Fifteen Years of Fulfilling My Grand Pledge
Greetings, Esteemed Master! Greetings, Fellow Practitioners!
Doesn't time fly? During the fifteen years of my cultivation path, especially given the ten years of brutal persecution, I have come to this point only because of Master's compassion. Therefore, I would like to report to Teacher and at the same time share with fellow practitioners my experiences.
1. Learning Falun Dafa
I am in my sixties and was born into a wealthy family. When I was an infant my grandmother took me to a Buddhist temple daily to worship Buddha and burn incense. A fortuneteller said that my fortune was not good, so I was abandoned at the age of eight months. A Buddhist adopted me and begged for food so we could survive. I was taken to temples to worship Buddha and burn incense. My childhood was miserable and I survived three disasters. I became a Buddhist as a young girl. A monk gave me a badge and repeatedly urged me not to lose it.
With a wish to cultivate in Buddhism I traveled far and wide to look for a master who could teach me the true Buddha Fa. I took many detours, spent a lot of money, and suffered a lot of hardships. One day when I was going down a hill I broke my leg. After that I limped.
One morning at the beginning of March 1994, I went to a park where I saw a group of people pressing their hands together in front of their chests. I was told that they were practicing Falun Gong. I quickly got the badge the monk had given me and looked at it. There were four characters, "Falun Turning Constantly." I knew then that this was what I was looking for - Falun Gong!
On June 21, 1994, at the Second Falun Gong Lectures in Jinan City, I had the opportunity to see my long-awaited Teacher. My face was bathed in tears. A lot of people attended the lectures and there were no seats left. I sat on the floor in front of the first row and was very close to Teacher. Every day when we learned the exercises, Teacher would correct my movements. I could feel the powerful energy penetrating my body during those nine special days. I still remember it as if it was yesterday.
"But I'll tell you, it has been really hard for you to obtain this Fa. Perhaps the hardships you endured in the first part of your life have been for the sake of obtaining this Fa. That's the part you know about. There are still things you don't know about; perhaps you have been suffering and undergoing hardships in your previous lives or for an even longer period of time in order to obtain this Fa. There are also people who have experienced even more intense suffering for the sake of obtaining the Fa, and this is what you don't know about. " ("Teaching the Fa at the International Experience-Sharing Conference in Beijing")
By studying the Fa I realized that ever since I came to this world, Teacher has been looking after me. He found me in a very remote mountain village, thousands of miles away, and helped me find this Fa in a metropolitan city in south central China.
Falun Gong's Name Spreads Far and Wide
After returning from Jinan I cultivated diligently, studied and memorized the Fa, and delivered Falun Dafa books to remote mountain areas. I experienced many physical and mental changes, became healthy and energetic, and looked ten years younger. My colleagues said that Falun Gong was really wonderful! At work I lived by the Fa principles and tried to assist everyone. My employer received a lot of letters of appreciation, and everyone knew these letters were because of me, the Falun Gong practitioner.
Many of my colleagues also began to study Falun Gong. These practitioners worked very hard. They came to work early and left late. They did a lot of work others refused to do. One colleague often argued with or verbally abused passengers, who often complained about her to our leaders. However, nothing the leaders said made her change. Yet, after she learned Falun Gong she lived by the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. She no longer fought back when punched or insulted. She did a lot of good things for passengers and received lots of praise. In 1995 she was chosen as an outstanding attendant.
My workplace is a large, state-run enterprise. At the year-end general meeting attended by over ten thousand people in 1995, the general manager said, "Falun Gong helped improve the health of the staff and contributed to the betterment of the moral standards." Falun Gong was known by everyone in my company. Many people, including managers and bureau chiefs, came to learn Falun Gong.
2. Steadfastly Studying Dafa
On July 20, 1999, Jiang Zemin and the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) initiated the persecution of Falun Gong. At the time I had only one thought,
"Follow Teacher closely, steadfastly cultivating Dafa," ("The Knowing Heart" from Essentials for Further Advancement II )
I said to myself, "I must steadfastly walk the path that I have chosen. No one can change my belief." The TV stations broadcast lies and falsehoods. I simply turned a deaf ear and blind eye and took the Fa as my master in everything I did.
Coming this far despite the persecution, I have gained a deeper understanding of why Teacher repeatedly urges practitioners to study the Fa. Without this solid foundation, achieved through diligent Fa study, I could not have walked this far. I seized the time to study the Fa as early as 1996. One day, a piece of paper flew through my window and landed on my hand. There were two characters on the paper, one was "study" and the other was "book." I enlightened that Teacher was giving me a hint that I should seize the time to study and memorize the Fa. After that, no matter how busy I was, I would study and memorize the Fa as well as copy Zhuan Falun for four hours daily. I memorized all the new articles, as well as Essentials for Further Advancement.
