After Letting Go of Attachments, I Feel Extremely Blissful
(Clearwisdom.net) My body and mind improved dramatically after I started to practice Falun Dafa. I was happy every moment. My mother-in-law lived with me for many years, but never said anything good about me. After I began to practice Falun Dafa, quite a few acquaintances and neighbors told me, “Your mother-in-law praises you a lot, saying that you have changed since you learned Falun Dafa. She said that you have become healthy and diligent and are willing to call her mother now. She smiles everyday.”
....... Ten days later, I overheard from the prisoners that I was going to be released in three days. My heart was not moved at all, “Only Teacher can decide for me.” I habitually looked within and my true nature kept reviving. After giving up my attachments, I feel extremely blissful. Though I was injected with unknown drugs, I still felt great, I felt extraordinary being part of Dafa, and I always smiled in my heart. I thought to myself, “I am not the hundred-pound me, I am a universe, a celestial body, a cosmos. The thought of being able to restrict me in this prison is a joke!”
-------by the author
Greetings to Revered Teacher! Greetings to fellow practitioners!
I thank Teacher for giving me the opportunity to share my experiences on the Internet. It enables me to validate the magnificence of Teacher and Falun Dafa.
I have a predestined relationship with Teacher and the Fa. Since I was little, I vaguely knew that I was waiting for something. I often wondered “What will it be like then?” Especially when I was in trouble or hurt, I became more conscious of such waiting. Sometimes I told myself, “Be patient, everything will be fine by then.” In July 1997, I was lucky enough to learn about Falun Dafa. That was when I discovered what I had been waiting for.
My body and mind improved dramatically after I started to practice Falun Dafa. I was happy every moment. I changed from being silent and self-centered to being easygoing and helpful. My mother-in-law lived with me for many years, but never said anything good about me to others. After I began to practice Falun Dafa, quite a few acquaintances and neighbors told me, “Your mother-in-law praises you a lot, saying that you have changed since you learned Falun Dafa. She said that you have became healthy and diligent and are willing to call her mother now. She smiles everyday.” I always told them that it was the principles of Falun Dafa, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, that changed me.
In the past 14 years, I have experienced and gained a lot. I will take this opportunity to report to Teacher my righteous experiences and share them with fellow practitioners. Please kindly point out any shortcomings.
1. Validating the Fa in different environments
When I first learned the Fa, the time was not passing as fast as it is now. My family and people at work were supportive of the practice and I was constantly studying the Fa. Sometimes I read the entire book of Zhuan Falun in one or two days. I also repeatedly studied Teacher's other lectures and memorized them. My extensive Fa study laid a fairly good foundation for me to later help Teacher to rectify the Fa. When the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) went all out to slander and persecute Falun Dafa practitioners, my belief was never shaken, not even a little.
I was not able to rationally clarify the facts about the persecution to ordinary people when it had first started. In October 2000, I was put in a prison because of my practice. I stayed in a cell with another practitioner. We recited the Fa a lot and did the exercises everyday, sometimes twice a day. We told everyone we came across the truth about Falun Dafa. I felt comfortable and relaxed in prison. My personality improved and so did my health. When I was released two months later, a practitioner asked me whether I was in my teens, but actually I was in my 40s then.
When I was put in a forced labor camp, I faced pressure from the CCP and my family. My mother knelt down in front of me and asked me to write a statement to renounce Falun Dafa, but I refused. Soon a captain from the camp talked to me about renouncing Falun Dafa. I looked into her eyes and told her, “I have chosen the path of a Buddhist cultivation and I will walk it to the end, no matter what I have to face.” She was taken aback for a moment, then made small talk for a little while and left. During the next two years, no one in the camp ever tried to talk to me again about giving up Falun Dafa.
I remembered that Teacher instructed us constantly to study the Fa more. When I was locked up, I took every opportunity to study and memorize the Fa and to send forth righteous thoughts. This was how I was able to stay focused and act like a practitioner in the camp. I validated the Fa and clarified the facts to others, either personally or with letters. I was viciously beaten many times, shocked with electric batons, hung up by the handcuffs, and kept in freezing temperatures, because I protested the persecution. None of these torture methods moved me, because I had a firm belief in Teacher and the Fa.
The guards periodically ordered me to “report my thoughts.” I naturally wrote down everything I normally say when I clarify the facts about the persecution. When I learned the verses for sending forth righteous thoughts, I put them in large print in my “thought report.” Other practitioners, who usually liked to copy my “reports,” looked at me with doubt and asked, “Is this OK?” I told them, “How can this be wrong? The Fa rectifies the cosmos, the evil will be completely eliminated!” They were encouraged and wrote down the verses, too. Our “thought reports” became a powerful weapon for validating the Fa and eliminating evil beings. From that point on, we were never asked to write another report.
After I was released from the camp, I helped with the work for Fa rectification. Gradually, I slowed down and did not study the Fa as much as before, because I was busy with making informational materials about Dafa. I gained more and more attachments, and as a result, I was seized three times. Each time, our compassionate Teacher rescued me.
