Greetings to our respected Master!
Greetings to fellow practitioners!
I. Amazing Experience in Obtaining the Fa
In 2004, the wife of my fourth youngest brother invited me to go with her to have a health check-up. The test results came back and the staff told me that the result was not good. They suggested that I go to a bigger hospital for a second opinion. After the hospital check-up, I decided to have the operation that they said I needed. The day before the operation, I was in a very bad mood. I worried a lot and could not eat anything at dinner time. During the night, I tossed and turned in bed and could not fall asleep. I got up and picked up a CD and began watching it. I thought this would be a good way to ease my worries.
Unexpectedly, the CD was about the Eternal Story. The spectacular scenery, Buddha's call, and the touching story immediately attracted my attention. The cosmic colossal firmament is facing an unprecedented catastrophe. To save immeasurable living beings, and to prevent the universe from being destroyed, the great mercy of the Lord Buddha led the gods and came to this human world to rectify the Fa. At present, we are playing out the final scene. I was shocked. I realized that our benevolent Master is the merciful Lord Buddha, and Dafa disciples are the divine beings that are assisting Master in Fa rectification. I was still lost among human beings and did not know how to return to my true home.
While watching the CD, I cried and cried. Tears kept running down my cheeks. I did not know how many times I watched that CD. The spiritual shock was beyond words. My feelings at that time were similar to the main character of the Future People's Fairy Tales. The Eternal Story was such a good CD. I wondered why fate hadn’t led me to watch the CD before?
The next day, I couldn’t wait to see a practitioner and tell her about it. She did not say anything but instead read the book Zhuan Falun to me. I listened and kept crying. My whole being was permeated by the Fa. At that time I did not even know how I got home.
My only thought was that the Fa was very good and I wanted to practice cultivation. But I was a person who was easily controlled by others and with the persuasion of my family members, I decided to go ahead with the operation. The fellow practitioner did not make any judgment of me and gave me Master's nine-day lecture series and a copy of Zhuan Falun. Lying in bed in the hospital, I would sometimes listen to Master's lectures, and sometimes my elder sister would read Zhuan Falun to me. At that time I was very weak and was in poor condition. However, the more I listened to Master's lectures, the more comfortable I felt, and the more I cherished it, and the more clear minded I became. In my dreams, I even saw Falun rotating at my bedside. It was extraordinarily beautiful.
In 2005, I again decided to practice Falun Dafa. My husband strongly opposed my doing so and said, “The Communist Party is persecuting Falun Gong so violently, and you still want to practice it. You are crazy. Aren’t you afraid of affecting our children's futures?” He would not allow me to practice Falun Gong. He threatened to divorce me. He even invited my uncle's father (village secretary), my aunt's father (the director of the police station) and my uncle (village secretary) to come and pressure me not to practice. At that time I did not study the Fa well and did not spend much time doing the exercises. Under their pressure and in my confused state, I missed another opportunity.
Although I did not practice cultivation, I never gave up on Master and Dafa. On one occasion, I got Master's portrait and burned incense to show my respect to Him.
In March 2009, after I finished using the incense at home, I went to a practitioner's home to buy some more. After arriving at her home, I did not want to leave. I felt very comfortable there. I said, “Can I study the Fa and do the exercises at your home?” She replied, “Sure.” We then began to do the exercises. When we did the fifth exercise, the sitting meditation, although I couldn’t get my legs down very far, I felt very comfortable.
During the night of the third day of doing the exercises, I dreamed that I was bleeding a lot and was looking for a hospital. Suddenly I saw three angels. One of them looked at me and smiled, and helped me clean up the blood with a cotton ball. She said, “You are not sick.” On the same night, my fellow practitioner also had a dream. She dreamed that Master was giving a lecture and when Master saw me entering the room, he happily told her to provide good guidance to that new practitioner (referring to me). This was the gist of her dream.
Another three days passed. During my noon nap time, I had another dream. I dreamed that I was lying on a bed and Master demolished my body like working on a machine. He then put all the parts on the bed and re-assembled them. Less than a month after I started doing the exercises and studying the Fa at the fellow practitioner’s home, I had never felt so good. I could also do the double leg crossed sitting position for 45 minutes. Dafa's supernormal capabilities reinforced my confidence in practicing cultivation. I will never stop cultivating in Dafa. Dafa is deeply rooted in my heart.
