(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1996. At that time, my daughter was only six years old and I often took her with me when I went to the practice site. My daughter started college in 2007. During the long holiday in October, she felt discomfort in her chest. Soon after she returned to college, her ribs started to hurt. Later, she was diagnosed at the Chinese Academy of Medical Science Cancer Institute with a late stage malignant lymph tumor measuring 11.3 x 8.9 cm. My daughter was 18 years old then.
The medical experts told us that this type of tumor grows exponentially in its late stage. Within one month, my daughter's condition had deteriorated drastically. Her heart was pushed out of position by the tumor; her trachea and esophagus had little room left. She was having difficulty eating normal food and could only take in a little liquid food. Once in a while she was short of breath and had difficulty breathing. As her mother, my heart was pained as I watched her. I enlightened that her illness was a big test for me, and I firmly negated the arrangements of the old forces. No matter what the results from any test or exam were, I never acknowledged any of it. During that time, I never used the words "cancer" and "malignant." Countless times, I said to Teacher in my heart, "No tribulation can stop this disciple from walking the path home and following Teacher. Everything is arranged by Teacher." Therefore, during the whole time my daughter was sick, I used the Fa to help her. I never missed an opportunity to read the Fa to her, and I shared my understanding of the Fa with her: Illness is due to people's karma from doing bad things in many past lives. Only when karma is eliminated can the illness disappear, and Teacher only eliminates karma for practitioners. While modern medical treatments push the illness deeper inside, when Teacher cleanses the body of practitioners, he is eliminating the root cause of the illness. My daughter gradually started to understand the Fa.
Since my daughter's condition was very serious, the experts stated that her life could be in danger at any moment. Therefore, they made an exception and admitted my daughter to the Sanhuan Hospital, a branch of the Chinese Academy of Medical Science Cancer Institute. She was assigned to a room for two patients. She was fortunate in that on the day my daughter went into the hospital, the other patient in her room had left the hospital, and no other patient was moved in. This created a very good environment for my daughter and me to study the Fa together. Therefore, I used every opportunity and possible time to have my daughter come in contact with Dafa.
One afternoon soon after my daughter was admitted to the hospital, she suddenly had difficulty breathing. Her condition did not improve by inhaling oxygen, and instead it got worse. Even with the oxygen flow set to maximal, there was no improvement. Her face turned blue, her breathing quickened, big drops of sweat ran down her face, and her body was almost stiff. Her eyes looked confused and she looked at everyone in front of her bed - my older daughter, my husband and I, as if she was bidding final farewell. The doctor was also sweating; he didn't know what to do. At first, I was so scared that I didn't know what to do, but I quickly regained my calm. I continuously eliminated the evil beings in my daughter's other dimensions and asked Teacher to strengthen her to get through this life and death test. This tense atmosphere lasted about twenty minutes. Then her breathing seemed to get a little better, and she pointed at the oxygen tank. She was too weak to speak. I guessed she wanted to turn down the oxygen flow a little, so I set the oxygen flow back to normal. After another ten minutes, everything returned to normal.
That night, my daughter told me, "Mom, I went through death this morning. My air path was like a thin thread. It was so hard to get one breath, then I couldn't breathe at all. Just as I was struggling, a voice told me, 'Stop breathing and you will be relieved.' The pain of not being able to breathe was hard to bear, so I used my eyes to bid farewell to you one by one. Just at that moment, a thought appeared: I cannot die. I still have Teacher, I still have Dafa. What would happen to my dad, mom and sister if I died? I cannot die. The moment this thought appeared, my breathing path seemed to widen little by little. I was able to breathe again." If I had not seen this myself, who would have believed it? With Teacher's help, my daughter passed the test of life and death.
The next morning, the doctor allowed my daughter to go out into the courtyard in a wheelchair in order to get some sun. The weather was nice on that day, and her depressed mood also improved under the sun. My daughter was full of hope and delight, "Mom, I have decided not to go through chemotherapy. I want to go home and practice Dafa with you!" I looked into her eyes; they were full of hope and determination. I was so moved. I helped her to sit down and said, "I have been waiting for this sentence from you. But cultivation is a serious matter. It is not something you do in the heat of the moment. You must think it through because it is a choice of life and death."
