Rectifying Myself Through Fa Study
Compare in Studying, Compare in Cultivation
I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1997. I have been cultivating with an unopened celestial eye and my body is not particularly sensitive. Last year I received a paper to work on, which was written by a practitioner for Internet experience sharing. I said to my coordinator, “The handwriting is confusing and simply indistinguishable to type out. Let them rewrite it, otherwise I can't finish typing.” Without saying a word the coordinator took the paper away and returned it to me the day after with it clearly rewritten. The handwriting was done by one person. She then said, “Some elderly practitioners who haven't learned many words have put in lots of effort to get their papers to look like this.” She rewrote the paper of the elderly practitioner herself overnight and apologized to me for the trouble. Through this coordinator's actions, I recognized the attachments of comfort and idleness, the dependent mentality along with my selfishness. In fact, I could have finished typing it, as I type even faster than some professionals. The practitioners around me didn't talk much but cultivated themselves solidly.
“Whatever is not brought to completion amounts to a failure. That is not to say, however, that a certain task has to be carried out according to your own ideas and only if it succeeds will you build up mighty virtue. Rather, it is in the act of your cooperating and the thoughts that follow, and in how you go about things in the process of collaborating, that count as the cultivation process. If in your work your thoughts can be righteous and you can keep in mind that you are a cultivator, never forgetting your mission and responsibility, and bring to completion that portion of things that you are supposed to handle, then you are establishing mighty virtue, that is your process of cultivation, and that is your process of fulfilling your historic mission as a Dafa disciple.” ("Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference")
I've learned how to cooperate and to be harmonious. In the past I felt that I needed to finish a job, and I often completed the work given to me by the coordinators without putting my whole heart into it. I felt that I was capable of big achievements, but in fact I didn't do anything properly. Though I have been cultivating for so long, I didn't cultivate solidly.
Rectifying Myself with Every Single Thought
A while ago I noticed itchy pimples on my neck. I didn't care at first, but then realized that the pimples showed up when I ate meat. If I didn't eat meat, the pimples disappeared within a day. While sharing about this issue, someone said to me, “You are probably too keen on eating meat. If you don't feel well, just stop eating it.” However, I didn't look inward deeply. Things later became worse. If I ate meat, the pimples came out and caused trouble in my daily life. Then I began to look inward. Teacher wants us to cultivate among ordinary people. Eating meat at home is truly a normal event, but right now I can't eat even a little bit of meat. I didn't think it was arranged by Teacher because earlier someone had said that the pimples were a manifestation of gong, and thus satisfied my curiosity. Even when mentioning this matter to someone, I felt pretty smug. Thus, this interference was caused by me alone so I sent forth righteous thoughts right away. When I started to eat meat again later on, everything was fine.
This year, I saw that other regions had created local information about the persecution of Falun Gong. I tried to make some truth-clarifying materials for our local area. Later the coordinator said that what we needed to do according to our own situation, was to first distribute Shen Yun DVDs. I had the thought that Shen Yun was guided by Teacher personally and every practitioner should support it unconditionally. Thus we began to distribute Shen Yun DVDs. At most times, what I did was sending forth righteous thoughts. Initially, when I was not able to calm down, I recited Teacher's Fa. When something was frightening me, I sent forth righteous thoughts right away. When my thoughts were righteous, things were nice and quiet.
I can't see how beautiful things are in other dimensions, but I will keep my faith in Dafa, do the three things properly, and not disappoint Teacher.