Cultivating Diligently Within the Fa
Greetings to esteemed Master! Greetings to Dafa disciples all over the world!
I became a practitioner in 1997, and while cultivating in Dafa for the last 13 years, I have been through many tribulations and enlightenments. Here is my report to Teacher and to share with my fellow practitioners.
1. Learning the Fa is Most Fortunate, Dafa Brought Me Back to Life
Before I started to practice Falun Dafa, I had many illnesses that could not be treated effectively, such as gynecological problems, gastric disease, liver disease, rheumatism and a thyroid tumor. I visited famous doctors and tried other methods, but nothing worked. My unfortunate life affected me mentally and I even had thoughts of committing suicide. Just when I felt there was no hope left for me, I was so fortunate to be introduced to Falun Dafa. The Fa principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance helped me to realize the true meaning of life, which then healed my spiritual wounds.
Teacher gave me a second life and since then I have walked on the path of cultivation to return home. I understood that when Teacher said:
"... being human isn't the meaning of life--it's to have you return to your original, true self, to go back." (Zhuan Falun)
Teacher's Fa, like a bright star, brightened my depressed heart, and released me from the torture of human emotion. During the process of eliminating my sickness karma, I clearly felt Teacher bearing so much for me. I did not have the feeling of pain, and I usually fell into a deep sleep. When I woke up, I felt all the illness was gone. I knew then that it was Teacher who had saved my life.
2. My Comprehension of the Fa Went From Emotional to Rational
When I first acquired the Fa, my goal was to get rid of the sickness, free myself and achieve personal consummation. When I achieved the goal of getting rid of the illness and strengthening my body, I was very excited. I was very grateful to Teacher and the Fa, but I did not truly understand the Fa at deeper levels.
Ever since July 20, 1999, the CCP has utilized mass propaganda to slander and frame Falun Gong through its TV and broadcasting media. Under the persecution, I felt depressed and helpless. Just at that time when I was most confused, Teacher used fellow practitioners' words to enlighten me to step out and clarify the facts about Falun Gong. Teacher also arranged practitioners to set up a materials production site at my home. I was touched by the practitioner's good intentions and I understood the importance of validating the Fa. During the process of producing and distributing the information materials, I gradually got rid of many selfish notions and the attachment to fear. But when I measured myself against really diligent practitioners, I felt I was still very far from their levels. When Teacher's article "My Version of a 'Stick Wake-up'" was published, I was ashamed for not truly enlightening to Teacher's compassionate salvation for all sentient beings.
"So what kind of being deserves to be a Disciple of Dafa? Would you say those people who hide in their homes and "study the Fa" do? Or those who only want to gain from Dafa but don't want to give for Dafa? Furthermore, what about those who, while Dafa disciples are being persecuted, don't want to speak up for Dafa and yet still "read the book" at home and try to get things from Dafa--what kind of people are they? You be the judge." ("My Version of a 'Stick Wake-up'")
Teacher's Fa enlightened and helped me clearly understand that Dafa disciples need to walk the cultivation path of validating the Fa. Since then, I was able to keep up with the Fa-rectification progress, and do the three things that Dafa disciples should do while cultivating myself well.
