Helping Master to Rectify the Fa and Diligently Doing What Is Required
Greetings, compassionate, magnificent, and esteemed Master!
Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I am 59 years old, and obtained the Fa at the beginning of 1998. All of my illnesses disappeared after practicing, and my mind and body greatly improved. I have walked through the last 13 years of ups and downs with many tests. Every step was under Master's merciful protection. Words cannot fully express my gratitude to Master. I am reporting several experiences to Master, and also share them with fellow practitioners.
I did not participate in previous experience sharing conferences since I did not think that I had something worthy of writing about or that I had the writing skills, which I regret very much. This is the Eighth Internet Experience Sharing Conference for Practitioners in China, and I will not miss this opportunity again.
In the last ten plus years of cultivation practice, I learned my responsibilities and mission, and have been dedicating myself wholeheartedly to doing what I am supposed to do. It is because of the merciful protection of Master and Dafa that I was able to make it through the ups and downs.
1. Establishing a Family Materials Production Site, and Steadily Walking Through Eight Years of Ups and Downs
At the end of 2002, our local sources of truth-clarification materials were very few, and we could not read Master's scriptures and lectures very frequently. Sometimes it took a while to receive them since the copies passed to us from outside were few. My child had a computer in our home and I wanted to make use of it but I never used it, although I longed to learn the skill. One day a practitioner in another town called me and asked me to visit. It turned out that he was going to teach me how to use the computer. I was delighted. I had a wish and it soon came true. I knew it was Master's arrangement. I learned the basics, and I made notes and practiced them repeatedly. At that time we were using dial-up Internet access, and it was very slow, without any security. After I returned home, I could not connect to the Internet. When my child learned that I was going to connect to Minghui (the Chinese version of Clearwisdom), he got scared and wouldn't let me do it. My husband was afraid, too, and also said no. The interference was severe. My thought was that I had obtained the Fa and benefited so much from it. Master gave me so much—I had to do it even though it looked dangerous on the surface; no one could interfere. I told them, “My illnesses are all gone after I obtained Dafa. What should I be afraid of? I just go online and print something for myself to read. Do not stop me as I must do it.” After that, with their agreement, I bought a small inkjet printer.
Gradually, I learned how to go online, download files, and print. My home became a small print shop, which provided me and practitioners around me with weekly magazines, truth-clarification materials, and Master's scriptures and lectures. I worked during the day, and at night, my husband watched TV or did something else. My child was in boarding school so I went online, downloaded and printed materials, and also made the best use of my time for studying the Fa.
In 2006, more than 30 practitioners were arrested in our area. A dozen of them got harsh sentences or were taken to forced labor camps. Another dozen were held in brainwashing centers. The materials site that made our truth-clarification materials was destroyed, and production stopped. The county and surrounding rural areas lost their source of materials, the evil was oppressive, and horror filled the air in our small area. To save all beings, I resolutely took on the responsibility of printing materials. I thought that I was doing what Master wanted. The old forces dared not oppose my clarifying the truth and saving beings, as I had Master and the Fa in my heart. I provided weekly magazines and materials to more than 20 practitioners. Sometimes I provided up to 40 practitioners with Master's scriptures and truth-clarification materials. As the number went up, it became obvious that I did not have the skills to handle problems like computer failures, system breakdowns, etc. What should I do? I became very anxious, and the more anxious I was, the slower things were getting done. The color printer quit and soon the printer heads clogged up again, and then the computer broke down. The troubles came because of the evil interfering. I realized that being anxious was also an attachment that I should get rid of. I sat down and communicated with the computer and the printer. At the same time, I asked Master to strengthen my righteous thoughts. I was alone, and I had to install the system and fix the printer all by myself, which I had never done before. I tried to use the system disc to reinstall the system. To my surprise, I went through it step by step. Every now and then, I felt like Master was guiding me. I clicked the mouse unintentionally, but it happened to be in the right place. I was moved to tears.
Little by little, I learned to fix machine problems and maintain the printer following the manual. Sometime the machines rectified themselves after I sent righteous thoughts. Because my heart for making materials to clarify the truth, validate the Fa, and save all beings was very pure, Master brought out my wisdom. I learned system installation and repair of machines. From time to time, I learned things without a teacher. It was like a miracle. I later learned from other practitioners how to edit and format files, burn discs, make labels, and print truth-clarification information on paper currency. A practitioner and I made books of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, as well as Dafa books. I was then 50 years old and one would have a hard time believing that I was able to do such technically demanding work. It would have been unimaginable if it were not for Master and the Fa. I cultivated my speech and never showed off. A practitioner gave out my name during the persecution. I was arrested, and my home was ransacked. The police did not believe that I was able to use the computer to make materials and did not find the materials production site.