I knew very well that if my daughter could not handle herself well, once she started practicing Dafa, she could face life-threatening situations at any time. Not only could she lose her life, it could also give people a very negative impression about Dafa. My husband of course was strongly against the idea. However, my daughter was determined. She insisted on going home and practicing Falun Dafa, no matter what my husband said. Although my husband was still against the idea, he couldn't convince my daughter otherwise. In the end, he could only bring her home.
Cultivation is indeed a serious matter. The morning after she came home, my daughter suddenly could not urinate. She went to the restroom several times, but to no avail. She started to get scared and was afraid that her bladder might have been damaged. When she got scared, her left foot started to feel numb and the feeling slowly moved up the leg. She got even more scared, and the symptoms got worse and the feeling of numbness got stronger. By 2:00 p.m. in the afternoon, both her feet were numb and she could not walk. With no other choice, we could only take her back to the hospital. By the time we got to the hospital, her lower body had lost all feeling. She was bedridden and could not control her bladder or bowel movements. She even needed help to turn around in bed. As a result, she could only continue with a chemotherapy treatment.
During the chemotherapy treatment, my daughter reconsidered what had happened and I also helped her to analyze it. Teacher said, "fear is also an attachment." and, "the entire cultivation process for a practitioner is one of constantly giving up human attachments." (Zhuan Falun, 2000 translation) When a cultivator cannot handle her xinxing well and starts to use human reasoning on matters of cultivation, it will bring trouble. Once my daughter understood the Fa, she became more diligent in studying the Fa.
The fourth treatment of chemotherapy was about to end. One morning, my daughter told me that she had cried the whole night and that she still felt very bad. She said she had the same dream over and over during that night: she was lying on the bed and another self of her was facing her and was crying. The other self repeatedly said, "How come I cannot do better! How come I cannot do better!" The crying of the other self made the one in bed very sad. My daughter said that she felt she had let Teacher down. Teacher kept cleansing her body, but she continued with the chemotherapy, which put so much poison in her body, and she felt really sorry.
At the end of April 2008, my daughter had completed the first stage of chemotherapy, and was still paralyzed. With the permission of the hospital staff, we brought her home for a while in order to help her get ready for the next stage of chemotherapy. This time at home, my daughter spent almost all her time studying the Fa. She quickly finished reading all of Teacher's articles and lectures. The next morning we were getting ready to go back to the hospital, when she called my husband and me into her room. She told us earnestly, "Dad, Mom, in the past four months that I was sick, I felt as if I had lived forty years. This time I am clear. Master is right, being a human being means to suffer. A human should return to one's true self. From now on, I will wholeheartedly cultivate Dafa. If I cannot finish it this life, I will continue the next life!" My husband didn't agree, "Did you forget the lesson from the last time?" My daughter replied honestly, "In fact, last time I did it to avoid chemotherapy. I was taking a chance and had the pursuit of healing an illness. After several months of studying the Fa, I understand now that Master is guiding people toward high levels. A cultivator must use the standard of high levels to guide oneself. Only when one's xinxing improves, can illnesses be healed. Don't worry, I will follow a cultivator's standard and walk my path well this time."
Just like that, my daughter started to practice Dafa again. As Teacher said in Zhuan Falun, "When one's Buddha-nature emerges, it will shake 'the world of ten directions.' Whoever sees it will come to give a hand and help this person out unconditionally." When my daughter's enlightenment quality improved, she studied the Fa, practiced the exercises and sent forth righteous thoughts without missing a beat. When she couldn't stand, she leaned against the wall to do the exercises. I was afraid that she would fall, so I tried to stand in front of her every time, but she always said, "Mom, I won't fall, don't worry!" With a tenacious will, my daughter was fulfilling her promise. She did sweat profusely whenever she did the exercises. With such a serious illness, the pain of eliminating karma is hard to describe with words, yet she never uttered a sound. Every day, other than sleeping at night, she spent all her time studying the Fa. She immersed herself into the Fa and trusted Teacher. Once I asked her what it was like to eliminate karma. She said, "In fact, when you saw me picking up Zhuan Falun after taking a break from studying the Fa with you, that was the toughest time."
During that period of time, my daughter's condition changed day by day. From the time she vowed to practice Dafa again, within about ten days, she had changed from a paralyzed person, who could not take care of herself, to being able to walk while holding on to the wall, and she was getting steadier every day. In the middle of October, my daughter was able to ride a bicycle on the street. The Buddha Fa is boundless; Buddha's grace is infinite! On Chinese New Year, my whole family knelt before Teacher's picture and thanked him for saving us and for giving my daughter a second chance at life.
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