Teacher's Boundless Grace Changes My Life Completely
Starting the Practice
I am 33. Before practicing Falun Dafa, I was fairly successful compared to other people my age: I had a car, an apartment, and a decent income. In fact, many people my age and younger envied me. I felt pretty good about myself.
For several reasons, I broke up with my boyfriend in the beginning of 2006. I dated a few other men after that, but nothing was fruitful. At the end of 2007, I got pregnant while dating my then boyfriend. Then, after a checkup, I learned I had three tumors in my uterus.
When I told this to my manager, who is a very good person, she told me to practice Falun Dafa. She brought me a copy of Zhuan Falunthe next day. This is how I became a Dafa disciple to assist Teacher in rectifying the Fa. As I studied the Fa more, I understood that I should follow Dafa's standards in everything and improve myself.
Passing the Hurdle of Sentimentality and Obtaining Benefits
During the 2008 Chinese New Year, two months after I started practicing Falun Gong, my then boyfriend disappeared from my life without giving me any reason. I couldn't find any information on him. When sharing with veteran practitioners, I realized that this was a test of sentimentality. Though I had just started practicing, I knew that I should follow the Fa's requirements. However, it was so hard to give up human attachments. I managed to appear that I had let go of my attachments, but when I got home, I was miserable and couldn't fall asleep. Only when I listened to Teacher's Fa would I feel calm. During that period, I almost used Teacher's Fa lectures as a lullaby. Now, thinking back, that was a great disrespect to Teacher. During the whole holiday period, I stayed at home to read Zhuan Falun and listen to Teacher's Fa lectures. The reading made me calm and not so restless. After the holidays, I emerged from the pain, went to work, and cultivated happily.
I had been longing to have a wonderful marriage and a family. After I studied the Fa, I realized that this was an attachment and that it should be relinquished, so I started struggling with myself about whether or not I should get married. I knew that when I didn't have a good solution for something, I should study the Fa. The Fa enlightened me: "Having a desire to get married is an attachment; forcing oneself not to marry is another attachment. Teacher has talked about letting it be. We should truly let go of the attachment - being unaffected is completely letting go. So I should let go of my attachment to marriage, believing that the path Teacher arranges for us is the cultivation path for us to take."
In April 2008, an older friend introduced me to a young medical doctor who had an 11-year old daughter. After dating for six months, I realized that he had a lot of merits as a person. We got married in May 2009. With his daughter, we three have a very good life. I always remember that I am a Dafa practitioner and hold myself to the standards of Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance. I am very nice to his daughter, and she likes me very much. Due to my influence, she likes Dafa so much that she often says that she is one of Teacher's young disciples. My mother-in-law often praises me in front of her relatives and friends. My husband has made great progress in his work. I knew these good things come from my cultivating Dafa. It's truly "one person practices (Dafa), the whole family benefits from it."
Overcoming Illness Karma
Starting in July 2008, I experienced my first illness karma. One day, I all of sudden was in great pain and even had drops of blood in my urine. I remembered that I had acute cystitis a few times several years before. This time I knew it was a good thing, that Teacher was eliminating karma for me. Normally if a woman feels pain when urinating, she takes cephalosporin antibiotic, the most effective medicine for that condition. As a Dafa practitioner, I needed to let go of my human heart. I should not keep thinking about it, nor should I treat it as a disease.
Although I knew what I should do as a practitioner, I was still nervous and could not let go of my attachment completely. I thought, "I should not take medicine, but I'll drink more water." So I started to drink cup after cup of water, though I drank only a little water before. I went to the bathroom again and again, in the hope that the water would take the virus out of my body so that I would recover. However, no matter how much water I drank, I kept urinating blood. It even became more severe and the blood became thicker. I then started reading Zhuan Falun and even held my urine without going to the bathroom. When I woke up the next morning, I was happy. It seemed that reading the book was effective. I didn't go to the bathroom the whole night, so I thought that my symptom must have been reduced. However, when I went to the bathroom, there were bloody clots in my urine and it was very painful.
That day, I needed to go to the capital city of our province. It's 20-mile drive and there are no restrooms along the way. What should I do? Having no solution, I asked Teacher in my heart, "Teacher, please help me." Just then, I saw on the Mingui/Clearwisdom website several articles about the persecution of practitioners. It mentioned that many practitioners recited the Fa when they were arrested. I said to myself, "Let me recite the Fa, too." I took Zhuan Falun and started off. At every red light, I read several lines from Lunyu. Then I would recite them in my heart as I drove. It took me half an hour to get to my destination. Not only did I not feel the urge to go to the bathroom, but I also had completely memorized Lunyu. When I did go the the bathroom, it was a miracle: I didn't feel any pain nor was there any blood! I cannot describe how happy I was. Now I realize that my attachment of zealotry came out at that moment. The miracle of Dafa just appeared in front of me. My heart was full of gratitude to Teacher. Besides feeling lucky to get to study such a precious Dafa before Fa rectification ends, I also felt sorry that I didn't know Dafa earlier.
The above are some tiny parts of my cultivation. I cannot comprehend everything completely, so fellow practitioners, please point out my omissions. There are countless events, big and small, that have occurred in my work and life. Teacher uses all of them to improve my xinxing, and helps me let go my attachments to reputation, self-interest, and emotion. After reading Teacher's " Teaching the Fa in Manhattan," I understood that my work environment was set up by Teacher for my cultivation. I must temper myself, enhance my xinxing, and let go of all everyday people's and postnatal attachments in this environment.
Original Article: November 5, 2009