After 2000 I paid more attention to Fa study. When I was busy helping Master save sentient beings, I sometimes neglected Fa study, but then I would remind myself of the importance of Fa study. Therefore, I began to memorize the Fa. I enlightened to the following, "If I want to validate the Fa during the persecution I must memorize the Fa. Only if I memorize the Fa will I be able to keep up with the process of Fa rectification to save more sentient beings." I memorized the Hong Yin and Hong Yin II and all of Teacher's new articles. From the beginning of 2004 I repeatedly memorized Zhuan Falun. Although it was a slow process, it was very beneficial for my cultivation. Even though I could only remember one sentence at a time, each sentence melted into my heart a hundred percent.
One day in 2005, I was memorizing the following:
"Sakyamuni also spoke of the theory of three thousand worlds. He stated that, in our universe and our Milky Way, there are three thousand planets with living beings that have physical bodies like our human race. He also stated that there were three thousand such worlds in a grain of sand. A grain of sand is thus just like a universe, with people having wisdom like ours, planets, mountains, and rivers. It sounds quite inconceivable!" (Zhuan Falun)
I enlightened that the Earth is a universe and humans are small universes. The human body corresponds to external dimensions. Each one of us corresponds to a gigantic cosmic body and numerous sentient beings. How important it was. I truly understood what Teacher said:
"You need to know that clarifying the truth is extremely important for Dafa disciples. You aren't just doing personal cultivation--your own cultivation is saving the beings in the gigantic cosmic bodies that you represent. When you clarify the truth you are saving even more and even larger additional cosmic bodies and the beings in those cosmic bodies, because this is the responsibility Dafa and history have bestowed upon you." ("Touring North America to Teach the Fa")
In memorizing the Fa I truly enlightened to many Fa principles and the profoundness of the inner meaning of Dafa. I also had a better understanding of how to save sentient beings. Therefore, I truly became a particle in the Fa-rectification process and could do well in distributing the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and persuading people to do the three withdrawals (withdrawing from the CCP and/or its two youth organizations).
Sending Forth Righteous Thoughts
Studying the Fa, clarifying the truth, and sending forth righteous thoughts are the three things Teacher has asked practitioners to do well. From the beginning of 2001 when we started sending forth righteous thoughts, I have experienced many things and witnessed the power of righteous thoughts.
Before Teacher asked us to send forth righteous thoughts, I had already experienced the power of righteous thoughts. For example, since July 20, slogans slandering Falun Gong could be seen everywhere. I removed them and cleaned the environment whenever I saw them.
One day when I passed a neighborhood committee, I saw that the wall was covered with slogans that slandered Falun Dafa. I thought that I must clean it early the next morning. However, when I got there with cleaning materials, the slogans had already been removed. Another time I passed a display window with a lot of poisonous materials that slandered our Teacher. I quietly communicated with the display window, as I did not know yet about sending forth righteous thoughts. I asked it not to slander our Teacher and to call people to remove the slanderous materials. The following day, the entire display was removed.
After Teacher taught us about sending forth righteous thoughts, I followed closely his instructions. One day at 6 a.m. in June 2001 when I erected my palm, I saw many filthy monsters in different shapes lining up outside my balcony. They were carrying black banners and blowing whistles as well as shouting and yelling triumphantly, just like Teacher described,
"Remember back when you first started to send forth righteous thoughts? Those evil beings that were persecuting Dafa disciples came over immediately, lining up in formation and beating their drums." ("Touring North America to Teach the Fa")
I strengthened my righteous thoughts and repeated the formula silently. When I said the Chinese word mie (eliminate), the big ones who were triumphant a moment before ran away as quickly as possible. Then those nameless, filthy monsters all turned around and ran away, too.
In October 2001, I was arrested and illegally detained at a police station. The officers demanded to know the names of those who gave me fliers. I remained silent. They hired some thugs, and I was beaten until my body was covered with cuts and bruises. Suddenly I thought of sending forth righteous thoughts. I thought, "If you beat me again I wish that the plank you are using to beat me will bounce back and hit you instead." In less than three minutes the thug who beat me cried out, "Oh! Oh!" The plank had broken apart and hit his head. He held his head with both of his hands and yelled, "My head hurts!" He was taken to a hospital. Everyone at the police station was talking about it. Two wicked officers asked me, "Did you give off gong (energy potency)?" I just stared at them. They were so scared that they just turned around and ran off.
Later, I was taken to a brainwashing center. One day when sitting at the edge of the bed to send forth righteous thoughts, a blackish thing threw itself at me. I erected my palm and said the formula. Then I said, "I am a Dafa practitioner and my teacher is Mr. Li Hongzhi. Don't even think about torturing me. Get out of here! If you don't, you will die and I will turn you into water." The thing disappeared. One of the staff members at the brainwashing center saw me sitting there motionlessly and reciting something. He was very curious, "Are you giving off gong?"
