I Am Here to Save the Lives of Others
Greetings, Revered Master!
Greetings, Practitioners around the world!
The Sixth Internet Experience Sharing Conference for Practitioners in China has started calling for papers. I thank Master for this opportunity for us disciples to improve as a whole. The paper I submitted to the last Internet conference was not published, and I was able to find deficiencies in what I wrote. I am quite excited as I write down my thoughts. Dafa has given me so much over my ten years of cultivation, and I have contributed so little. I treasure this opportunity to send in this special and sacred assignment.
My new life starts with obtaining the Fa
I am a nurse. In 1997, I suffered from viral myocarditis. I took a large amount of medicine and went through acupuncture treatment. Neither was of much use. Finally, my family received a notice of terminal illness based on my condition. The news so shocked and discouraged a physician who had treated me that he collapsed on the floor. The president of our hospital assigned the top cardiologist to my room for a final attempt to save my life. I could vaguely hear cries. I kept calling out the name of my 2-year-old daughter. My husband kept calling my name at my bedside. I really wanted to stay alive. Only then did I know how precious life is. Miraculously, I survived despite the extreme exhaustion of my heart.
I remained bedridden in the hospital. My family took my medical records and cardiovascular diagrams to well-known hospitals in Beijing and Shanghai, but they were given no positive feedback. I was in despair and thought about death several times. After staying in the hospital for three more months, I returned home the day before Chinese New Year. The noise of fireworks pushed me to the verge of death again. None of the expensive medicine had any effect. My young mother-in-law knelt on the ground and kept praying to heaven. Miraculously, I survived again. After the new year, my family started praying to Buddhas and gods. They also looked to fortunetellers and feng shui masters for help. One fortuneteller looked at me and smiled, "You are here to save the lives of other people. You can't die." He left after saying that. I was puzzled by what he could have meant. Was that because I was a nurse? Only after I started practicing Falun Dafa did I realize that, as a Dafa practitioner, I am here to save the lives of others. I was not able to realize this because of having been immersed in evil Party culture for 30 years. I was submerged too deeply in the dye vat of humanity.
In the spring of 1998, my cousin, who is younger than I am, came to visit me. She introduced me to Falun Gong, but I declined, because I did not quite believe her. She did not give up. The next time, she brought me a copy of Zhuan Falun. I started reading the book without pinning too much hope on it. However, as I went on reading, it was like a ray of light piercing through the dark night. Without knowing it, I was sitting in the half-lotus position. The burden, which felt like hundreds of pounds on my body, was lifted. The comfort and lightness of my body was indescribable. Each word and each sentence in Zhuan Falun kept pouring into my mind. Master cleansed my body. Gradually, I was able to walk outside. Later, I went to join group Fa-study with fellow practitioners. Not only did the viral myocarditis disappear, but years of cholecystitis and neurosis were cured without treatment. My health was restored. My happiness returned. It was Master and Dafa that saved me. Smiles showed up on the faces of my loved ones. Relatives, colleagues, and friends were all amazed at the miracle. Many of them started practicing Falun Dafa. I cannot quite express my gratitude to Master in human words. Let me simply send my greetings to our benevolent, great Master in the gesture of Heshi.
Taking advantage of the work environment to solidly save people
As a practitioner in the Fa-rectification period, I am fully aware of my immeasurable honor and the responsibility that comes with that honor. To fully deserve this title of Fa-rectification period disciple, I have to study the Fa well and not miss the opportunity to help anyone who has a predestined relationship with me. Each Dafa practitioner has his or her own domain. Aren't all family, friends, and colleagues who are close to me arranged by Master for me to help save them? My life was saved by Dafa. I am to use my life experience to validate the Fa and save sentient beings. After the thought of saving other people's lives took shape in my mind, within a short period of time, all my colleagues in the section where I worked all realized the truth and quit the Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. Some even became Dafa practitioners. Through my work, I also exemplified what a practitioner stands for. The relations among colleagues also significantly improved. Just as Master said in Zhuan Falun:
"The Buddha-light illuminates everywhere and rectifies all abnormalities."
Some colleagues commented, "We have Dafa practitioners in our section; all of us are blessed and will be safe."
As a nurse I spend a lot of time with patients. I have taken advantage of every opportunity to save them. I have tried to reach out to each and every patient in my jurisdiction. I understand that they too are people with predestined relationships because Master has arranged for them to be by my side. The miracle that happened to me has not only enabled me to live as a witness to Fa-rectification, it has also provided the living miracle of validating the Fa. How can I not make the best use of each minute?
