Master Enlightened Me When I Was Desolate
(Clearwisdom.net) I have been practicing Falun Gong for 14 years. It is under the care of Master and with the help from fellow practitioners that I have progressed till today.
I moved from Liaoning Province back to Heilongjiang Province in the spring of 2003 because of the change of my family situation. In the following four months, I couldn't contact local practitioners and lost my cultivation environment that Master had arranged for me. Like a lost child who couldn't find his home, I felt deeply disturbed and helpless. Although I still studied the Fa and did the exercises every day, I couldn't settle down. Every time I went outside, I could see posters of "Falun Dafa is good" and "The World Needs Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance." I was still unable to find fellow practitioners.
I thought, "Fellow practitioners are all busy validating the Fa and clarifying the truth. What should I do? I can't wait anymore." Then I bought a one-meter-long red non-setting adhesive and a big pen. I started to make truth-clarifying materials by hand, and posted them with my granddaughter in the evening. We went to villages with the materials hidden inside our clothes, and posted them on walls and doors when nobody was around. Although I learned to clarify the truth this way, I still felt very lonely. Gradually, I became thinner because I lost my appetite. In my dream, I kept running around in a large wasteland, but couldn't find my home. I couldn't calm down during those days, and also developed a longing for my husband, remembering that my husband passed away in his fifties, leaving me to live in this world alone. I felt that I was so pitiful. Gradually, I slacked off in studying the Fa and doing the exercises.
One day at around 10:00 p.m., I received a call from a woman. She asked me whether I worked in the transportation department. I told her that I didn't work there and this was a personal phone number. Then she asked me whether I knew about Falun Gong. I said "Yes." She then said, "It is said that the evil is very rampant in your area, they arrest many Falun Gong practitioners." She also told me what Falun Gong is about. I was sure that she was a fellow practitioner, therefore, I told her my situation and wanted to make an appointment with her. However, she couldn't because she was from Taiwan, calling to clarify the truth to people in China. At that moment, I was in admiration. How great Dafa disciples are! With their steadfast belief in Master and Dafa, they make long-distance calls to validate the Fa and clarify the truth. I was quite moved. Compared to them, I felt really ashamed. I said to myself, "I can no longer sink down. I should get rid of my slacking attitude and get rid of fear. I need to tell people about the wonderfulness of Falun Dafa and expose the evil. Do I have fear? What do I fear?" Master said in "Benevolent Might" in Hong Yin,
"Dafa is what you carry everywhere,
Zhen Shan Ren, rooted in the mind;
A great Arhat walks the earth,
Gods and demons fear with awe."
Since Master and Dafa are with me, I must find my home during the process of clarifying the truth to sentient beings.
I started to clarify the truth with my relatives. They all knew that I practiced Falun Gong, and they had witnessed the positive physical changes in me after practicing cultivation. They often asked me whether I took medicine. Thus, I usually clarified the truth from the standpoint of taking medicine. I told my relatives, "Falun Gong does not forbid people to take medicine at all. Master only teaches us the Fa principle of how to treat the source of illnesses." Then, I clarified the truth of the Tiananmen Square self-immolation incident, and told them that this staged incident was a complete swindle concocted by the Chinese Communist Party in order to deceive all Chinese people. They have all gotten to know the truth about Falun Gong.
One day, I received mail from overseas. When I opened it, a golden and glittering book of Master's Fa and Minghui Weekly from Taiwan lay right before me. I burst into tears. Facing Master's image, I said continuously, "Thank you, Master! Thank you, Master!" I knew that this was all arranged by Master. When I was helpless, it was Master taking care of me. When I experienced tribulation and had sunk into confusion, it was Master enlightening me. When I was amidst hardship, it was fellow practitioners who helped me selflessly. Without Master's care and fellow practitioners' assistance, what could I have done? Because I am a Dafa disciple, I experienced this miracle that ordinary people could not see. In such a vast country like China within such a huge province like Heilongjiang with countless homes and telephones, a fellow practitioner called me! Did this happen by chance? Can ordinary people comprehend or do this? This is Master's benevolence and Dafa's miracle. No words can express the appreciation in my heart. Master is looking at our hearts. I can only firmly believe in Master and Dafa, to strive forward vigorously with a sincere heart, to walk well on the cultivation path arranged by Master and do well in the three things. I cannot fail to live up to Master's salvation, I must become worthy of being a Dafa disciple.