Cultivating Myself and Seizing the Time to Save Sentient Beings
(Clearwisdom.net) I am a 60-year-old Dafa disciple and obtained the Fa in 1998. After I finished reading Zhuan Falun for the first time, I finally understood the purpose for my life and felt that this was what I had been waiting for all my life. I also understood that I had a predestined relationship with my family members.
I've never had any doubt about Master and Dafa and have been very conscientious about cultivating my xinxing. When I experienced karma elimination tests, I never treated them as illnesses: I knew that Master was purifying my body and helping me eliminate karma, so I was able to pass these tests very quickly. After a while, all of my health problems, such as heart disease, tracheitis, a gastric ulcer, and high blood pressure, went away. I believe this was the result of my firm belief in Master and Dafa. All of my family members have witnessed the greatness of Dafa and support Dafa.
Always Looking Inward and Cultivating Myself
As Master's teachings continually guided me to improve my xinxing, I began to better understand the relationship between gain and loss: If we gain some things, we must lose other things. Master said in Zhuan Falun, "No loss, no gain." As my understanding of the Dafa principles improved, my life became much easier.
One xinxing test occurred when I had just started practicing. We had prepared a lot of hay to feed our horse, but before we had time to move the stack, someone set fire to it. The fire also burned down several nearby jujube trees that were bearing fruit. Since I was studying the Fa, I didn't get angry, but instead handled myself as a practitioner and maintained my xinxing. As I understood the relationship between gain and loss, I was able to put down my personal interests and pass this test very easily.
Some farmers from my village dug a big hole on my land to get extra soil for their farms. As a result, I couldn't grow crops there anymore. If I weren't cultivating, I wouldn't have let this go easily at all. However, since I was now a Dafa disciple, I decided that I wouldn't do anything that might benefit me at the expense of others, so I didn't start trouble with them.
Master teaches us to have high moral standards and think about others at all times while caring less about personal interests. So, as a true Dafa disciple, I understood that I should follow the requirements of Dafa in everything I do. By remembering the Fa at all times, I could stay calm and peaceful when I encountered tribulations. In this way, I could deal with the tribulations from the Fa's perspective, look inward, and cultivate myself. If I had any spare time, I studied the Fa, and even if I didn't have much time, I squeezed in the time to study the Fa.
My husband used to beat me and abuse me everyday. I understood that perhaps I owed him a debt from past lives. Because I remembered the Fa in my heart, I followed Master's teachings and maintained my xinxing while going through such family tribulations. I treated all seemingly bad things as good and tried to cultivate my xinxing through the tribulations. Therefore, I still treated my husband well, and, as a result, he gradually changed his attitude toward me and started to be more supportive of Dafa.
Once in the middle of the night, my husband rushed into my room with a knife in his hand and said that he was going to kill me. I was able to keep the Fa in my heart and remain calm. I believed that Master and Dafa would protect me. Since I maintained my xinxing, my husband quickly came to his senses, and this big tribulation was resolved under Master's benevolent protection. By the time my husband died four years later, he fully supported Dafa, so he should have a bright future.
The process of truth-clarification is also a process of cultivation that helped me to identify and remove attachments. I've encountered all kinds of people in clarifying the truth. Some have thanked me, some have insulted me, some have refused to listen and threatened me, and some have completely ignored me. Sometimes it has been hard for me to be tolerant, but after looking inward, I found my attachments to saving face and a competitive mentality. Sometimes my heart was moved and I felt disappointed, especially when people refused to quit the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. However, this was because I still had human notions and lacked compassion when I clarified the truth. I was only pursuing quantity, which was why I got a poor response. After I found these attachments, I obtained much better results in my truth-clarification efforts.
Seizing the Time to Save Sentient Beings and Fulfilling My Prehistoric Vows
Over the past 10-plus years of Fa-rectification, I've cooperated with several other practitioners to distribute truth-clarification materials to a dozen nearby villages. We've hung truth-clarification posters and distributed the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, fliers, booklets, DVDs, cards, and so on. We never take a break, even in hot weather. In order to have more time to clarify the truth and save sentient beings, I gave up the contracted farm lands that I owned after my husband died. My son, who is living abroad, pays my living expenses. I know that Master provided me with such a good arrangement so that I would have more time to validate the Fa. Over the past four years, I've managed a material production site in my house and helped other practitioners establish other material production centers. All of these centers are operating very well. I also distribute Master's lectures, copies of Minghui Weekly, and truth-clarification materials to local practitioners. Last year, I also began to clarify the truth to people face-to-face at the fairs every two days.
For the past several years, under Master's benevolent protection, I've spent most of my time doing the three things: Studying the Fa and cultivating myself, sending forth righteous thoughts, and clarifying the truth to save sentient beings. I feel very fulfilled and happy. Thank you, Master, for your salvation and giving me everything!