II. Dealing With Tests from Family with Righteous Thoughts
One day I came home after Fa study. I was getting ready to prepare dinner, and my daughter and my husband were sitting on the sofa. After seeing me, my husband got very angry and waved his hand at me and said, “You do not need to prepare dinner. We will get a divorce tomorrow.” I thought to myself, “Might he be annoyed with me for persuading his friends to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations a few days ago?” I asked him softly, “What is bothering you?” He said angrily, “You made me lose face in front of my friends. You went to such and such person's home and asked them to withdraw from the CCP. Does it matter to you whether or not he is going to withdraw from the CCP? You even bought a bike and ride that bike everywhere to talk to people. You look like an idiot. I cannot live a life like this.” Then he got up and went downstairs. My daughter could not stop him. She was so frightened that she sat on the sofa and cried.
I turned around and went back to the kitchen. I prepared dinner while reciting Master's Fa. I heard my daughter call my parents and tell them everything. The next morning, my parents came over to our place. My aunts and uncle also came. My uncle and aunts asked me to go to my room, where they spoke with me. They kept talking to me and wanted me to give up my practice of Falun Gong. My mother said, “If you get a divorce, what will you do?” I firmly told them, “I will not give up my belief. There is nothing wrong with following the principles of Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance and being a good person.”
I said to them that before I started practicing Falun Gong, whenever I did not feel well, my mom would come to take care of me. On hot summer days, other ladies could wear skirts. I had to wear thick wool trousers. At night I had to go to bed with thick cotton socks. Everyone in my family, including my in-laws, knew this. I said that I did not tell them because I did not want them to worry about me. I had to spend several hundred yuan each month to get injections to prevent me from catching a cold. The money I spent for the treatment of my gynecological condition was even more. My life was miserable. I hadn’t lived one comfortable day. If I really have an illness that cannot be cured, will he (my husband) have money to save me? I do not want a divorce. Our Master teaches us not to get a divorce because of practicing Falun Gong. But my husband insists on getting a divorce. I am not afraid of that. I have Master and Dafa. I also have my hands. I can still support my parents. After practicing Falun Gong, I really became disease-free. He threatened me before, using divorce as the reason and he forced me to give up my practice. I made a mistake then, but I will not make the same mistake again.”
After hearing what I said, they all cried.
My father and uncle did not say anything and then left in the afternoon. My husband left home for several days. After he returned home, he did not mention anything about a divorce. Later I heard from my aunt that her husband called my husband and told him that he should think it over and should not get a divorce because of my practice of Falun Gong. I thought to myself, “Those words did not sound like my uncle. It was obviously Master who was using my uncle's mouth to protect and take care of me.”
Another time, I went to the provincial city to do some shopping. In the morning, before I left, my husband told me not to take my handbag, saying that it was not safe because I had Dafa books and money in it. I thought that it might have been Master giving me some kind of hint to say that my Dafa book would be safer at home. I did not think about it too seriously and took the bag with me. I decided to put the bag in the trunk of the car for security. After returning home, I forgot about my bag and left it in the trunk. After dinner, my husband had to run an errand and took the car with my son. After they left, I remembered that my bag was still in the trunk. I called my husband and told him that I left my bag in the trunk and asked him to pay attention to it if someone else was helping him load some goods into the trunk. They returned after 9 o’clock. My son gave me my bag as soon as he entered the house. I immediately opened it and saw that the money was still there, but I did not see my book. I anxiously asked my son, “Where is my book?” He immediately raised one hand and swore, saying, “I did not take it.” I then asked my husband, “Where is my book?” I said, “How come the money was still inside the bag but my book was missing?” He saw me look very anxious and then turned away and walked outside. I followed him. In the elevator, I asked him to return my book. He said he did not know where it was. I searched all over the car but did not find my book. I said, “If I cannot find my book, you cannot leave here until I find it.” He then lied to me and said that he gave the book to someone else, but then changed his words and said the book was torn apart. He then told me to look for the book in the Yangtze River. He even drove me to the gate of the police station, saying that he would turn me in to the police. There was a police officer standing in front of the gate at the time. I asked Master to strengthen my righteous thoughts so that he would not do that. At that moment the policeman asked us to move on.
My husband then took me to the banks of the Yangtze River and told me to check the river. I said, “Are you telling me to commit suicide? Suicide is killing. I will not commit suicide.” After searching in a big circle, it was almost midnight. He saw me still searching for my book and said to me, “Let's get a divorce tomorrow.” I said, “You are using the threat of divorce to pressure me again. If you want, I can divorce you. I do not care about your money. I can leave without anything. We do not need to argue with each other. I will agree with any of your requests. But you have to return my Dafa book.” After that, he did not say anything and we went back home.
