Cultivating while Distributing Shen Yun DVDs
(Clearwisdom.net) In "Fa Teaching at the 2007 New York Fa Conference," Master said regarding Shen Yun:
"Every show was like that. People were deeply stirred and moved. In this dimension it was young people who were performing, while in other dimensions, many of my Law Bodies and many divine beings were doing so. (Applause) The strength of the impact on people, as with the changes it caused in them, were very similar to what happened back when I personally taught the Fa early on. (Applause) So it has effected tremendous changes in people."
Practitioners know that our mission is to assist Master with rectifying the Fa and saving sentient beings. Over the past two years, we've crossed mountains and traveled in every kind of weather to cover residences in over 30 communities. We have not minded working hard, and I have not dared to allow myself to slack off. Under Master's benevolence, our work has progressed smoothly.
On one occasion, seven fellow practitioners and I distributed Shen Yun DVDs to around 1,000 families in a government municipal district. At the time, I thought there may be some difficulties with distributing DVDs to people on the streets while passing police stations and town government offices, so I decided to let others take easier areas while I distributed DVDs to those on the streets by myself. Another practitioner's husband joined me, however. I was concerned because he had encountered a lot of interference over the previous few days, but I tried to suppress my thoughts of self and just let it be. The result was that we cooperated very well and our work progressed smoothly. I felt that as long as one was selfless, Master would be there to help at every moment.
Fellow practitioners and I joined together the next night to share our experiences. We all worked together, and everyone looked inward and shared their understanding. One practitioner said to me: "You always distribute the truth-clarification materials, and you work so hard by yourself. However, shouldn't we work together to improve as a whole group?" Her comment triggered many of my attachments, but I reminded myself that the experience sharing meeting was a sacred medium to improve as a whole group and to discuss mutual understandings and that practitioners should not have contflicts.
It was very late when I got home and I fell asleep right away. After dinner the next day, however, a practitioner called me and reminded me about what had happened the night before. I then thought about how I had suffered and put forth so much effort while distributing the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and Shen Yun DVDs over the past two years. I felt a tremendous sense of grievance and thought: "What has she done to clarify the truth? How could she bring up my cultivation state like that? How is she qualified to accuse me of doing something wrong?" When I calmed down and looked inward, however, I realized that this was not my true self and I did not want this attitude. This practitioner's comments reminded me to coordinate better with the whole group, and she was not wrong.
"How big of a role can any one individual play? Only when the group as a whole plays its role has the coordinator done well. When a coordinator does well himself, well, if you're the only one doing well, then you should just be an average student in that case. The key is that you have got to play the role of and fulfill the duties of a coordinator." ("Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. International Fa Conference")
After I studied Master's teaching, I understood that as a coordinator, I should fulfill my role with a clear and clean mind. I then thought to myself that I should never again step aside from my responsibilities as a coordinator.
On another occasion, when I returned home in the morning after distributing Shen Yun DVDs, I felt very sleepy and wanted to take a nap. A practitioner told me that another practitioner had left her home out of fear of the persecution and said that I did not care about her. I knew that this was caused by my strong personal feelings that I needed to remove. I have furnished my home like a nice hostel, and practitioners from other regions came to my home when they needed a place to stay or have meals. Some practitioners occasionally made hurtful remarks toward me, but I felt that I was nice to all those practitioners and did not deserve their comments.
Through Fa study, I have realized that personal feelings are the most unreliable things. In reality, they are the dirtiest qing in the Dharma-ending period. A cultivator must cultivate out all personal feelings and maintain benevolence. Fellow practitioners also have human minds. When I let go of personal feelings, I feel fully relaxed and no longer take other practitioners' remarks personally.
Over the past two years, no matter how intense the situation, I have always remembered the following words from Master:
"Dafa disciples just do the things that Dafa disciples are supposed to do. They are clearheaded and rational, and they know what they are doing, and none of the evil lies or the accusations that stem from the Party culture can interfere with or jar them." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2005 Manhattan International Fa Conference")
What does it mean to negate the old forces? Doing the three things well is one approach to negate the old forces. When tribulations happen, they present opportunities to improve ourselves. In my understanding, the broadness of one's mind defines the magnitude of the tribulations that one can withstand. When one truly believes in Master and the Fa one hundred percent, there are no obstacles he or she cannot overcome.
Since my understanding is limited by my cultivation level, please kindly point out anything inappropriate.