One patient I encountered suffered from severe uremic poisoning, and dialysis was costing his family a lot of money. When his condition continued to deteriorate, I brought up the topic of Falun Gong. He simply listened and did not say a word, but I saw tears in his eyes. Later his wife told me that he was too ashamed to practice, because he detoured from his cultivation path after the persecution started. I spent time after work to exchange thoughts with him. I told him that Master is waiting for each and every one of us to come back home, and how much Master endures for us disciples. Tears streamed down his face. He held up Zhuan Falun just like a child who had found his way home. Calm returned to him. Just a few days later, he checked out of the hospital. After returning home, he and his wife, who had never practiced cultivation, both became practitioners. When practitioners and I went to visit him, he radiated with energy. There was no need for dialysis anymore. His relatives and friends saw the change in him. They listened to him and quit the Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. Now he studies the Fa every day and carries out concretely the Three Things Master has asked us to do.
Over the past few years, with Master's strengthening, I have quietly engaged in saving sentient beings. Many patients with leukemia and cancer regained their health. I have lost count of how many patients with terminal illness have embraced life again. From Dafa they acquired health and blessings and have become aware of the truth. Now they, in turn, are helping spread the truth and save more people around them. I have also grown and matured in the boundless Fa.
Transcend by learning the Fa principles, and let go of arrogance and other human attachments
Before cultivation, I had a very high regard for myself and paid too much attention to saving face. I was anxious to compare myself with others and to get to know people in power or with money. I turned into someone who cared too much about petty things and had too much consideration for myself. I thought this was the strong woman I wanted to be and was exhausted in my pursuits by the end of each day. After cultivating in Dafa, I learned to look within myself, to find out if anything was wrong with me when something happened. Gradually I started removing bad things within me and my realm expanded. Master said in Zhuan Falun:
"For example, if a bottle filled with dirty things is sealed tightly and thrown into water, it will sink all the way to the bottom. You pour out some of its dirty contents. The more you empty the bottle, the higher it will float in the water. If it is emptied entirely, it will float on the surface completely. In the course of our cultivation practice, you must clean out various bad things in your body so that you can move up. This characteristic of the universe exactly plays this role."
Arrogance, selfishness, and other attachments were being removed. I felt my whole body turning transparent and clear. My mind also became clear. I have been able to care for people around me, and my family is full of harmony. Colleagues communicate well and are on good terms with me.
In 2009, I was transferred to a new section. I did not forget my responsibility as a Dafa practitioner. I had to help save my new colleagues. At first they did not want to be near me. Some told me that the relationships in our section were quite complicated and I had better not to talk too much. I did not acknowledge these non-righteous elements. In my work, I followed the standard of Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance to establish my image as a Dafa practitioner. Within a short period of time, I mastered the operation of all the instruments. My colleagues were quite amazed. Even the director of our section complimented me. He said I was a great person regardless of where I was.
I understand this is the wisdom and opportunity Dafa has given to me. I quickened my pace in saving the people in our section. Soon, everyone in our section had quit the Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. There were difficulties and challenges in saving people. When I brought up Falun Gong to a physician, he immediately asked me to get out of his office. He did not hide his anger and even cursed. I was not able to take it. Tears rolled down my cheeks. My old attachments of arrogance and worrying about losing face immediately returned. I said to myself, "Who cares about you. You're on your own. You'll just have to wait for elimination." Negative thoughts kept coming up. Soon I calmed myself down. I knew these thoughts were not mine, so I started clearing them up. With the presence of Master and the Fa, I walked into his office again. I chatted with him patiently. In the end he realized the truth. He said, "Older Sister, you are really good-tempered. You were not mad at me despite my rudeness. I heard that you were really domineering in the past. Falun Gong has to be really good to have changed you to be that much more kind and polite. To be honest with you, I have noticed that since your joining our section, vitality has tagged along with you. We are comfortable seeing you here every day. Not simply because of your beauty; it's something special that you carry." I told him that Dafa indeed has changed me. It has given me life. It has turned me into someone who is willing to give in exchange for nothing.
The above are a small sample of my experiences. I still have plenty of shortcomings. My gratitude to Master's immense blessings that come with the Fa rectification cannot be described in words. All I can do is to use the precious time that is remaining to strive forward diligently and solidly carry out the Three Things in assisting Master's Fa rectification and salvation of sentient beings.
Thanks again, Master, for your kind protection.
November 12, 2009