With the financial support of practitioners, I added a laser printer and a new inkjet printer, which helped do things much faster. I applied for early retirement. I get 10,000 yuan less a year, but I think it is worth it because I have enough time to do both Fa study and work to validate the Fa. I take care of household chores and other things in ordinary people's life. I spend my remaining time buying materials, going online, printing, and burning discs. Television and entertainment are not a part of my life. My goal is to do well what I am supposed to do, save all beings, and fulfill the vows we made before history. There are many things that I have no time for, and I can only do my best. I provide technical support to local practitioners, help them to maintain their computers, install systems, and repair basic printer problems. I also help to set up material sites and Fa study groups, encourage people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), communicate information, install materials on MP3 players, etc. I am so busy that sometimes I have to skip lunch if my child is not at home. When my husband is out of town, I don't take any breaks the entire day. I eat very simple meals and burn discs at night. Every week I deliver enough materials to practitioners on a timely basis. Once Master's new scriptures are published, I download and print them immediately, so practitioners can read them right away.
With Master's merciful protection, my family materials site has been playing its role in saving beings for the last eight years. Even in the rampant years of the evil, it still steadily operated.
2. With Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions the Evil No Longer Existed
I have cultivated through and matured under Master's merciful protection during the ten plus years of cultivation practice.
In 2003, I was busy learning computer techniques and completing works. I did not know how to cultivate and did not cultivate myself. I seldom studied the Fa and put Fa study in a secondary place. Master gave me hints many times, but I did not pay attention. I was arrested in August 2004. I was finally diligent after I was released. Master had warned disciples in many lectures to study the Fa, study the Fa, study the Fa. I listened to Master, and I spent more time in Fa study. I earnestly studied a lecture of Zhuan Falun every day, and learned Master's other lectures whenever I had a chance. I read all of them once a month. I then recited Zhuan Falun by memory. While I was studying the Fa, especially reciting the Fa by memory, I found many attachments, such as jealousy, competition, complaining, fear, not accepting criticism, sentiment for children, etc. I kept learning how to look within and cultivate myself. During my continuous Fa study, I gradually learned the Fa principles and formed a clear understanding. My righteous thoughts were reinforced, and my cultivation further matured.
In the beginning of 2009, the materials site was in a practitioner's home. One day in May, she heard that someone reported her, saying that people in the county gave him the materials. Her name was mentioned, as a relative who worked in the police department heard it in a meeting. She felt uneasy and called me in the morning and was going to move all the equipment to her relative who was not a practitioner. I thought that it was not safe. If we did so, everything would be exposed. I told her I would find a solution as soon as possible. The evil sent someone to track her in the afternoon. The person was at her front door. What should we do? The equipment, paper, discs, and ink refills were all there. The paper was worth more than 2,000 yuan. I felt lost, but I immediately remembered that I was a practitioner. I had Master and the Fa. The evil wouldn't disturb me. I remembered the Fa that Master taught:
“If upon encountering trying circumstances your thinking can be truly righteous, then, when faced with the evil's persecution and when faced with interference, just one sentence of yours fortified with steadfast righteous thoughts can instantly make the evil disintegrate (applause), and it will make those who are being used by the evil turn and flee, it will make the evil's persecution of you dissolve, and it will make the evil's interfering with you disappear without a trace.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. International Fa Conference” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference VII)
We did not know what our omission was. We moved the materials site immediately. At night, some equipment was moved to another practitioner's home, so we could continue operating there, and some was moved to another place. The rest was moved to the home of a neighbor who knew the truth. Everything was moved out safely and quietly. The authorities traced the practitioner for three days, but nothing really happened. After two months, the practitioner asked to move the materials site back to her home. She had taken care of all the printing, so I moved the equipment back to her home. Then, in October, she suddenly passed away in a car accident. What should we do? I moved all the equipment, as well as most of the things stored in other places, to my home. There were a lot of things. For safety reasons, I did it by myself. My neighbors mostly knew each other, but the neighborhood that I had just moved to had 22 monitors. I rode either a small tricycle or a bicycle to move all the things. At times I ran into many acquaintances or police patrol cars, but as soon as I arrived home, in most cases there was no one nearby. I was one who was on the local main watch list. Officers in the police station had my new home address. I firmly believed in Master and Dafa and thought that I was doing the most righteous thing in the universe. I would do it well, do the three things well, and cultivate myself well. During the process, I did it openly, like there was no one else. People thought that I was moving. When I packed and carried out equipment and heavy paper boxes, there were no bystanders. I soon set up a new materials site quickly and efficiently. It was very easy, and I felt a sacredness which was beyond words.
I bought all the materials myself. I did it naturally and openly and transported a car full without fear. I have not experienced any risk in the last eight years.
I realize that righteous thoughts come from the Fa, that when you study the Fa well, cultivate diligently and solidly, firmly believe in Master and the Fa, do the three things well, and cultivate yourself well, the evil will run away from you.