A few days later, the most wicked prison guard came in and said, "We will send you to a mental hospital and make you wish you were dead." I turned around, looked into her eyes, and began to send forth righteous thoughts. The guard turned her head away from me to avoid eye contact. Teacher said,
"Dafa disciples are able to righteously look the evil people straight in the eyes, and the evil people immediately try to avoid eye contact. That's because the righteous thoughts scare off the evil beings that manipulate the evil people, since they know that if they flee just a bit too slowly they'll be instantly eliminated by Dafa disciples' righteous thoughts." ("Touring North America to Teach the Fa")
All of a sudden this guard acted as if she had mental problems. She shouted, "I am so scared of her. Help me! Help me!" The other guards did not know what had happened. That was the last I saw of this wicked guard. She told others, "This Falun Gong has gong!" After that, things changed. I could practice the exercises, do the sitting meditation, and send forth righteous thoughts.
In 2002, I was taken to a brainwashing center where the loudspeakers broadcast materials that slandered Falun Gong daily. I sent forth righteous thoughts. In less than 10 minutes, the broadcasting system malfunctioned and no one could fix it.
On October 24, 2006, Teacher's article, "Thoroughly Dissolve the Evil" was published. I enlightened to the understanding that, "We, Dafa practitioners, must not remain in detention centers, forced labor camps, or prisons that persecute practitioners. We need to send forth righteous thoughts at close range." The following day, I went to the provincial prison to send forth righteous thoughts at close range. Behind the wall, there were imprisoned practitioners. There was a lake beside the prison and I felt very strong negative qi coming toward me. I kept chanting the formula. In less than five minutes, a nameless bad entity tried to attack me from behind. I stood up and sent forth the righteous thoughts towards it and asked Teacher for help. After a plopping sound, the monster was pressed into the lake and there was a big swirl. It had been completely disintegrated.
I send forth righteous thoughts for three hours. Though I could not see, I felt that I had disintegrated a lot of dark minions. I saw many practitioners also sending forth righteous thoughts. Ever since, the evilness in this prison has been greatly restrained. The environment inside the prison also improved. The practitioners detained in the prison could read Dafa books and practice the exercises. The most vicious guards were transferred.
Saving Sentient Beings
After the persecution of Falun Gong started, I thought about how everyday people had been poisoned by the CCP's lies and slander, so I decided that I had to protect Dafa and restore Teacher's name. I wasn't sure what to do, so I went to Tiananmen Square to speak up for Falun Gong. After returning from Tiananmen Square I thought that I must let more people learn the truth about Falun Gong.
Since early 2000, I visited authorities at the police bureaus, the court system, and different government agencies to clarify the facts about Falun Gong. I said, "I and others have benefited from practicing Falun Gong. It doesn't do any harm. Our Teacher is innocent and what your hear on the television is lies, attempting to frame Falun Gong. Falun Gong is innocent."
When I was talking, some nodded, some kept silent, and one person tried to stop me, saying, "How dare you come here. Hurry and get out of here!" I said, "It doesn't matter what place this is. I must tell you that it will benefit you to hear the truth." I continued to talk, and more and more people listened. Some nodded in silence, but one stood up to take a photo and report me to the police. I said, "You are young and you look smart, so I hope you will become a righteous cadre that upholds justice. By doing so you will have blessings in the future! However, if you want to do bad things, such as reporting me to the police, you will receive retribution! You will also make your family suffer." He put the camera into his pocket. Most people knew that Falun Gong was being wrongfully persecuted and that practitioners were all good people.
In 2000, I enlightened that more people needed to read truth-clarification materials. I printed a lot of fliers and distributed them everywhere. I spent all the money I had saved to buy a house and established a truth clarification materials production site.
I teamed up with several practitioners and formed a small group. At around 5 a.m., the three of us carried bags of the materials to a fairly big residential area with a population of around ten thousand people. Around 7 a.m., we discovered that we were being tailed. We contacted each other and left safely. We could hear sirens. Helicopters were circling above the roofs of the residential buildings. We were successful, as all the materials had already been distributed.
In November 2000, I managed to walk out of the detention center with righteous thoughts. The officers from the police station, the National Security Division, and the 610 Office were chasing me. My neighbor suggested that I go to my relatives' and hide for a while. I thought, "I can't just leave and have fellow practitioners tell the facts about Falun Gong by themselves! There are still a lot of practitioners being tortured in prisons. Don't we want to attain selflessness and altruism? If I go into hiding to protect myself and seek comfort, I would lose the environment of our one body. How can I validate the Fa, clarify the truth, and save sentient beings? Wouldn't I fall into the trap set by the old forces?" I enlightened that leaving home and wandering about to avoid being arrested was an arrangement by the old forces. I decided to stay put and help Teacher rectify the environment nobly and righteously.
