(Clearwisdom.net) On July 22, 2009, I went out with a practitioner to clarify the truth about Falun Dafa. This was the first time that I clarified the truth to people face-to-face after overcoming my attachments to fear and selfishness. In approximately three hours, Teacher arranged different people for me to meet and exposed many attachments that I hadn't recognized before. After taking this first encouraging and crucial step, I felt that I improved quite a bit.
The practitioner led me to a small street, and as we walked I noticed that we were heading towards my workplace, and thus became afraid of being seen by people I knew. Once I realized it was an attachment to fear and saving face, I quickly eliminated these thoughts with righteous thoughts.
The first woman we met told us happily that her relative also practices Falun Dafa. She had already withdrawn from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and read Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. I immediately introduced her to the Shen Yun performance disc, but unfortunately she didn't have a VCD player. After we said goodbye to her, the practitioner and I both agreed that Teacher was encouraging us. Immediately afterwards, I ran into a colleague from work. She is the secretary of the Communist Youth League at my workplace. I had never clarified the truth to her before because I thought she was a cunning person, but I realized that I had a strong attachment about treating people differently and lacked compassion. I greeted her and thought to myself, "Whatever you are afraid of is what is coming. I really need to let go of this attachment." I was nonetheless still afraid to clarify the truth to her and let the other practitioner do the talking.
When we meet someone, I let the other practitioner talk while I sent forth righteous thoughts. When I see that the person accepts the truth, then I will give them the Shen Yun VCD. Yet after we had clarified the truth to several people, I realized that I was too dependent on the other practitioner.
When I observed the fellow practitioner talking to people, she was always smiling no matter if people were staring at or ignoring her. I was very touched by this. Gradually, I felt my righteous thoughts becoming stronger. I knew Teacher was strengthening me and I needed to break through this by myself. When I met someone who talked to me, I tried not to lose the opportunity to clarify the truth to them. When I met someone who avoided me and appeared scared, I remembered how the CCP has destroyed the trust and harmony among Chinese people. I felt sorry for those who refused to listen to the truth.
When we walked onto a small side street, we saw an elderly woman and a middle-aged woman sitting there. I had the notion that old people can't hear well, so I started telling the middle-aged woman about the "three withdrawals." However, the elderly woman said to me, "She is handicapped. She can speak and read, but can't hear." Instead it was the elderly woman who could hear and see well. I realized we shouldn't be confused by people's appearance when clarifying the truth. I gave the elderly woman some materials, but she still wouldn't let us leave. She said, "Another lady is coming. You should talk to her too." Then, she shouted at the person coming towards us, "Come quickly, someone is bringing us a treasure." Two more women showed up and asked me some questions about Falun Gong, which I answered one by one. At first, I gave each a copy of the Shen Yun VCD, but one woman returned a copy back to me. She had heard that practitioners used their own money to make the VCDs, so she told me to save the other copy for someone else. I was moved by their kindness. This experience eliminated my notion that it was hard to clarify the truth to multiple people.
Both of us searched inward as we clarified the truth, and as soon as we realized attachments surfacing, we immediately eliminated them. Although I didn't do the Falun Gong exercises that morning, I didn't feel tired at all.
I had been illegally detained for three years. As a result, for a long time I walked the path arranged by the old forces and had a strong attachment of fear. However, Teacher is merciful and strengthened me that day. It is truly like what Teacher says,
"Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one's master." (Zhuan Falun)
When I got home at around noon time, I found out that my nine-year-old son had a fever and a headache, but I still took him to Fa study that afternoon. Later that night, he went to bed without eating. I had originally planned to go out again to clarify the truth the next day, but I called the fellow practitioner and wanted to cancel. She said, "We all know the Fa and know what we should do. I will wait for you at the old place at 8:30 a.m. From now on, I will wait for you every day. If you can come, we will do it together."
After I hung up the phone, I started searching within myself. I just started clarifying the truth face-to-face. The old forces won't give up, so how does it interfere with me? I had thought my son's sickness karma was due to him not doing the exercises for a long time. I then realized that wasn't reason why. The evil was interfering with me in various forms. My son appeared to be having a fever, and my once-controlling husband was taking time off from work and staying at home for a few days. Additionally, my mother (who is also a practitioner) told me I should stay home and take care of the child. I immediately negated all the factors that interfered with me clarifying the truth and decided to go out as planned the following day.
The next day, I took my son to my mother's place and asked her to take care of him. I also asked her to study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts with him. It was raining that day, and the fellow practitioner and I walked on the street with an umbrella and clarified the truth to people we met.
In the afternoon, I took my son to the group Fa-study as usual. By night time, he was back normal. My husband was deeply touched after witnessing this.
For the past two months, my mother has started practicing Falun Gong again. Together, we help former practitioners to return to cultivation. She also started clarifying the truth face-to-face and her righteous thoughts are getting stronger as well.
I am grateful to Teacher for giving me a chance to correct my past mistakes. I want to tell those practitioners who haven't stepped out to put away your human notions and put your hearts into clarifying the truth face-to-face to save sentient beings. You will feel the joy from deep inside. It is truly wonderful!
Thank you, Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners! Heshi.