When I was taken to a brainwashing center, I did not cooperate with the guards at all. One day when I was laying on my bed, two collaborators sat across from me and tried to brainwash me with evil principles they had enlightened to. I had one thought, “I will not listen.” Their words became garbled and I could not comprehend anything and fell asleep. Suddenly, one of the collaborators pushed my forehead with her finger and said in anger, “We are helping you and giving you earnest and kind advice. How can you fall asleep?” They left in a rage, feeling humiliated. After that, every time they saw me, they walked by with their heads down. I thought it had been unbelievable that I was able to fall asleep when these two were talking to me like that. When I considered what had happened based on the Fa, I understood it all. Teacher said in Zhuan Falun, “By going there to listen, didn't you want to seek something? If you did not listen with your ears, how could it get into your body?" The thought “will not listen” conformed to the Fa and as a result, the power of the Fa and righteous thoughts manifested.
In the yard of the brainwashing center, I shouted “Falun Dafa is good!” It felt as though the ground, trees, and houses were shaking and slightly tilted. I yelled, “I will not be transformed!” The staff ran toward me and told me, “Stop yelling, you will be exhausted yelling all the time. Go to bed and take a rest.” The evil being that controlled these people gave up, and with Teacher's protection, I left the brainwashing center several days later.
When I was locked in a detention center, I memorized the Fa calmly, sent forth righteous thoughts intensively, dug out my attachments, and clarified the facts to those around me. Though I suffered physically, my mind was relaxed, because I felt Teacher was with me every step of the way.
Ten days later, I overheard prisoners saying that I was going to be released in three days. My heart was not moved at all, “Only Teacher can decide for me.” I habitually looked within and my true nature kept reviving. Getting out or not, being sentenced or not, even being alive or dead, had nothing to do with the real me. After giving up my attachments, I felt extremely blissful. Though I was injected with unknown drugs, I still felt great, I felt extraordinary for being a part of Dafa, and I always smiled in my heart. I thought to myself, “I am not the hundred-pound me, I am a universe, a celestial body, a cosmos. Thinking that someone is able to restrict me in this prison is a joke!”
I had a dream that night. I was rising up sitting on my energy column for a long long time. I got a little tired of it and thought, “It would be wonderful if I could fly.” I opened my arms as if they were wings, but I could not fly. It took a long time before I got to the top. It seemed like I was on mountain tops and the view was endless. I saw a big number, but I could not tell how many zeros it had. I was enlightened from the dream that there was much more to the word “big” in the “big gong column” as I can remember from Teacher 's lecture in the past. The next day and with Teacher's help, I was released from the detention center.
2. Saving Sentient Beings with Righteous Thoughts
In the fall of 2000, I went to the nearby villages on a bike early in the morning in order to clarify the facts about Falun Dafa. I told people on the streets and small lanes about the beauty of Dafa and how the evil CCP and Jiang Zemin's regime framed and persecuted practitioners. It was about noon by the time I had visited several villages. I came across a lady in her 80s, who was a Buddhist. After I told her the truth about Falun Dafa, she called me a living Bodhisattva and insisted that I accompany her to her home to have lunch. I did not want to trouble her, but she followed me like she was begging me. I began to think that I might hurt her feelings if I did not go. I followed her to her house and had a bowl of noodles. I left her some money before I left.
In the afternoon, I continued to clarify the truth in the nearby villages. When it got dark, I was going to go home, but met two elementary school students. I hesitated whether I should talk to them or not because it was late. I decided that I should, because it was destiny that they had met me and were there to hear the truth. I told them how good Falun Dafa is and taught them how to be good and to follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I also told them how to treat their teachers and classmates and how to be filial and respect their parents. In the end, I told them that they must remember “Falun Dafa is great!” Just then, several other students arrived. They mimicked me and kept saying “Falun Dafa is great! Falun Dafa is great!” Then more students arrived and asked them, “What are you saying?” I told the first two students to tell these other students what I had said. Not long after I parted with them, I heard the students shout, “Falun Dafa is great! Falun Dafa is great!” I could hear them even after I had left the village. More and more people seemed to have joined them. The sound of “Falun Dafa is great!” was so loud that probably everyone in the village could hear it. I could still hear them after I was far away, and I do not know how long it lasted.
It was dark, but my heart was bright, full of gratitude toward Teacher and joy for saving people. I was about 30 miles away from home, but with Teacher's help, I got home easily—it was just like flying in the air with my bike.
One time I distributed informational materials in a village. I gave leaflets to everyone I came across, and sometimes I spoke to them a little. If no one was at home, I left the materials in their yard. I approached a family, who was building their house. They yelled at me from far away, “What are you giving out? Is it Falun Gong again?” I began sending forth righteous thoughts. When I was close to their house, I contemplated whether I should give them the materials or not. I calmed down and decided that I should, because they should be saved. I clarified the facts about the persecution to them, and after a short while, a man working on the roof said, “If it weren't for what she said, could the weather be so dry as it is? Because the leaders lack virtue, we common people have to suffer.”
