An Experience of Defying Old Force Arrangements with Righteous Thoughts
(Clearwisdom.net) Since 1999 when the persecution of Falun Gong started, I have been illegally detained many times. In the year 2002, I was subjected to one year of forced labor and was "transformed." After coming home, with the help of fellow practitioners and with Master's compassion and the power of Dafa, I started afresh and continue in my cultivation today.
Today, I would like to share with fellow practitioners an experience of defying the arrangements of the evil old forces with righteous thoughts.
One night on August 10, 2009, I suddenly had an excruciating pain in my stomach. I woke my son (a young practitioner) to ask him to send forth righteous thoughts with me. In addition, I continually searched inwards to find my shortcomings. In the past, when I did something wrong, once I realized what I did wrong, I quickly corrected myself and everything would be fine. But this time it was different, I could not identify where my problem was. The pain in my stomach became more and more severe. I kept on changing my position so as to alleviate the pain. I rolled around and slumped on the bed. For a moment, I felt as though my breathing stopped and I was going to die. I could not hold out any longer, thus I asked my son to go and let practitioner A know to ask her to come and send forth righteous thoughts with us. When practitioner A came in, while clutching my son's hand, I really felt like telling her, "I am leaving my son in your care,," but I felt that this was not the real me and thus I did not do this. In this way, I vomited and had diarrhea from time to time and it was like this from 11:00 pm until 4:00 in the morning. Practitioner A called practitioner B to come and send forth righteous thoughts together. They persisted until 6:00 am when all practitioners send forth righteous thoughts at the same time. It was not until after thrashing about in bed, vomiting and having diarrhea that I started to feel better.
Practitioner C and D also came. When we were sharing experiences, I suddenly remembered: My fellow practitioner asked me to coordinate a matter but I actually forgot all about it. After a moment, the pain lessened and it eventually stopped.
When nightfall came, the pain returned. I quickly had my son ask my neighbor (a practitioner) to come. At the same time, we also informed the nearby practitioners to send forth righteous thoughts together. We sent righteous thoughts all the way from 9:00 pm to 10:00 pm. Afterwards, we stopped to share experiences. One thought I had was, "I will not recognize the arrangements of the evil old forces. I am Master's disciple. I want to take the path arranged only by Master." My fellow practitioners all said, "Master does not recognize the arrangement of the evil old forces, thus, we must not recognize them either. Any deviant thoughts and human attachments must be rectified with Dafa." After discussing, we sent forth righteous thoughts again.
Regardless of the pain in my stomach, I only have one thought, "Master, I am your disciple, only you can arrange my future. All the other arrangements I will not accept!" At this time, a thought flashed across my mind, "I will be better at 12:00 pm." I took a look at the clock and saw that it was almost 11:00 pm and I quickly changed my mind, "I will be better at 11:00 pm." When I laid down on the bed, I did not feel any pain. In this way, under the protection of Master, my fellow practitioners and I together defied the arrangements of the evil old forces. We sent forth righteous thoughts together at midnight before they returned home.
Through this incident of battling with the evil, I have this understanding: During tribulations we must not forget to "look inwards," we must not underestimate the immense power of "holistic improvement and holistic upgrade" (Zhuan Falun). When I am feeling extremely painful and most susceptible to be muddle-headed, every thought that I have, I must try very hard to differentiate whether these are my real thoughts from the real me so as to avoid the evil taking advantage of any loopholes. We must fundamentally defy all the arrangements of the evil old forces. If we cannot do so, it will result in us being taken away by the evil old forces when we are muddle-headed. This would create great losses to the saving of sentient beings. The practitioners taking part in sending forth righteous thoughts must have a stable mentality and be righteous and should not be moved by any human attachments.
At the same time, I also have this understanding. Only when we study the Fa more, study the Fa well and use the Fa to set a solid cultivation foundation, then we can fundamentally defy the arrangements of the evil old forces and take the cultivation path arranged by Master. From today onwards, I must strictly require myself to do the "three things" well and follow Master closely to reach consummation and go home with Master.
This is my personal understanding after experiencing this tribulation. I hereby share with my fellow practitioners and if there is anything inappropriate, please kindly point it out.
September 6, 2009