How Grandmother Cui Passed the Tests of Emotion and Material Gain
(Clearwisdom.net) Ms. Cui Amai, in her eighties and of Korean ethnicity, is a Falun Dafa practitioner in Yanbian, Jilin Province. Last summer, she returned to Dafa cultivation after she made it through intense tests of emotion, fame and gain by conducting herself according the requirements of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
Ms. Cui Amai lost her husband when she was middle aged. She raised her four sons and one daughter and brought them to adulthood by herself. Last year, her eldest son died of cancer. When Ms. Cui heard the news, she felt thunderstruck, and she collapsed both physically and mentally. When fellow practitioners came to visit her, Ms. Cui, who was huddled on her sofa, could only crawl to the door to let them in. With grief marking her face and her hair disheveled, Ms. Cui said to the fellow practitioners, "My angina (heart pain) that disappeared 10 years ago has recurred. My children made me go to the hospital, but the medicine did not really work for me, so I just checked out of hospital. The angina is making me feel awful. I do not know why my legs feel chilly again. I cannot bear it any more. I would rather die."
She continued, "It is such a tragedy to see the young die before the old! Also unbearable was that the wife of my eldest son moved back to Jilin after he died, and took along with her all of the money - over two million yuan - that came from the sale of their house and other properties in Beijing. She did not give me a dime. That money was sent back by my eldest son to his brother when he worked abroad and was used to purchase a house for the convenience of his brother's medical treatments in Beijing. If my daughter-in-law were to give me even as little as ten thousand yuan, I would have been satisfied. It is too bad that she did not give me anything. Oh, how bitter a fate is mine!"
A fellow practitioner said, "Cui Amai, you have been a practitioner for over ten years. Teacher instructed us to cherish Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. So when we are compassionate to others, it amounts to being compassionate to ourselves. The Fa also teaches us to put restraints on our desire for material gain. Your other sons have given you enough money to live on, so you should be satisfied, without fighting for more money from your daughter-in-law." After she heard the fellow practitioner's remarks, Ms. Cui realized that they were right. She thought to herself, I am a Dafa disciple and often talk about Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance; how come this time I have been interfered with by emotion and material gain?! This is an indication of my lack of compassion. Teacher said in "Casting off Attachments" (Hong Yin) :
Delusion blinds the world's people,
Each attached to fame and gain,
But honest and kind were the ancients,
Calm and balanced,
fortune and longevity were their lot.
Thinking of this, Ms. Cui said, "I no longer care for personal gain. After I moved from a one-story simple residence to a more comfortable, air-conditioned house, I have not participated in group Fa study for many years. I am behind in Fa study, and therefore I have been interfered with by the evil. I know I am wrong and I would like to improve from now on!"
After Ms. cleared up her mind, she started Fa study again, reading the copy of Zhuan Falun that fellow practitioners had brought for her. She also sent forth righteous thoughts at the global set times. She practiced the meditation exercise twice a day and the other exercises once a day. In the first few days, Ms. could not sit in the full lotus position with both legs crossed due to pain in her legs. She was a bit upset and said, with one hand patting her upper leg: "My leg has really let me down." That night, she had a dream. In the dream, Teacher conducted an operation on her leg. After she woke up, she tried the lotus position again and a miracle happened: she could sit with both legs crossed, without feeling any pain in her legs. She was so joyful in her heart, because she knew that Teacher was still taking care of her! From then on, Ms. Cui's health was restored.
However, some time later, Ms. Cui felt physically uncomfortable again. She felt pain all over her body and was in very low spirits. She could not figure out the reason. Fellow practitioners asked her kindly, "Cui Amai, have your children all quit the evil party and its affiliated associations?" Ms. was enlightened and said, "Of course! I forgot about this. I have to do the three things well. I will persuade them to quit the evil Chinese Communist Party party and its affiliated associations right away. They usually listen to me and do as I say."
It has been nearly a year since Cui Amai came back to Dafa cultivation. Over the course of this year, she has conducted herself according to the requirements of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and she overcame the interference of emotion and the attachments to fame and material gain. She feels happy that she has not been left behind. She often says, "Teacher is still taking care of me!"