Saving Predestined People
I always put clarifying the truth, persuading people to withdraw from the CCP and its subordinate organizations, and saving sentient beings as the number one priority. For example, going to the supermarket or the bank, riding a bus, crossing a street, or bumping into friends and relatives were all good opportunities that I could not let pass by. One day at a supermarket, I saw a lot of people sitting outside and enjoying the cool weather. I smiled and began to clarify the facts. When I talked about the corruption of the CCP, they became very angry and said, "The CCP is doomed. It doesn't catch the corrupt officials, it just arrests Falun Gong practitioners. Everyone is cursing the CCP." I urged them to do the three withdrawals to stay safe and to repeat, "Falun Dafa is good" and Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good." I gave them truth-clarification materials and the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party DVDs. They all wanted a copy and announced that they wanted to withdraw from the CCP. One of them asked me to help him quit the CCP with his real name. He said he hated the wicked Party very much but had so far failed to find a place to quit. He said, "Now I've completely separated myself from the CCP! "
When on the bus I always offered my seat to those with disabilities. They were all very grateful. Everyone was predestined to meet me. One day when I was crossing a street, someone smiled at me. I thought this was a predestined person arranged by Teacher and seized the time to clarify the facts and ask him and do the three withdrawals, which he did. I walked with him for a little longer and continued to talk to him. He said he had two sons and daughters-in-law and grandchildren and asked me to do the three withdrawals for them. I explained that they must personally agree to withdraw from the CCP and its subordinate organizations before I could do so. At that time an officer was behind me. That person reminded me, "Please pay attention to safety!" He thanked me repeatedly.
In 2005, I went back to my hometown, which was a thousand kilometers away. I took truth-clarification materials and the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party with me. I talked to everyone in my hometown, including my relatives and friends, about the persecution of Falun Gong and about the Nine Commentaries and persuaded them to do the three withdrawals. At a farewell party, even some not so close friends quit the CCP and its subordinate organizations. One hundred and ninety people announced their withdrawal from the CCP, repositioned themselves, and were saved.
Using Paper Currency to Save People
In 2006 I began to use paper currency as a tool to clarify the truth, such as one-yuan or five-yuan bills. I made some stamps with the words "Falun Dafa is good" and "Quit the Party to stay safe" and printed them on the bills. When shopping I paid with those bills. One day when I bought some Chinese cabbage with that currency, I heard the man read in a very loud voice, "Falun Dafa is good!" I felt happy for him. Maybe this money would help him to reposition himself.
One day I gave two one-yuan bills to a peddler who was selling ginger. He took the money, looked at it, and said he did not want them. I took them back and said, "If you don't want them, I really don't want to give them to you. It's your blessing to receive money like this." Before I finished, he snatched the money from my hand and said with a smile, "I will take it." He carefully put the money in his pocket.
A bus conductor told me that when he went to the bank to get change, he saw that in one bundle there were a dozen or so with phrases such as "Falun Dafa is good" and "Hurry up and quit the CCP!" I told him that since the money was from the bank, he could use it without concern. It was doing a good thing since that currency carried the righteous energy of Dafa, which could eliminate evil. The more it circulates, the more of an effective role it plays. It will be easier to clarify the truth to people who have received such truth-clarification money. In this way we can save more sentient beings.
Widely Sharing Shen Yun Performing Arts DVDs
We must promote Shen Yun more widely in China, since people with some conscience will be moved by the performance. Beginning in 2008, I distributed a large quantity of Shun Yun DVDs. In 2009 when I gave out Shen Yun DVDs almost everyone wanted one. One day I went to a supermarket and carried a dozen or more Shen Yun DVDs with me. I first clarified the facts about Falun Gong and then asked them if they wanted a Shen Yun DVD. I said, "It is a world class show and you can't even buy them in China." Someone asked for three and another one asked why I didn't give him one. A dozen or more DVDs were snatched up in no time. In June, 2009 I went to a multi-story building to distribute Shen Yun DVDs. When I hung one on the door, someone came out and said, "Wow ... it's about dancing. Hurry up, let's play it now."
From the feedback, we learned that a lot of people saw that the Shen Yun performance was really world class and were stunned by the profoundness of ancient Chinese history and the gracefulness of the dances. Some said that watching the Shen Yun show made them feel very warm. For some, their understanding of Falun Gong totally changed. They said, "Falun Gong practitioners are really wonderful. They are real gods." They only need to watch the show and their thoughts will change. The result was really good. To spread Shen Yun far and wide is a most effective way to saving sentient beings.
3. Teacher Is Right by My Side
"But although you can't see me in person, as long as you practice cultivation, I'm actually right by your side. And as long as you practice cultivation, I can be responsible for you all the way to the end; what's more, I'm looking after you every single moment." ("Teaching the Fa in New York City" from Lectures in the United States)
At 5 o'clock one morning in 2001, several practitioners and I planned to go to a large residential area to offer salvation to sentient beings. I carried a bag of truth-clarification materials on my back and was on my way to meet them. Suddenly a plainclothes officer was following me. I was not scared at all and only thought that my fellow practitioners were waiting for me. I said, "Please don't stop me and make me late. I have something urgent to do. I am going to save people." The officer stared blankly into the air. After we distributed all the materials, I shared this with the other practitioners. They said, "You headed off danger thanks to Teacher's protection."
