I Want to Be a Fa-Rectification Period Dafa Practitioner
(Clearwisdom.net) I started to practice Falun Gong in October 2004 and have been a Falun Gong practitioner for five years. I suffered from many diseases so I started to practice Falun Gong to become healthy. I had traveled all around China seeking medical treatment and spent a lot of money, but nothing helped. Feeling I had nothing to lose, I started to practice Falun Gong. Miraculously, all my sicknesses were gone only two months after I started, and I looked much healthier than before. Since that time I have genuinely regained my health and I am completely free from disease.
Studying the Fa well is the key to improving xinxing
Besides Zhuan Falun, the first Fa lecture that I read after I started practicing Falun Gong was "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York." After I read it I was quite confused about what the old forces are and what Fa-rectification period Dafa practitioners are. I didn't know that, as a Falun Gong practitioner, I not only need to study the Fa and do the Falun Gong exercises, but I also need to send forth righteous thoughts and clarify the truth. I was certain that I should do what Teacher told us to do, but I really had no idea about how to send forth righteous thoughts.
Not long after, I received the software to break the Chinese Internet blockade, and I logged onto the Falun Gong website Minghui (Chinese version of Clearwisdom). I immediately downloaded all of Teacher's Fa lectures. During my spare time I sat in front of my computer and read the lectures and experience sharing articles that I downloaded. I bought a printer and printed all the lectures and read them many times. I finally resolved my confusion and came to understand the divine mission that I am to accomplish. I said to Teacher in my mind, "Teacher, I do not want to be only a new Dafa practitioner. I want to be a Fa-rectification period Dafa practitioner." With this aspiration I studied the Fa diligently and I measured myself against Dafa in whatever I did. I improved my xinxing this way and assimilated myself to Dafa rapidly, which laid a solid foundation for my truth clarification and saving sentient beings.
Fulfilling my predestined pledge in truth clarification and saving sentient beings
Not long after I began to practice Falun Gong, I started to do truth clarification by just distributing informational materials. When I went out to distribute them for the first time, if I remember correctly, it was at 3 a.m. The whole city was fast asleep and quiet as I walked through all the buildings. I was very nervous. It took me quite a long time to calm down after I returned home after I distributed all the materials. Later, with more Fa study, my understandings about Dafa deepened and my righteous thoughts became stronger and stronger. As a result I became able to maintain a peaceful mind when I distribute materials. With the help of Teacher, I always return home safely.
In the winter of 2005, I was enlightened that I should do what Teacher wants me to do, so I set out to establish a material production site in my home. With the help of practitioners with computer skills, my plan was soon implemented. In the beginning I had a strong incentive to work like normal people in producing these materials. During the day I am too busy, so I worked at night. I was so preoccupied by work that I usually skipped Fa study. When the printer broke down I resorted to asking for help from fellow practitioners with no consideration for their time or whether they had studied the Fa. I did not consider their convenience before myself, and I failed to look inside myself for my xinxing problems. I did not know how repair a printer, and I did not know how to cultivate myself.
Through reading experience sharing articles on Clearwisdom, I deepened my understanding about Teacher's Fa about "Pacify the external by cultivating the internal." Only when I let go of my attachment can I make full use of my Fa instruments, and only when I purify my mind can the power of my truth clarification materials be fully utilized in saving sentient beings. Now, whenever I come across problems I always look inside to find out if I have any human attachment that is hindering my printer. After rectifying myself, I send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all elements that prevent my printer from working properly. My problems are usually solved. I've even helped other practitioners in my neighborhood establish their materials sites and provided them with technical support. Now all our materials sites are running smoothly and are playing important roles in saving sentient beings.
Besides maintaining the materials sites, I also clarify the truth about Falun Gong in my job as a teacher. I understand that my colleagues and students are all coming to hear me clarify the facts and that they are sentient beings I am supposed to save. Because I consider others before myself in everything I do, I am recognized by my colleagues as a good and credible person. Most of them quit the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations and thus secured a nice future for themselves after hearing me clarify the facts. To my students, I explain the truth when I give lectures to them. Many of them have come to understand the truth about Falun Gong and quit the CCP organizations. Many even think when they are ill: "Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good." The pure and innocent nature of children is better preserved as they are less contaminated by the CCP, so the manifestation of the power of Dafa on them is quite remarkable. Usually they recite the sentence only once or twice and the illness that made them suffer so much disappears and they can come back to school. I also take the opportunity when I meet with my students' parents to clarify the truth, and the results have been quite good.
Doing the sitting meditation exercise
For four years I did the sitting meditation exercise in the single crossed leg position with my right leg on the top of the left one. When I started to learn it, I could do it only with my right knee sticking upward almost vertically and I could sit on only one of my buttocks. To keep my balance I had to bend over, which hurt my back and waist. It was such suffering. I did the the mediation exercise in that position for two years. Although I could do it only for about 30 minutes each time, it was so hard for me that my heart even trembled with pain. I tried my best to do it by continuing to recite the Fa in my mind:
"When it's hard to endure, try to endure it. When it seems impossible to do, or just hard to do, give it a try and see just what you can do. " (Zhuan Falun)
"A Great Enlightened One fears no hardship
Having forged an adamantine will"
("Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions," Hong Yin Volume II)
After the exercise I usually was a little worn out, but I tried to balance myself to hide my awkwardness.
Later, I could do the sitting meditation exercise in the standard double crossed, full lotus position with my legs on top of each other, but I could do it only after I prepared myself with the single crossed position for more than ten minutes. I believed that my legs were extremely stiff, and I always had to start the exercise in the single crossed position before I could do it in the standard position. One day, my husband, who is also a Falun Gong practitioner, and another fellow practitioner told me that I should do the exercise in the standard the position from the beginning, but I insisted that I could not do that because my legs were too stiff. They said that was only my own notion and not the truth, but I still did not follow their suggestion. At night I reconsidered what they said: "Perhaps I am indeed hindered by my notions. Why did even my husband, who has practiced Falun Gong for only a little more than a year, say that? Was it not a hint from Teacher that was uttered from their mouths? I am sure it was."
The next morning when I did the sitting meditation exercise, I did not start in the single crossed leg position as usual. Instead I tried to stretch my legs for about five minutes and then I started the exercise in the correct position. Surprisingly, I did it for more than 50 minutes, even longer than the whole time when I began in the single and ended in the double crossed position before. On the third day I stretched my legs for four minutes before I did the exercise in the standard position. On the fourth day I did it after only three minutes of stretching my legs, and the time I could sit became longer and longer. The longest was 57 minutes. After resting for a little while, I even sent forth righteous thoughts in the position. Now I was convinced that I had indeed been hindered by my notions before. I used to think that I did not have many human notions, so I did not take seriously Teacher's Fa about breaking through human notions, but such notions had formed many obstacles in my past cultivation. I should pay more attention to this problem in the future.
Written on March 22, 2010