Participating in Group Fa Study, and Being More Diligent in Cultivation Practice
Since the beginning of 2010, I have been participating in Fa study with a large group and two small groups. Through studying together and sharing with each other, my xinxing improved a lot, and I am more diligent in cultivation.
I found my deficiencies and many shortcomings during the group Fa study and experience sharing.
If I Did Not Allocate Fa Study Time Well, the Result Was Not Good
I arranged my Fa study at night and when I was free during the daytime. Since it was not a fixed schedule, my heart was not calm during Fa study. At night, from time to time, I went online and downloaded files. Occasionally, there was a malfunction and it took up my time. After it was fixed, it would be late at night and I would be tired and sleepy, and ran out of time for Fa study. I sometimes made up for the study after I woke up at night or found a time slot during the day. I had no set time. Sometimes, my mind wandered during Fa study, and the result was not good. Some practitioners have a fixed Fa study schedule, one hour in the morning and one hour in the afternoon, and the schedule is always observed. When it becomes a rule it is just like forming a mechanism. It makes the heart easy to reach a calm state during Fa study.
It is the final process of the Fa-rectification, Master has spoken so explicitly on the importance of Fa study. As a disciple, I must study the Fa well and genuinely assimilate to Dafa.
Using others' schedules as reference, I made my own. I do the exercises at 3:50 a.m. every morning. After sending righteous thoughts, I study a lecture of Zhuan Falun. I take a quarter to half an hour rest at noon and then read weekly magazines and other materials. At night, after I finish household chores, I go online and download articles, I study Master's other lectures. During the day I participate in group Fa study and materials production. When I am out, I clarify the truth and encourage people to quit the CCP. Sometimes, I help the practitioners who haven't been diligent to catch up or help former practitioners who came to deviant understandings to resume cultivation.
After I tried the new schedule for a while, I could study the Fa with a calm mind and the result was very good. At times while I was reading Zhuan Falun, I felt that every character was clear and tranquil, like passing through a mirror and entering my mind. I felt that I was in a broad and wonderful space. This happened when I was studying the Fa alone.
During Group Fa Study, My Xinxing Was Greatly Elevated
In the beginning of 2010, a practitioner made comments about me to several practitioners behind my back. It was all fabrications and deteriorated the relationship like that of an ordinary person. Others told me about it and I was very unhappy. I did not talk to her anymore and blocked her phone number on my cell phone. I got angry as soon as I saw her. During the sharing at our group study, practitioners said that I should look within, that a Dafa disciple should unconditionally look within, but I didn't do that. I looked outwards, saying that the other person should not have done this or that, and she had such and such attachments and was making divisions, etc. For awhile, I felt that it seemed I was not cultivating, and my cultivation state was bad. The computer did not cooperate, the printer had problems and repairing it did not work, and it wouldn't print. Sending righteous thoughts did not help. I took it to another town for repair, but it was not fixed. In the end, I had to get a new one. It took a whole week and wasted lots of money that should have been used on Dafa. I realized it was the result of not cultivating myself. I was determined to let go of every attachment and unconditionally look within. Nothing that a practitioner encounters happens accidentally, and they are all for your cultivation.
I found I had descended to the level of an ordinary person. It was very dangerous. I was not enlightened after Master's many hints. I repeatedly heard people mention the same incident, and I could not let go of it, or if I did let go of it, it came back. The attachment came and left, left and came back. I still could not let go of it. I clearly knew it was interference from the evil. Practitioners found many sharing papers online that targeted my situation. Some suggested I watch Master's video “Teaching the Fa to the Australian Students.” I watched the video twice with a calm heart. Master's teaching touched me. I asked myself, “Under Master's infinite grace and the light of the Buddha Fa, what are you attached to in this limited time of opportunity? Can I not let go of such a trivial thing? What are you cultivating? Will the cultivation opportunity arranged by Master always be there? Once opportunity is missed, it will be gone forever.” Everything in cultivation is related to self. I was determined thereafter to look within and cultivate self. I found that I had many attachments—to competition, showing off, complaints, jealousy, and feelings of unfairness. I was surprised to find so many attachments. They are being gotten rid of too late, and I should totally discard them and let go of self.
Quickly, my heart was full of delight. It was indeed feeling “After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead.” When whoever mentioned that incident again, I did not want to say anything, except, “I have attachments which I should have gotten rid of. It is because I did not cultivate well.” The practitioner later totally changed her attitude towards me. At times, we did coordination together, and we cooperated well with each other in saving all beings.
Group Fa study is a format that Master left to us. My xinxing improved a lot after I participated in it. I became more focused while studying the Fa and have gotten rid of many strong attachments. I realized that when we study the Fa together, we communicate with each other. It helps us to learn from others and help each other find shortcomings, improve together, and form one body. I hope all practitioners will participate in group Fa study.
I have many additional experiences and many additional shortcomings. I am closing my report here. Please correct my errors in my sharing.
Thank you, Master!
Thank you, fellow practitioners!