In October 2001, some officers took me to a police station for interrogation. I refused to cooperate with them. They were extremely angry, so they beat me until I was covered with cuts and bruises. They shouted, "My boss said, 'The death of a Falun Gong practitioner from beating is nothing and shall be counted as suicide!'" At that critical moment a mysterious man showed up and called the head of the police station and said, "You can't beat her anymore. If she dies, how are we going to account for it?" The head of the station came in and dismissed the thugs. He said to me, "You really have supernormal abilities. You even have someone from the police station speaking up for you." I said, "It's our Teacher who invited him here to stop you doing bad things and to prevent you from accumulating karma." The head of the station smiled, "Your Teacher is really very capable! OK, I will not interrogate you anymore."
In mid-July 2007, I carried the Nine Commentaries and some other materials to a luxury high-rise residential building. When I entered the building, the elevator went up, but it would not come down. Five to six minutes passed and I was still waiting for the elevator to come down. By that time a security guard showed up at the door and looked at me. There was one elevator, but its door was stuck. What should I do? I asked Teacher to help me open that elevator door. In less than 30 seconds the door opened automatically. After I delivered the Nine Commentaries, tears filled my eyes. I knew Teacher was by my side to protect me all the time.
A Brush with a Police Car
One day in June, 2005, I carried the Nine Commentaries to a residential area. After I had distributed all the booklets and came out of a building, a man chased me. He asked me who I was. I looked at him but did not say anything. When I arrived at the gate, a police car was there. I looked into the car and saw three or four officers. The car stopped and the officers said, "It's such a big place. Where can we find her?" I knew they were there to arrest me. I sent forth the righteous thoughts right away. After walking a short distance, the police car passed by me.
In January 2008 it was snowing. One day, at around 1 p.m. another practitioner and I arrived at a 30-two story high-rise residential building with DVDs of the Nine Commentaries. The surveillance in the high-rise building was very tight. We put on hats and used large scarves to cover our faces. It was as if the security guards did not see us. We took the elevator to the top floor and distributed the DVDs from the top down. After we finished, we went straight to the door. When we walked out of the building, a police car passed us. Two officers looked around but didn't seem to see us. Several officers rushed into the building. One officer said, "I will guard the door. Maybe they (referring to us) are still inside." We thanked Teacher for protecting us.
Breaking Through Surveillance
In 2007 the wicked CCP installed more then 10,000 surveillance cameras, called CCTVs, in our city. Some practitioners warned us to be more careful. At that time I had no idea that the CCTVs were electronic eyes, so I was not afraid. The high-rise buildings, luxury residences, police bureaus, the peoples courts, and army barracks, as well as universities, were all good place to distribute the Nine Commentaries, clarify the truth, and persuade people to do the three withdrawals.
In February 2009, a fellow practitioner said that there were six high-rise buildings on a university campus far from where we were and that the residents were all professors or senior lecturers. The practitioner mentioned that the surveillance was very tight there. Since it was a spot that we had never covered, I thought that we had to go there. A return trip would take about three to four hours, so I got up very early in the morning. At 5 a.m., before I left home, I sent forth righteous thoughts. I took a big bag of Nine Commentaries and other truth-clarification DVDs with me.
On entering the residential area I found electronic eyes everywhere. I thought of what Teacher said,
"As long as you are something, you were created by the Fa, and
you're in this living environment created by the Fa." ("Explaining
the Fa During the 2003 Lantern Festival
at the U.S. West Fa Conference")
I began to clarify the truth to the electronic eyes and hoped that they would cooperate.
There were three electronic doors in this residential area. The security guards were standing there and the electronic eyes were directed at me, but it was as if I was invisible. In less than a minute, someone opened the door and I walked in. The elevator was waiting for me. I started with the top floor, walking down to distribute the material floor by floor. After I finished and stood at the doorway, an elderly lady asked me, "Do you want to get out?" I nodded. She used the key to open the door and walked with me for some distance. She asked me why I was there, and I told her that I went there to save them. She said "You must be a Falun Gong practitioner then?" I said yes. The lady told me that there were many surveillance cameras and offered to walk me to the exit of the residential area. I said, "I am OK. These surveillance cameras can't see me, since they only watch the bad guys."
I began to clarify the truth to her and asked her if she had done the three withdrawals. She said she was a veteran Party member. Since she saw through the wicked Party, she gave me her real name and asked me to help her quit the CCP. We talked for about 20 minutes. She said, "You are all good people." Just at that time her daughter-in-law came and when we talked about the three withdrawals, she also agreed to withdraw.
I enlightened that since I did not think of the surveillance devices but only concentrated on saving people, my mind was very pure. As a result, Teacher and the guardian gods could help me. I wasn't only safe but also had the opportunity to clarify the truth and help people withdraw from the CCP.
Gods Amongst Humans
One weekend in January 2009, I carried a lot of Nine Commentaries and informational materials while on my way to a luxury residential area at an institution of higher learning some dozens of kilometers away. The residents were still sound asleep. Even the gatekeeper and the security guards were asleep. However, someone was on duty in the elevator. What could I do? I begged Teacher to help me.