3. Small Material Site at My Home
Since July 20, 1999, we did not have large amounts of the truth-clarification materials in my city because we had to write and produce each of them by hand. At that time, my daughter and I borrowed a computer and bought a small printer. I started to produce banners to post that said: "Falun Dafa is good". At first I did not know the techniques and I was not able to contact the practitioners who knew the technology. The printers' ink would quickly empty in just a few days and I did not know how to solve the problem, so the printer seemed useless for me. Then another practitioner and I bought a copy machine to produce the materials, but the copy machine's quality was not good either and soon it malfunctioned. Also, the materials from the copy machine were in black and white, not color, so it did not look very good. I was discouraged and my attachment of depending on others surfaced. At this time, Teacher's word came to my mind:
"Cultivation is the process that enables a human being to ascend to heaven and become a god, so how could it not be hard?" ("My Version of a 'Stick Wake-up'")
I knew that I could not give up because of these technical difficulties. If I did not do it, other practitioners would also face the same difficulties. I had some good advantages compared to others like the younger practitioners who needed to go to work. I was retired and had plenty of time, my financial situation was good and my house is spacious. So I was the best person to produce the truth-clarifying materials. My husband, however, did not agree, which created a big tribulation for me. Because of the CCP's past political movements, my husband had experienced evil communist party tyranny first hand. In addition, he had developed a deep selfishness over the years, so he was against using our home as a materials production site. Because I did not have righteous thoughts, I wanted to leave home and my environment. But studying Teacher's Fa rectified my wrong thoughts and I finally I made up my mind to do the things I was supposed to do. Teacher again strengthened my righteous thoughts.
My daughter bought a new computer and other practitioners helped to buy the printer, paper cutter and stapler. I was puzzled again, facing all the machines. I am over 60 years old, so could I really learn how to do it? It encouraged me if I thought about when Teacher's said:"It's hard to do, but you can do it" (Zhuan Falun). I realized that as long as I believe in Teacher and the Fa, Teacher will enlighten me to the wisdom I need. I picked up the computer mouse that I never used before, and sat in front of the computer screen and sent forth-righteous thoughts to eliminate my human notions and attachments which prevented me from validating the Fa. I had carefully written down the operating procedure that practitioners gave to me. With practitioners' help I learned how to explore the Internet, download files, reproduce Teacher's Fa Lectures, Minghui Weekly, truth-clarifying brochures and the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. This provided enough material for nearly 100 practitioners to use. Today, the material sites in my city are like blossoming flowers, spreading everywhere.
During the process of producing and handing out the materials, all kinds of human notions, fears, and selfishness frequently surfaced. Once, on a day that the CCP considered to be "politically sensitive", I was to exchange materials with a practitioner. I stood in front of Teacher's photo and asked Teacher to strengthen me to finish my task wisely. When I met the practitioner, he asked me, "Has anyone followed you?" My heart hesitated for a moment. But Teacher's words immediately came to my mind:
"Should you have fear,
it will seize upon you
If thoughts are righteous,
evil will collapse" ("What's to fear?" from Hong Yin II)
I said, "The evil is unworthy of following Dafa practitioners. Teacher is with me." After he heard me, the practitioner also dispelled his fear. Under Teacher's compassionate protection, I am still exchanging materials with this practitioner.
Another time, a practitioner from the countryside was arrested. Since she had just started to work with me, other practitioners suggested that I temporarily leave home for a while for my own safety. I thought that I should be responsible to the Fa and for fellow practitioners. I asked other practitioners to send forth-righteous thoughts for the arrested practitioner, and I also sent forth-righteous thoughts to eliminate any interference. I thought if I hid, nobody would take care of the material production for practitioners. At the same time, I believed the arrested practitioner would not betray Dafa or harm Dafa related work. I did not have the thought of hiding and I passed this test safety. During the past many years of Fa validation, several times I was potentially in danger, but with strong faith in Dafa I made it through safely.
Working in the material production projects, both my divine thoughts and human thoughts often surfaced. In the beginning, when the machines did not work, I asked for the practitioners' help and caused a lot of trouble to many practitioners. Later on, I realized I needed to look inwards. When I did, I found many attachments, such as the attachment to slacking off and being impatient. Sometimes I put too many papers in the paper tray, and the machine jammed. Sometimes the machine worked hard for too long and overheated, causing damage to the machine. I soon rectified my thoughts and began to operate the machine smoothly with a calm mind. When something went wrong, I looked inward and sent forth righteous thoughts for the machine. Because the machine was also a life, I communicated with it and ever since then, the machined has cooperated well too. Dafa opened up my wisdom. On the path of Fa validation, I fell down and picked my self up again and again. This is the path of cultivation, and the magnificence of Dafa has enabled me to elevate within the Fa.
