My Understanding of Jealousy
(Clearwisdom.net) After I read Master's "Fa Teaching at the 2009 Greater New York International Fa Conference," in which Master talked about how some practitioners do not agree with each other in regard to coordinating Fa-rectification projects, I realized that I had similar experiences myself. I would follow orders from certain practitioners who I thought cultivated well and I disagreed with fellow practitioners who I thought did not do well. During group discussions, I would listen to the fellow practitioners who I thought cultivated well. For those who I felt were not enlightened to high levels, but spoke as though they were, I worriedly pointed out attachments I saw in them. If they refused to listen, I became very worried. I thought: "What is wrong with you? You did not quite understand this, yet you refus to listen. I am doing this for your sake."
" Nevertheless, there may be another person in the same working group or sharing the same office with him who is quite incapable of doing anything or is good for nothing. Yet one day this incompetent person gets a promotion instead of him and even becomes his supervisor. He will feel in his heart that it is unfair and complain to his boss and coworkers, feeling very upset and quite jealous."
I felt that my mentality was just like the one Master talked about in Zhuan Falun. It is that jealousy is in play; otherwise I would be calm and kindly point out the shortcomings of fellow practitioners. How could I be so upset? Deep down, it was because of my attachment of jealousy.
This is my understanding; please point out any shortcomings.