Just at that moment, I was startled by a white-haired old man, about 90 years old, beside me. He did not say a word, but looked at me with a smile. He seemed to ask me to follow him and not worry. I followed him, and it was as if we were walking on clouds. I felt very comfortable. We went through the gate. However, there was still a locked door before the lift. The guards might go to warm themselves at a fire. The old man took out a bunch of keys from his pocket and opened the gate. He asked me to get in first. I thought to myself, "Why doesn't he get in? I thought he was from the building." When I was one step inside the gate and had turned around, the old man had disappeared.
At the time I did not think much about it and only thought how I was going to save the sentient beings and that the elevator was waiting for me. I went straight up to the top floor and distributed the materials from the top to the bottom. When I finished and stood in front of the gate, I dared not open it since there was an alarm device. Just then, the white-haired old man showed up with a smile and opened the gate from the outside. I asked him, "Grandpa, how come you waited for me here? Thank you very much!" When I looked up, the old man had disappeared again. On returning home I was on my knees in front of Teacher's portrait and pressed my hands together in front of my chest. My eyes were filled with tears.
The Best Moment
In 2001, I went to a 24-story residential building with a lot of truth-clarification materials. I distributed them from the top down. When I got to the 22nd floor, over a hundred materials had been distributed. Someone smiled at me while picking up the material. I knew the sentient beings were waiting for us. Since the elevator was full, I slowly walked toward the stairs. I sent forth righteous thoughts while going down the stairs. I thought that I would not allow the evildoers to sabotage my mission and wanted all predestined people to get the materials. On the16th floor I levitated and was floating in the sky. Luckily there was no one around. At time I was a bit excited and also a bit scared. I told myself that this had to stop, and I was on the ground.
In May 2004, when I was ready to distribute materials in a luxury residential building, I thought that there were a lot of sentient beings waiting for us to save them. I stood aside and send forth the righteous thoughts so I could reach the elevator unseen. All of a sudden a storm blew up with thunder and lightening. The doorkeeper and the security guards disappeared and the elevator was waiting for me.
After I finished and left the building, it was still raining. On my way home I needed to go across an overpass. When I was about halfway I felt that my entire body was like a ball of fire and my head was swelling. There was no one on the overpass. My body elevated about one meter above the ground. I felt that it was so wonderful--it was beautiful beyond description. Though it only lasted for a few seconds I was really amazed.
Ever since then I have felt as if I am in the clouds whenever I walk, and my entire body is like a ball of fire. It is as if I could elevate at any moment. The reaction was very strong. I knew in another dimension it must be earthshaking. That was Teacher encouraging me to do the three things well. When our xinxing reaches the level, Teacher gives us whatever we need at that level. The Fa is boundless and the mighty divine powers will really be displayed in the dimension of our body.
1. Suppressing the Evil
In 2002, I learned that a head of the 610 Office had done a lot of bad things. In order to stop him from doing bad things and save him, I collected different truth-clarification materials, put them into an envelope, and put it in his mailbox. He told his good friends, "These Falun Gong practitioners are really very bold. They even delivered the truth-clarification materials to my home." He also said that he did not feel very well and was feeling pain throughout his body. He decided to see a doctor the next day to determine if these pains were related to his work in persecuting Falun Gong. He read the truth-clarification materials and understood the truth. Though he would not admit openly that it was karmic retribution, he understood it. As a result, he stopped persecuting Falun Gong. In 2003 when the wicked CCP's political and judicial commission realized that he could no longer be used to carry out the persecution, he was transferred out of the brainwashing center.
Our local provincial women's prison persecuted practitioners inhumanly. One guard was promoted all the way to deputy commissar of the prison in just a few years because of her cruelty. Beginning in 2006 I sent her truth-clarification materials and a kind letter daily. However, she did not change. In February 2009, the local practitioners began a coordinated effort. We put together materials as well as pictures of her to expose the crimes she had committed during all these years. Then we mailed them to her family members, more than 80 heads of offices of the prison, members of the police bureau and police stations, staff at the court system, as well as the leading members of various enterprises. It caused a great sensation in our city. Her mother asked, "Is my daughter really that bad?" The prison guards said, "These Falun Gong practitioners are really amazing, distributing the photo of our deputy commissioner all over the city."
In the past we had only sent her the materials, so she thought that other people would not know about the crimes she had committed. This large-scale exposure made her to do a 180-degree turn, and she became very mild.
Falun Gong Transformed Us Instead
In 2002 I was taken illegally to a brainwashing center. I saw officers hold fellow practitioners down on a bed and give them unknown drugs. The center assigned three evildoers to monitor me. They tried to pressure me to write the guarantee statement. I thought of a paragraph written by Teacher,
"Those who do the so-called 'reform' work, too, are people who have been deceived. Why not turn the tables and expose the evil and clarify the truth to them?" ("A Suggestion" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
From then onwards I clarified the truth to them daily, telling them my personal experiences. I also told them that Falun Dafa had been spread to over 80 countries and regions, having received over 1,000 awards. I told them that the Tiananmen Square Self-immolation was staged in an attempt to frame Falun Gong. I talked to them about accomplished scientists and philosophers such as Newton and Einstein, who all accepted religion. I told them Falun Gong was also a science. They all nodded and smiled, saying "This Falun Gong practitioner is very good at talking." So, they all surrounded me daily and listened to my truth-clarification and never ever brought up the guarantee statement again.