The next morning, my husband got up and got ready to leave. I said to him, “If you do not give me my book back, I will follow you wherever you go.” In order to avoid this, he told me that our son would get the book for me. I believed him and so let him go. After my son got up, he said he did not know where the book was. I told him, “If you don't know, you should take me to where you and your dad went last night. You and your dad plotted together to deceive me. If you do not return my book today, I will go back to my hometown.” I then got up and left. My son followed me. Seeing me so worried about my book, he called his dad. I did not hear what he said on the phone, but after that my son said to me gently, “Dad might really throw away that book. How about we go back to your hometown and buy another copy.” I said, “It is not like that. How come you are so confused? Don't you know that you are violating a heavenly law?” Thus my son and I went to my hometown together. After arriving, I immediately went to see my fellow practitioner and we exchanged understandings. The fellow practitioner and I then went back to the provincial city and looked for the book. We didn’t get back until after 9 o'clock and still we couldn’t find the book.
After arriving back home, I felt very sad and sat on my bed. My son followed me into the room and said, “Mom, why are you so stubborn? You just arrived at your hometown, why did you go back to Wuhan again?” At that moment I was in tears, weeping. I said to him, “My son. I feel that I do not have any dignity and freedom in this home. While I tried my best taking care of you, I used my spare time to read my Dafa book and do the exercises. Dafa allowed me to upgrade my moral standard and also teaches me how to be a good person. I became healthy again. Previously I spent my time playing cards, shopping, or dancing. Now I follow the standard of Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance. I have a goal in life. Is there anything wrong with that? You should not listen to the CCP's lies and deceive your own conscience.” At that moment my son's kindness came out and he said, “Mom, I won’t stop you from doing your practice anymore.”
I did not find my book and my husband had still not changed, but my son had changed his view.
III. Validating the Fa
One day, a fellow practitioner and I convinced my husband’s friend and his family to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. On the way home, I suddenly had a thought, “I clarified the truth to them. What should I do if they tell my husband?” I didn't mention this wrong thought to my fellow practitioner, nor did I eliminate it. Later, my husband did use that event as the reason for again wanting a divorce. He called together my family and made a big fuss over it. After that, looking inward, I realized that the trouble was caused by that unrighteous thought. Just as Master said in Zhuan Falun, “We have said that good or evil comes from a person’s spontaneous thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences.” Later, I was able to maintain stronger righteous thoughts.
On another day, after group Fa study at 4 o'clock in the afternoon, I had a thought that I wanted to go outside to clarify the truth to people. While walking, I kept asking Master to strengthen me and let those people who had a predestined relationship come to me and be saved. Not long after that, I walked to the intersection of the supermarket. There were many people walking by. A beautiful young girl walked towards me and handed me a flyer about hand-embodiment and explained a little about it and locations where I could find it. I took the opportunity to clarify the truth about Falun Gong to her. I said, “I want to tell you something.” She looked at me with her big eyes and said, “What?” I said, “Have you heard about having a safe life by withdrawing from the CCP and its affiliated organizations?” She replied, “No.” I asked her, “Did you ever join the Youth League?” She said, “Yes. I did.” I said, “If you were a member of the Youth League then you are a member of the CCP. The CCP is corrupt and has done many bad deeds. The heavens will destroy it. You are such a kind person, so young. If you do not withdraw from it, your situation will not be good. I can help you withdraw from the CCP and after that you will be safe.” I also told her some Dafa truths.
After she understood what I said, she told me her last name. I helped her choose a pseudonym. She smiled, nodded, and expressed her appreciation. I said, “You should thank my Master. It was our Master who told me to come and save you. You must remember: Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness- Benevolence-Forbearance is good.” She agreed. I also gave her some truth clarification materials.
I did not notice that a police car was parked nearby. Right after the girl walked away from me, within a few meters, a police officer suddenly rushed out of the police car and ran towards the girl and shouted, “Stop. Don't leave. What did that person give you a minute ago?” I saw the girl put the materials I gave her into her bag and then she took out an embodiment leaflet and handed it to the police officer. He got very angry and looked at me and her in turn, and then left. An imminent danger was resolved by the girl who learned the truth about Dafa.
I was not afraid at that moment, but in my heart I thanked Master for protecting me and also for saving the young girl. I knew she made a wise choice after learning the truth about Falun Gong and by protecting a Dafa practitioner in time of danger. She is such a precious being.
There is still a lot that I would like to say. I feel regretful that I obtained the Fa so late and did not study the Fa well enough. Compared to veteran practitioners, I still have a long way to catch up. After reading Master's recent lectures, I am more clear about the goal of cultivation and what it means to be a Dafa disciple. In my future cultivation, I will try my best to study the Fa well, and hurry up and save more people.