Maturing in the Minghui Environment
(Clearwisdom.net) Greetings, our great compassionate Master! Greetings, fellow disciples!
I truly started diligently cultivating after I was able to visit the Minghui website (Chinese version of Clearwisdom). In 2004, I had left home to avoid the persecution and lost contact with fellow practitioners. Due to the loss of a cultivation environment and the fear of being persecuted, I gradually slacked off in my own cultivation.
In 2007, under Master's arrangement, I was able to visit the Minghui website. I will never forget that moment. Looking at the words “Falun Dafa Minghui Website” and the picture of Master quietly watching the world from amidst the mountains, I was excited by the site's sacredness and dignity. The sharing articles made me realize the gaps in my cultivation.
From then on, I became motivated. While doing the morning exercises, when I heard the music and Master's voice, I felt the cells in my entire body responding with joy. I have since never stopped practicing the exercises in the morning. Every day I could hardly wait to finish my daily work so I could study the Fa. After a while, I started reciting the Fa and I felt myself improving rapidly.
With continued Fa study, my xinxing improved, and I started telling people the truth about Falun Gong and the persecution. I regretted that I had wasted the previous two years. I also started contributing sharing articles to the Minghui website. When I saw my first article published, I was moved to tears. At that moment, I deeply felt that practitioners around the entire world are connected.
I later read that many practitioners used cell phones to let people know the truth about Falun Gong, so I started learning how to do that. Although it was not easy to learn, I was finally able to send instant messages. Next, I learned page layout, printing, how to make truth-clarifying fliers, and wrote articles exposing the persecution. I found all the instructions on the Minghui website. At that time, I often stayed up the entire night to work on this. But during the day, I still felt full of energy. I didn't slack off in doing the exercises and reciting the Fa. I didn't know what it was to be tired.
Telling People the Truth about Falun Gong and the Persecution using Cell Phones
When I first started using a cell phone to clarify the facts about Falun Gong, I encountered many obstacles. The first time I received someone's message scolding me, I felt very frustrated. I remembered that Master said,
“Don’t be bothered when people have a certain attitude or misunderstandings. When you act just to save the person, to save sentient beings, then I think the impact of that can change everything.” (“Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan”)
In order to save us, the Buddha once begged for food among everyday people. If I can't even handle this, how could I save sentient beings? In fact, I was viewing myself as being too important. I kept studying the Fa to purify myself. I also reviewed my messages to see if I was truly being considerate of others and if my mindset of saving people was pure. I adjusted my mindset, and I tried to remind myself to not only focus on the number of messages, but also on their quality. During the past year, I haven't received any messages scolding me, but I have received many kind responses.
Lately, the perpetrators from the local 610 Office kept illegally arresting Dafa disciples and putting them in brainwashing centers. I edited an audio article that exposed the head of the local 610 Office and clarified the facts about Falun Gong and contributed it to the Minghui website. After it was published, I immediately downloaded it and started making phone calls. I noticed that the acceptance rate increased significantly. While making the phone calls, I felt that I was a powerful savior sending out strong righteous thoughts and pure energy. Looking at the kind responses, I couldn't stop shedding tears. Sentient beings are waiting to hear the truth. If we aren't being diligent in saving them, how can we face Master and how can we face the sentient beings yearning for us to offer them salvation?
Improving Myself While Learning Technology
Whenever I encountered a small issue with my computer, I had to ask for help from fellow practitioners, but I felt bad about taking up their time. I had a thought that I should learn the system, and then I would be able to help others, too, so I downloaded a system manual. I also got an operating system disk from fellow practitioners. I followed the manual and kept trying and learning.
I can now handle regular issues regarding the system. I no longer fear issues with the system, and I am willing to debug on my own. Once the printer didn't recognize the ink cartridge, and at the time, I didn't know the names of all the printer's parts. I asked a fellow practitioner who patiently explained to me the root cause and the solution. I followed the instructions and fixed it on my own. Another time, many English words showed up on the computer and then the computer stopped working. I tried to read the English words and looked up the words I didn't know. It turned out that the keyboard connection had some issues, which I fixed. I rebooted it and everything returned to normal.
I don't have interaction with many practitioners, but sometimes I hear compliments from them. They all think that I did a great job learning on my own. In fact, I learned everything from the instructions on the Minghui website. As long as we use our hearts, we can do it.
That day, I studied “Cultivator's Avoidances,” from Essentials for Further Advancement, where Master said,
“Those who are attached to their reputations practice an evil way, full of intention. Once they gain renown in this world, they are bound to say good but mean evil, thereby misleading the public and undermining the Fa.”
I suddenly realized that this “reputation” could reflect in different areas, such as in coordinating with fellow practitioners, whether one is attached to oneself or can quietly complement and harmonize, or showing off while sharing experiences. Isn't the self-abased mentality and attachment to oneself all coming from “reputation?” Master also said,
“...when beings of different planes notice that you want something, or are attached to something, and that it precisely aligns with them, they take effect and even direct you.” (“Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa - Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference”)
Because I started a small business, my daily routine became disorganized for a while, and I became very anxious. One night I had a dream that I was crying due to anxiety as I was helping fellow practitioners record the people who had withdrawn from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).
Master said in “Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa - Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference,”
“...if whatever it is that you’re doing is not grounded in the Fa, if it does not have the power of the Fa, and if you haven’t cultivated well, you will not do those things well. Although you might have done whatever it is, it has not achieved any effect and simply cannot save people, for you are ineffective in dissolving evil factors.”
“After doing a whole slew of things, you might find, if you look back upon them, that all of it was done with a human mindset. When it is a human being doing human things, and things are not being done with righteous thoughts, there won’t be any Dafa-disciple mighty virtue in those things. In other words, as gods see it, that’s just fooling around—not mighty virtue, or cultivation—even though you did do it.” (Official Translation)
In fact, it takes time to do well in any project because we need to use our hearts to do it. We should study the Fa more. I have not slacked off in Fa-study or cultivating xinxing due to my busy schedule. If I do it, I will do it well. I am very clear that only if I study the Fa well and cultivate myself well, will I be able to do things with the power of the Fa. Otherwise, the things I do are not sacred. I try my best to study the Fa more because only when I study the Fa for longer periods of time will I be able to truly focus. While I am studying the Fa, sometimes it is time for sending forth righteous thoughts, which helps eliminate the evil and ensures the quality of my Fa-study.
Recalling my cultivation experience in visiting the Minghui website during the past several years, I feel that it's a huge cultivation field, and I have been tempered by and assimilated into this field. Recalling my improvement up to today, I am very grateful for Master's painstaking effort and arrangements. I am very grateful for the Minghui practitioners' silent dedication.
Master said, “I hope to see you regaining your enthusiasm and getting back to your best cultivation state.” (“What is a Dafa Disciple”)
Let us get back to our best cultivation states to finish our historical missions and let Master hear great news from us!