An elderly high school teacher and a young primary school teacher were ordered to stay with me at all times to help the brainwashing center to "transform" me. One day when the young teacher went home and told her family what she had heard, her mother said, "You should not persecute a person like her. Falun Gong practitioners are all good people." Her husband was a military instructor of an artillery unit and he nodded in agreement. In the evening she told me about it. I said, "Thank your whole family for your support of Falun Gong. You will certainly have a bright future."
The high school teacher knew the truth of the persecution even better. Her husband was the head of the Criminal Police Division. She told her husband not to persecute Falun Gong anymore, and she tried to protect practitioners whenever she could. One day when an officer was torturing a practitioner, other practitioners shouted, "Someone is being beaten!" She rushed in and said, "You're going too far. They only do the exercises to keep fit. It's a belief and they are all good people. Don't persecute them anymore. If you do, you will receive retribution." Several days later a group of former practitioners who had enlightened along an evil path (collaborators) went to the brainwashing center to help persecute practitioners. However, the officers left quietly. Two officers said, "I will not do any bad things like that. An officer from my station suddenly died after arresting a practitioner. That is karmic retribution." Not long after, the collaborators all left on learning the situation there. Ever since then, the environment has changed.
That high school teacher also passed Teacher's new articles to other practitioners. Every evening when I was doing the exercises, she would watch out for me. She also asked me to give her a copy of Zhuan Falun and Teacher's new articles. She became a practitioner herself. After returning to school she studied the Fa, practiced the exercises, clarified the truth, and distributed truth-clarification materials. When the leaders at the 610 Office heard about that, they were really shocked. They were very angry as well. One of them shouted, "What really happened? Falun Gong practitioners have transformed our own people instead!"
Everyone Is Cursing the World's Big Monster
In 2003, I walked throughout the city to distribute truth-clarification materials. I put them in doorways, on benches, and in bicycle baskets. People only knew that these materials were distributed by practitioners. They were very curious and all read them. No one threw them away.
After I handed out all the materials, I returned to that street and saw that it was crowded with people. I squeezed in to find out what was happening. I saw that someone was reading the flier aloud. The title of the flier was "The Global Trial of Jiang Zemin." People down there were very happy and shouted with excitement, "Look, the world is going to put Jiang Zemin on trial. Jiang can't escape punishment this time!" People were talking, "Jiang's only job is to persecute Falun Gong, not take care of state affairs. We are also suffering as a result of the persecution. Corruption is rampant. The money Jiang embezzled was all transferred overseas. People were angry but dared not say anything. Only practitioners dare to expose him." It attracted more and more people. Another person shouted, "Good news, good news, come and listen to the good news! Jiang is doomed!"
There were a lot of similar stories. I often found people cursing Jiang Zemin, "How many people have died in the world? Why he is still alive?" Others answered, "Don't worry, Falun Gong wants to put him on trial. The worst [for him] is yet to come."
Withdrawing from the CCP During a Banquet
In the spring of 2007, I went to a large hospital to clarify the facts and persuade people to withdraw from the CCP and its subordinate organizations. A patient who was a paraplegic repeatedly said, "Falun Dafa is good" after listening to me. He asked me to help him quit the CCP. Two months later he miraculously could walk with the help of crutches! His family was very grateful to Dafa and prepared a banquet to celebrate. They invited all their relatives and friends to witness the miracle Falun Gong had brought them.
The patient was very excited and handed out copies of the Nine Commentaries to everyone present at the banquet. He asked them to read it when they got home and told them it was a wonderful book that they could not buy with money. He hoped everyone would cherish it. He said, "I can't just enjoy the benefit by myself. I want everyone to benefit just like me." Then he took out a pen and paper and passed them to every table. He encouraged people to do the three withdrawals, saying, "Shall I help your table to do the three withdrawals. If you nod, I will help you to quit the evil Party with an alias so that you can stay safe. I will not charge you a penny, but you do get insurance that can't be bought with money." People at one of the tables said with a smile, "Help us to do the three withdrawals with our real names." Another man squeezed in and shouted, "Don't forget me! Put my name down, too." People at another table said, "Three more from our table want to quit the CCP." Altogether more than 40 people quit the Party at the banquet.
Among the people present at the banquet was a procurator-general. After returning home from the banquet, he could not calm down. He read the Nine Commentaries a few times. The reading as well as the beauty and the miracles of Falun Dafa made him change his stance. He said, "I must leave myself a way open to escape!" A few days later he went to see the patient again. "After reading the Nine Commentaries I came to see things more clearly. As for the miracle that happened to you, I only heard other people talk about it in the past, but then I saw it with my own eyes. Hurry up and help me quit the CCP." This man searched for Falun Gong, and when he found a practitioner, he obtained a copy of Zhuan Falun. He became a practitioner.