4. Our Fa Study Group
Group Fa-study is the cultivation format that Teacher has given us. With the progress of Fa-rectification, most of the practitioners in my city attended the Fa study groups. I knew some practitioners who had not come to the group Fa-study yet. I wished to create a good environment for all practitioners to study the Fa in a group, share experiences and improve as a whole. So practitioner A, my daughter and I formed a Fa-study group. Later, practitioner B came back to town from her daughter's home. She also joined our Fa-study group. Because practitioner A's husband needed to be taken care of, we moved our Fa study location to practitioner A's home. This Fa-study group had seven people at the most. Later, two of the practitioners created their own Fa-study group. With five of us left, the youngest one was over 60 years old and the oldest one was over 70 years of age. One of the practitioners was illiterate and since cultivating in the Fa, she learned to read Zhuan Falun fluently.
By chance, I attended a Fa-study group formed by the younger practitioners. I really admired the environment in this Fa-study group and the status of these practitioners. I was strongly attached to and admired the level of the practitioners in that study group. At that time I could not resist my sentimental attachments to my likes and dislikes, or my willingness or unwillingness to do things. The evil old forces interfered with my human notions and I did not want to attend my current Fa-study group anymore. After studying the Fa and sharing my experience with other practitioners, I understood that everything we experience comes from predestined relationships. One practitioner said, "Maybe during a past life you made the wish to study the Fa together with those senior practitioners." Her words reminded me to look inward and when I did, I found I had strong attachments to being lazy and wanting an easy life. I did not want to bear hardships and I also looked down on the elderly practitioners. I felt the practitioners were not as good as me and I liked to show off at how well I could read the Fa. I was afraid of wasting time and not being able to improve myself faster if I studied the Fa together with the older practitioners, who read the Fa less fluently. Actually, my human notions were the real barriers that prevented me from improving myself quickly.
"Stop letting the evil exploit gaps, and stop being interfered with by human attachments." ("Eliminate the Dark Minions With Righteous Thoughts")
I rectified myself based on the Fa and eliminated the interference promptly. I returned to the Fa-study group I'd left two months ago. During the experience sharing, I exposed my unrighteousness and asked for the practitioners' forgiveness. The practitioners forgave me, as we had eliminated the gap between us, and we were back on track to a harmonious one-body group.
Because we had cultivated ourselves well, we went out to clarify the truth face to face in order to save more sentient beings. Practitioner C from my Fa-study group used the chance of visiting her relatives to clarify the truth and persuaded many people to quit the CCP. Practitioner A and B cooperated well by clarifying the truth at the market and on the street. Whenever they had the chance, they let people know the beauty and magnificence of Falun Dafa, and why the CCP illegally persecutes Falun Gong. Many people understood the truth and quit the CCP and its related organizations. When one of them clarified the truth, the other sent forth righteous thoughts. They formed a good partnership and saved many people. One practitioner who had not stepped out yet heard their experience sharing and became greatly motivated. She began to discuss the facts about Falun Dafa face to face with strangers. Once, when she took her husband to the hospital, she discussed Falun Dafa with patients at the hospital. Since then, she has walked well on the path of cultivation and said that she must do all the three things well.
When we can constantly use the Fa to rectify our xinxing and actions, we will truly improve our understanding of the Fa and improve ourselves as a whole. All practitioners can assimilate into the Fa that way.
We are the Dafa disciples in this Fa-Rectification period. Our title is great and so are our responsibilities. The current time is very precious. Let us seize this unprecedented opportunity of being Dafa disciples in the Fa-Rectification period. Let us always remember what Teacher has taught us, do the three things well, firmly believe in Teacher and Dafa, and walk with Teacher through the day that the Fa rectifies human world, thereby fulfilling our historical mission.
Thank you compassionate Teacher! Thank you fellow practitioners!