The Rectification of My Heart and the Environment Gave Rise to Miracles
(Clearwisdom.net) In 2006 my husband was diagnosed with a hypothyroid tumor. He consulted doctors from three hospitals and all of them told him that he would not be cured unless he had surgery. He then applied for a hospitalization to prepare for the operation. However, the hospital turned down his first application, saying that his medical insurance card did not have a registration code. When he applied the second time, the administrator rejected him again, saying that his card was inactive because he had not paid his medical insurance for many years, although he did pay it every year. His third application was rejected because there was no hospital bed available. I said, “So you understand now! I came to understand it much earlier than you. Well, let's give up on the operation now that you've understood the reason. We can contribute the medical fees to Dafa projects to save more people.” He then went home without having the surgery. Not long after, his tumor was gone. Further convinced by the power of Dafa, he donated 10,000 yuan to the production of truth clarification materials.
—By the author
Since July 20, 1999 Falun Gong practitioners have been subjected to the most relentless and severe persecution by the hooligan regime of Jiang Zemin, the head of the Chinese Communist Party at that time. The practice of Falun Gong was outlawed and overwhelmed by the overwhelming slanderous propaganda fabricated by the CCP state apparatus that permeated China. Under such suppression and harsh conditions, many practitioners had to give up the practice. The persecution also created tensions between the practitioners and their families, many of whom tried to prevent practitioners from continuing due to their fear of persecution.
Such things indeed happened in family. When the persecution first began, my husband asked me to give up my Falun Gong practice, but I simply went on with it at home when he left home for work. He was straight-faced when fellow practitioners came to my home, despite the fact that I told him that Falun Gong practitioners were actually very good people. He said, “You are somehow like secret agents, so you'd better keep changing jobs and always work with new coworkers for the sake of your safety.” I thought his attitude toward us should improve, so I needed to first of all rectify his mind. I said to him, “I will never give up Falun Gong since it is truly good. Anyone who treats Dafa kindly will be blessed by the heavens.” I often informed him of the sinister and treacherous nature of the CCP and its relentless persecution of Falun Gong. As a result, his attitude improved, but he was still afraid of my clarifying the truth and promoting the “three withdrawals” (withdrawing from the CCP and its youth organizations) in public places, saying, “You mean people won't find out the facts about Falun Gong if you do not tell them personally?” I said, “Exactly. They will not understand the facts if I do not tell them.” Each time he saw me leaving home, he would ask me where I was going. I said, “I am about to do something very righteous. You'd better not ask me anymore. I will tell you what I am going to do if you are supposed to know, and I will not let you know anything if you are not supposed to know. Form today on, just let me be and do not ask again.” He then left me alone. When I went to the countryside to deliver informational materials, he was very worried that he could be implicated and persecuted. I said to him, “Human beings are not in a position to persecute Falun Gong, and they will be held accountable for whatever they do.”
Teacher said that we should set up as many truth clarification material sites as possible. Seeing many practitioners in their 60s able to do the work, I was quite convinced that I could also do it. Truth clarification materials can save people and they are more important than money. I then set up a material site in my home. My husband did not oppose such a move.
Early on when I began to make the materials, my husband was laid off from work and his income was only 400 yuan. My daughter gave us 2,000 yuan. I said to her anxiously, “We have benefited a lot from Dafa. Many fellow practitioners have contributed their money to Dafa projects, but I could not bring myself to do that because of our poor financial situation and the fact that your father worries about money so much.” She said, “Why not do it without letting him know?” Her words reminded me and I donated 1,000 yuan to the Dafa projects. To my surprise, the money later came back to me for some unknown reasons. The same thing happened twice, and I found myself with more money than before. Looking back on these things, I was in tears, knowing that Teacher was helping me. My husband was also quite touched. From then on he never hesitated to contribute money to Dafa projects after he made money from his business, from 1,000 yuan to 10,000 yuan. He did that several times.
I will now tell you a remarkable story. My husband rented a booth for his business close to a bar, which was an area notorious for bringing bad business. He asked me to take care of the booth. I did not want to spend my time on the business because I needed time to do Dafa things, so I suggested, “Let's hire someone to do that.” He agreed. I went on with my Dafa projects as usual. I later was surprised to see that his business was booming and he made a lot of money, which made other salesmen jealous of us. Convinced that he had been blessed by Dafa, my husband became even more supportive of Dafa. He mentioned to me that he wanted to buy a car for his business. I said, “That will be fine, but you will let me use the car when I need it for Dafa projects.” He agreed without hesitation.
In 2006 my husband was diagnosed with a hypothyroid tumor. He consulted doctors from three hospitals and all of them told him that he would not be cured unless he had an operation. He then applied for a hospitalization to prepare for the operation. However, the hospital rejected his first application, saying that his medical insurance card did not have a registration code. When he applied the second time, the administrator turned him down again, saying that his card was inactive because he had not paid his medical insurance for many years, although he did pay it every year. His third application was rejected because there was no empty bed in the hospital. On our way home he asked me, “Is it because Teacher did not want me to have the operation? I couldn't get into the hospital after applying three times.” I said, “So you understand now! I figured it out much earlier than you. Well, let's give up on the operation now that you know why. We can contribute the medical fees to Dafa projects to save more people.” He was not hospitalized and we went home. Not long after, his tumor was gone. Further convinced by the power of Dafa, he donated 10,000 yuan to the production of truth clarification materials. He even began to read Dafa books and truth clarification materials, saying, “Those that persecute Falun Gong are doomed to fail!”