A well-known painter read the Nine Commentaries from beginning to end a few times after returning home from the banquet. He was overawed by the logical analysis, the cruel realities, and the ideological debate. He thought, "I should not only care about myself. I must help more people quit the wicked Party. I have a lot of friends, especially veteran painters. They have a deeper understanding of the evilness of the Party."
He asked these painters to come to a meeting and gave them the Nine Commentaries. He talked about his feelings after reading the Nine Commentaries. He said, "It is very well written and has torn the CCP to shreds. Every sentence is the truth and it's worth reading a hundred times." He went to a table and asked, "Have you all withdrawn?" Everyone said, "We have withdrawn already." One veteran painter said, "Frankly speaking, I saw through this wicked Party a long time ago and made a clean break with it." Another veteran painter said, "This Party has lost its popularity, so I think it will collapse very soon!" He went to another table, "What about you? Have you all withdrawn?" Several people at that table said they heard about the Nine Commentaries only that day, "Why didn't you tell us earlier? Please help us quit!" Then the well-known painter said, "Among us there are some veteran Party members. Please read the Nine Commentaries! Then you will know the bad things that have been done by the wicked Party. We must not belong to this Party any longer. Please withdraw from it." One of the veteran Party members stood up and said in a loud voice, "We read the Nine Commentaries when it was first published, so we quit a long time ago." At the gathering more than 30 people did the three withdrawals. Later some of them also came to practice Falun Gong.
2. Self-examination and Looking Inward
On the road of my cultivation during the past 15 years, I knew that studying the Fa was very important. However, I put almost all of my energy into clarifying the truth and persuading people to do the three withdrawals and spreading the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party.. As a result I didn't have time to study the Fa. After renewed Fa study and when I had a calm mind to think, I felt very much ashamed. All these years, because of my human notions, I caused a lot of losses that should not have happened.
For example, sometimes my thoughts were not righteous. Since 2000, the police officers, in collaboration with the 610 Office, hunted for and eventually arrested me. I hated them very much. I knew I was lacking compassion. I knew I must calm down to study the Fa and do Dafa work with a pure heart.
I had the attachment of complacency and the mentality of accomplishing a task. During my cultivation in the Fa-rectification period, I put all my energy as well as material and financial resources toward saving people. However, many bad thoughts emerged during the process, which I failed to notice at the time. In clarifying the truth I would often mix in a number of my remaining attachments. I was constantly telling people about Falun Dafa and went to places where no other practitioners dared go. I was able to get in and out of the places under tight security surveillance. Some fellow practitioners said, "You are doing very well!" Whenever I heard that I felt immediately proud of myself and forgot Teacher's exhortation,
"It is not a job, but cultivation practice." ("It is not a Job, but Cultivation Practice" from Essentials for Further Advancement)
When we have more human attachments, our enlightenment quality will get worse. Teacher said,
"It's not that Master is not merciful: in the several years of your cultivation, I have not only borne an incredibly great deal for you, but also, along with this, constantly given you hints for your improvement, looked after you for your safety, and settled the debts that you owed at different levels so that you can reach Consummation. " ("Drive Out Interference" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
When I studied this article again, I bitterly regretted my poor enlightenment quality. I was arrested several times, and Teacher used many ways to give me hints, but I failed to enlighten to them. Fellow practitioners reminded me, "Do not go to extremes, pay attention to safety, study the Fa a lot, and don't do more truth-clarification work than you can do safely." However, I did not listen to them. When I was arrested for the third time, Teacher gave me a hint, but I still failed to enlighten to the truth. Only when I recited the Fa in prison cells and looked inward did I wake up. I had deep regret, because not only was I persecuted, but also I lost a lot of opportunities to save sentient beings.
During Fa-rectification cultivation, we must be enlightened, and enlightenment comes from Fa study. We can only gain the Fa by studying the Fa and only when we gain the Fa can we let go of attachments and have righteous thoughts. Only then will our enlightenment quality improve. Teacher has mentioned "studying the Fa" in almost every one of his lectures. By summarizing my experiences and lessons, I have had a deeper understanding on the inner meaning of studying the Fa.
Cherishing the Fa
Fifteen years of cultivation has been rocky, but during that time, especially during the ten years of inhuman persecution, I have been immersed in Teacher's infinite grace. I was arrested several times, but with Teacher's arrangements I was able to change danger into safety. There was bitterness, happiness, and wonderfulness. All these are beyond words. The fact that I have been able to make it through this bloody persecution is all because of Teacher's protection and the power of the Fa.
During the most cruel persecution, I always warned myself to steadfastly believe in Teacher and Dafa. I always had to see everything through the eyes of the Fa. Teacher, please rest assured, I will never bring shame to what I have enlightened to or leave any regret for myself. I will cherish this opportunity of cultivation during the Fa-rectification period. I will do whatever Teacher says and follow Teacher closely in the process of Fa-rectification
I feel fortunate to be a Falun Dafa practitioner at this special historical period of Fa-rectification. I want to write down all the testimonies of this splendid history. The path each practitioner is taking does not come easy, so we must cherish it and walk the last leg of the journey well and return home with Teacher.