When I gave them the materials, two women holding babies said that they did not want it, because they could not read. Those who were working on the house, on the other hand, eagerly asked for the fliers. As I was giving them out, several people on top of the house, who were putting on rafters, yelled anxiously, “Give me one! Let me see!” Before I got a chance to give them the fliers, they jumped down from the roof (the ground was covered with bricks and miscellaneous items). One of them said, “I have come down from the rooftop, give me one.” Another person vouched for him, “Yeah, he did jump off the roof, give him one.” I gave each one of them different kinds of fliers. Later, when they saw that I had larger fliers in my bag, one of them said to me, “Give me one of those!” One of them was eager to see it and grabbed one from my bag. I told them that there were enough for everyone. In the end, one of the women holding a baby asked me for a flier, as well. She said, “Why don't you give me one, I have a student at home, who can read it to me.”
Peasants are very simple and honest, and they were very thankful after learning the truth. Some of them treated me like a best friend, and some complained to me about difficulties in their lives. Others presented me with freshly picked fruits, and some made hot tea for me. A woman grabbed my arm and asked me to have lunch in her house, saying, “You came all the way and have nothing to eat for lunch. We feel bad for you.” I once met a former official in a village. He quit the CCP and its affiliates after learning the truth. He was very happy and said, “I know what is going on in every house in this village. I will take you to all of them.” He then took me to different houses and I clarified the facts. He even helped me when I came across people who refused to listen to or believe me, and he told them, “The CCP and its affiliates are good for nothing. Why stay with them? Even I quit.” Later, he took me to his house and told me, “You can always have a meal in my house.”
I realized that giving out materials and clarifying the facts about the persecution was not hard. The people are so eager to learn the truth, and we cannot disappoint the beings waiting to be saved.
I have met people who refused to listen, who were objectionable and unreasonable. I believe that we can still work with them because Teacher is in control of everything. One time I put some materials by the door of a house. I then went down an alley. After I had walked three to four miles, a woman from that house yelled in my direction, “What is this?! Who threw this at my house?” I walked toward her while sending forth righteous thoughts. She said to me, “It was you, right? What is this?” I pretended not to hear her and asked, “What did you say?” When I was in front of her, I had a big smile on my face, “Oh, you mean THIS. I left it in front of your house. It is a Falun Dafa flier and it will benefit you greatly if you read it.” She snarled me, “How dare you do this! A police captain lives on the next street and will arrest you once he finds out.” I immediately switched the topic, “Oh, you are such a nice person. I don't even know you and you are thinking about my safety. You are very kind. A kind person like you should have a good fortune.” As I spoke, her severe expression softened. I told her, “Read the materials carefully, and it will bring your entire family good fortune. You will all be safe when calamities occur.” She suddenly understood and thanked me sincerely before she returned to her house with the materials.
One time Practitioner A and I went to a village to give out Shen Yun DVDs. A drunk person grabbed A's bag and noticed that there were no more DVDs. He then grabbed my bag and said, “No illegal pyramid schemes here.” I told him we did not collect any money and he replied that it made no difference. He held the bag and took out his cell phone to call the police. I calmed down and asked Teacher to protect me, thinking, “Teacher should decide for me and this man cannot interfere.” Several bystanders scolded him, “What did they do to hurt you? Why would you do that to them?” A man who was with him tried very hard to take his phone from him to stop him from calling. People in the village said to us with kindness, “You two may leave.” Practitioner A said to them, “I wish you and your families a wonderful future.” The villagers thanked us, and even the man who had taken my bag responded. Three kindhearted men escorted A and me away. One of them asked for a Shen Yun DVD before they left. They seemed to do this to comfort us and make us feel better.
On my cultivation path, I did almost everything other practitioners asked me to do to validate the Fa, whether it was easy or hard, dangerous or not. The fact is, I did none of those things myself. Without Teacher and the Fa, I could not possibly have done anything. Teacher has arranged everything for me, and all I need to do is to help with righteous thoughts. Teacher, in fact, did everything.
When I was typesetting the fliers, I often came across problems that were hard to solve. At times I simply could not take care of the problem or find other practitioners to help me. Then I begged Teacher, “Teacher, I did not do well in my practice and could not handle technical things well. I am at the end of my wits, but I really need to get this done in order to save people. Please show me how to work it. Thank you.” Then I tried again and got it done right away. These things happened many times.
One time I went to an unfamiliar city to find a practitioner. I discovered where he lived within a few minutes and met him within half an hour. It was obvious that Teacher was leading me to him. It was truly like Teacher said in Zhuan Falun,
“Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one's master. It is good enough if you have this wish. It is the master who actually does this, as you are simply unable to do it.”
I did not share my experiences in the past Internet experience sharing conferences for practitioners in China, because I did not think that I did well in the practice and had nothing to write. I was being selfish. I realized that it was not an issue of doing well or not in the practice, it was an issue of whether I had the intention to validate the Fa. I enlightened that Teacher has arranged the “Internet Experience Sharing Conference for Practitioners in China” on the Clearwisdom website for us and I must contribute to it. Teacher has left us the format of experience sharing as part of our practice and I must accept it wholeheartedly with the highest respect, and hence I wrote down this report.
Please kindly point out anything I said that does not conform to the Fa.
I thank revered Teacher and fellow practitioners. Heshi,