This is how I rectified my family little by little, and my husband became more and more supportive of Dafa. Now he is willing to help me buy consumables for Dafa projects using his car and lends a hand whenever needed. Chinese New Year's eve he went with me to the railway and put up Dafa banners and truth clarification materials with his own hands. After we finished he said, “Let us do this again the next year.”
In my cultivation I fully trust Teacher and Dafa and study the Fa diligently. With my righteous thoughts and actions I was able to rectify my cultivation environment. I had been monitored by police, who threatened me that I could be sentenced to prison. I said to them, “Prison is not a monastery. The police car is not a Fa vehicle. I will never be arrested.” Teacher said:
“If you have fear, they will grab you
Once your thought is righteous, evil will collapse
People practicing cultivation, filled with Fa
Sending righteous thoughts, exploding rotten ghosts
Gods are in the world, validating Fa” (“What’s There to Fear” from Hong Yin II)
I am quite convinced that, as a cultivator, I will be the one who calls the shots, given that I can safeguard my righteous thoughts. The following are incidents that I personally experienced.
After July 20, 1999, I went to Beijing to appeal for Falun Gong. Before I left, my sister-in-law from another city called my husband to come to her child's engagement ceremony. In addition, my two kids were about to take some very important exams. What should I do? At the time I was reminded of Teacher's Fa:
“Whether you can let go of ordinary human attachments is a fatal test on your way to becoming a truly extraordinary being. Every disciple who truly cultivates must pass it, for it is the dividing line between a cultivator and an everyday person. ” (“True Cultivation” from Essentials for Further Advancement)
I then put aside these things and decided to go without any fear, but I was too late to buy a train ticket. Later someone told me that I could buy the ticket on board. Then I went to Beijing and unfolded the banner “Falun Dafa Is Good” on Tiananmen Square and cried out, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good! Falun Gong's Teacher is innocent! Falun Dafa is innocent!” When a tourist group from overseas passed by me, I heard one of them cry out, “Wow, it's Falun Gong!”
One day I thought to myself, “How can I do better in validating the Fa?” Teacher's Fa came to mind:
“Climbing up high stairs, a path of thousands of feet,
Winding, steep, difficult to take steps;
Looking back, like watching the cultivation of righteous Fa,
Stopping in mid air—hard to be saved.
Persevering, lifting the feet, the ten-thousand-pound legs,
Forbearing hardships, advancing whole-heartedly, discarding attachments;
…...” (“Climbing the Tai Mountains” from Hong Yin
I knew it was a hint from Teacher and became aware of what to do. The next day I went to the appeals office in my city with my 90-year-old mother. They asked, “Why are you here?” I said, “This is my mother. She had been ill before but was cured by Falun Gong. Now she is not allowed to practice Falun Gong and all her illnesses came back. We have come to ask you what we should do.” They told me to go to our local authorities. We went to them, and I asked them the same question. They said, “Here is a person with good reasoning. We will pay you a monthly pension of 300 yuan and give you a certificate so you can get the money every month.” I never expected this to happened.
One day I decided to go to my hometown in Shandong Province to save sentient beings. I carried a big load of Dafa materials but was unafraid because I asked for Teacher's protection. When an inspector checked my car routinely, he simply let me pass without checking my ID or asking any questions, as if he knew me.
Two years ago I was invited to a friend's wedding. I planned to take the opportunity to clarify the facts about Falun Gong and promote the “three withdrawals,” but a lump the size of a ping pong ball suddenly appeared on my limb the night before the event. The pain and itching woke me up up. I realized something evil was trying to prevent me from saving people the next day. I asked for Teacher's help and got up to do the Falun Gong exercises at midnight. Two hours later I felt the pain and itch disappear. When I looked, I saw the lump itself was gone. The next day I went to the wedding as planned and came across many people. During the banquet I persuaded all the photographers to make the “three withdrawals.”
One year when my husband was laid off from his post, I went to another city to see my older son who was working there. I carried some truth clarification materials and prepared myself to encourage people to do the “three withdrawals.” My son was very afraid that I could be arrested for doing that and tried to stop me, but my righteous thoughts were very strong, thinking that I must let people know the facts about Falun Gong. I asked for Teacher's help and said to him, “If you stop me from saving people you are doing a bad thing against Dafa.” His attitude changed immediately, “Oh, Mom, you just do it as you wish.” Many people, including my son and his bosses, were saved.
From those experiences I understood: Teacher will certainly help us if we truly trust him and Dafa with our righteous thoughts and actions, and the old forces will never dare to lay a finger upon us.
Looking back on the more than ten years of my cultivation, I truly believe that I would never have been able to endure so many tribulations had it not been for Teacher's help. I am grateful to Teacher from the bottom of my heart. Teacher, no matter how difficult the path ahead, I will do well the three things so that I can fulfill my pledges that I made before the dawn of history and return to my home with you.