(Clearwisdom.net) I am a new practitioner who obtained the Fa in May 2007. Towards the end of Fa-rectification, I am especially grateful for Master, who didn't give up on me and offered me salvation.
My past three years of cultivation have not been smooth. I even went through a near-death situation because of a serious illness. In addition, the pain from my husband's betrayal really penetrated deep into my heart. In the past, I was a very dependent, weak woman who always cried when faced with crisis. However, after cultivation, I have become truly independent. I was arrested by police officers when I went out to clarify the truth, but with strong righteous thoughts, I was released. In fact, every step that I have taken was protected by Master. When I was in the midst of all these tribulations, I never forgot that I was a Dafa practitioner. The only way I can repay Master for giving me another life and protecting me all the time is by cultivating more diligently.
A few days ago, I felt some pain in my left leg, which I didn't take seriously at first. I included the thought to eradicate all the evil elements that were interfering with my leg when sending forth righteous thoughts. In the beginning, I persisted during meditation when the pain was still bearable. However, as the pain increased, it began to interfere with my meditation. My legs became very hard, so I couldn't persist longer than half an hour. I started to look within, but failed to find the reason. I also sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate interfering factors, which wasn't very effective. Later on, it even affected my ability to walk, which was quite alarming to me. I knew that I had loopholes that became excuses for the old forces' interference. However, I am Master's disciple and I will not acknowledge the old forces' arrangements. Even if I have attachments, Master will take care of me, and no one else is allowed to interfere. I sat down and looked within carefully, but I still couldn't find any attachments that caused the interference. So I asked Master: "Master, my enlightenment quality is poor. I cannot find my attachment. If this is to eliminate karma, I will endure it. If it isn't, please give me a hint."
Then a word suddenly appeared in my mind: "selfishness." Yes, selfishness! Selfishness is a characteristic of the old universe, but I am a Dafa disciple who aims to assimilate myself to the characteristics of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance of the new universe and attain "selflessness and altruism". I recalled what had happened around me recently, and my actions indeed indicated selfishness everywhere.
Since I found my attachment of being selfish, I made up my mind to get rid of it. When I did the morning exercises the next day, I felt as if I was sitting in a very strong energy field, and my legs didn't hurt at all after I had meditated for an hour. Looking within indeed is a magical tool for cultivators!
I felt that this selfishness had formed since the first day I was born, and it's hard to completely get rid of it immediately! However, since I have realized this, I know what to do in the future.
A few days ago, my workplace brought in a batch of mice for the computers to replace the old ones in the guest rooms. Without a second thought, I took one to replace my old one that wasn't working very well. However, looking at the new mouse, my heart was weighed down. Isn't this selfishness? For an ordinary person, it is quite normal, but I am a practitioner, and I have to discipline myself according to the Fa. Otherwise, there would be no difference between me and an ordinary person. I have to watch and correct my every thought. Later, I returned the new mouse. Now when I look at my old mouse, I feel really comfortable and at ease.
Fa-rectification is approaching the end, and I know very well that the time is really urgent for new practitioners such as me. After I study the Fa and do the exercises every day, there isn't much time left for me to do things for Dafa, and I have missed a lot of people I could have saved. I cultivate by myself. Although I often use cash printed with truth-clarification words and sometimes I clarified the truth to people around me, I am still far from reaching Master's requirements. Up to now, I still have a lot of immoral and selfish thoughts that must be eliminated. I must discipline myself and get rid of selfishness from the old universe, and assimilate myself to the standards of the new universe and become a worthy disciple of Dafa.
Thank you Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners!
