I sometimes cried after I got home, and then the printer had “tears,” too—the printed materials were full of black ink drips. When my xinxing was lagging behind, the printer had a paper jam. After I calmed down and dug out the attachment of being bothered by others' criticism, everything became smooth again. The practitioner no longer pointed out any problems and instead came to help me. The process of making the materials is the process of cultivating xinxing. When my xinxing met the Fa standard, the quality of the materials was good, production was quick, and the Fa-implements functioned well.
Walking Out of the Brainwashing Center
During the process of making materials, I exposed many attachments, including jealousy, zealotry, competitive mentality, showing off, and the mentality of just doing work. However, I didn't try to get rid of them but instead let them grow time after time, until I fell down really hard. In late 2007, six police cars surrounded me, and I was arrested. Before this happened, Master had given me hints in a dream. Someone was handing out books and I got a copy. However, I didn't look at the book's content but only checked whether it looked good. The cover of the book had two characters: xiu xin (cultivate xinxing). At the moment when I was arrested, I saw that half of the sky was black. I realized that I must have had a big loophole.
On the day of my arrest, the police went to my home and ransacked it, but they didn't find any Falun Gong-related materials. When they turned on my computer, it didn't function properly and kept restarting. I was first sent to a detention center, where some of the police officers were Air Force veterans from my husband's old workplace. Since we knew each other, I used this opportunity to clarify the truth about Falun Gong to them. I was sent to a brainwashing center the next day.
Right after I arrived at the brainwashing center, several people were assigned to torment me. I argued with them every day and did not allow them to say anything disrespectful about Master. One night, Master gave me hints in my dream. I realized that I had a strong attachment of competitiveness and that these people needed to be saved.
When there were many of them surrounding me during the day, I just covered myself with a quilt and recited the Fa, sent forth righteous thoughts, or recited Master's poem “Don't Be Sad:”
“Your body lies in prison—don’t be sorrowful, don’t be sad
With righteous thoughts and righteous actions, Fa is here
Calmly reflect on how many attachments you have
As you get rid of human mentality, evil is naturally defeated” (Hong Yin II)
When there were fewer people around me, I clarified the truth to them and persuaded them to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. Sometimes after I talked to them, I also found my own attachments.
After a few days, I had a strong wish to go home. I thought of writing a statement renouncing my belief in Falun Gong and then making up for this wrongdoing later. That night, I had a dream in which my pants were covered with mud.
After I woke up, Master's Fa appeared in my mind:
“What's cultivation? We just want to cleanse it, cleanse it step by step, all the way up.” ("Fa Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference")
A voice from a remote location also echoed in my ears:
“If the will is not firm
Barriers are like mountains
How to transcend the mortal world”
(“Severing,” from Hong Yin II)
I was shocked and started to dig out the attachment behind my dirty idea. I found that I had a strong attachment to comfort. Once the attachment was uncovered, I no longer held on to that idea. I realized that since I was in the evil den, I needed to dissolve the evil. I asked Master to strengthen my divine power and to help me disseminate all the evil there. Under Master's protection, I walked out of the brainwashing center.
My Husband Also Benefits From Falun Dafa
In 2003, my husband had a bad flying experience. After the plane had entered the clouds, it ran into strong air turbulence. The alarm went off and kept beeping. The captain was very scared. My husband told me that when he looked outside the window, he saw a huge Falun beneath the plane. Everyone turned out to be safe. Master protected them.
Once my husband returned home after a trip and told me how he had barely avoided danger. The refueling crew had just finished adding fuel, and he was returning to the cockpit to fly the plane. However, he heard a voice telling him to check the fuel, and it turned out that the plane had been filled up with fuel only halfway.
Another time, the car my husband was in crashed into an utility pole while trying to avoid hitting another car. The other four passengers were hurt, but my husband had no injuries. He was sitting in the front passenger seat, and his head hit the windshield and broke it, making a huge hole. The other people thought it was a miracle that he wasn't hurt.
My husband's employer decided to conduct a re-examination of all pilots, and many of the pilots failed this test. The night before his examination, my husband was very stressed, so I told him to recite “Falun Dafa is good!” When the examiner gave him a complicated flying simulation the next day, my husband said he felt as if someone was helping him handle the simulator so that every move was accurate. When the examination was over, the examiner gave him a thumbs-up, and he easily passed the test.
Fulfilling My Prehistorical Oath
After Master first told us to clarify the truth about Falun Gong, I began to clarify the facts to people I knew and asked them to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. Most of my relatives, friends, and classmates live far away from me, so I talked to a classmate about organizing a gathering. I also called other friends to clarify the truth to them. By now I have clarified the truth to all my friends and relatives, and most of them withdrew from the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
For some time, my husband and I lived in different cities, so I commuted by bus or train a lot between the two cities. I had chances to clarify the truth to many people sitting beside me along the way. I sometimes stopped people and talked to them. I would say, “I feel that you are a good person so I want to tell you something. I hope you don't mind.” Most of them didn't mind, so I told them about Heaven's destiny to eliminate the CCP and about the persecution of Falun Gong. Many were very happy to learn the truth.
We have a local Fa-study group and the practitioners who attend are very diligent. We study the Fa together and share our cultivation and understandings of the Fa. We have helped practitioners who could not step out to clarify the truth or who suffered from illness karma to improve based on the Fa. We took practitioners with the attachment of fear to clarify the truth with us, and then they gradually broke free of their fear and were able to clarify the facts in public. We also went to the countryside to distribute materials and clarify the truth to people.
Under Master's protection, I have walked on the cultivation path for thirteen years. From being selfish and unreasonable, I have become a kind, peaceful, and unselfish person. After my mother and father-in-law saw the changes in me and Dafa's beauty, both of them also started practicing. My husband also supports me.
Master told us in “Let Go of Human Attachments and Save the World's People,”
“Dafa disciples as a whole have passed the stage of personal cultivation. At present, because the enormous current of Fa-rectification is charging forward, the stage of Dafa disciples' validating the Fa is approaching completion and history is about to enter a new phase. From now on, the Dafa disciples in China as much as anyone, both new students and veterans alike, should let go of their long-standing human attachments and start to seize the day and comprehensively save the world's people. Once the current time period is over, the first large-scale process of weeding out sentient beings will begin. For a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple, personal liberation is not the goal of cultivation: when you came, saving sentient beings was your great aspiration, and that is the responsibility and historic mission bestowed upon you in Fa-rectification. Thus great numbers of beings are to be saved by you. Dafa disciples, don't forsake the magnificent responsibility that has been bestowed upon you in Fa-rectification, and even less should you disappoint those beings, as you are now their only hope for entering the future.”
Let's all remember Master's words and save sentient beings with pure and compassionate hearts.
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