Rectifying My Heart and Mind
Rectifying my heart and mind through the process of producing truth-clarification materials
Last February, with the assistance of fellow practitioners, I set up a family-based material production site. Running the operation with a pure mind within a healthy cultivation environment at home, things went well. This past September, however, the printer began to have ink problems. Because I did not search within to improve my xinxing, after I replaced the part, the problem still persisted. In addition to that, I started having problems accessing the Minghui website. Facing these setbacks, I forgot to measure myself with the standards of a cultivator. I became irritable and impatient. The problem lasted for a week and it prevented me from producing truth-clarification materials. As a result, my effort in helping fellow practitioners save sentient beings were at a standstill.
As time went by, my initial worries faded. A bad thought surfaced in my mind. I thought that it was normal to be having these difficulties, given the tighter-than-ever Internet control by the government during the "national holiday" celebration. Therefore, I relaxed and didn't search inward for the xinxing problem. I didn't realize that my thoughts had inadvertently followed the old forces' arrangements until a fellow practitioner agreed with me by repeatedly saying, "The problem must be the Internet blockade." What we are doing is the greatest and most righteous thing in the universe. How can it be interfered with by the old forces? After finding this loophole, I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil interference and asked Master to strengthen me. That night I was able to access the Minghui website and successfully downloaded truth-clarification materials. The results proved that Master will help us as long as we rectify our minds and thoughts.
Rectifying my heart and mind after a car accident
Often times I heard or read about practitioners successfully going through physical tribulations via cultivation or reciting "Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good." Since I didn't experience it personally, I couldn't comprehend how it feels. Recently, I was involved in a car accident. The incident not only gave me an opportunity to improve my xinxing, but also allowed me to experience Master's immense compassion as well.
One morning late last August, I was hit by a car while riding my bike to work. My arms and legs started bleeding. The scene was exactly like what was described in Zhuan Falun--witnesses gathered around, trying to get a just outcome for me. They insisted on the driver taking me to the local hospital for an exam. With a righteous mind, I firmly told them that I was fine. Master said, "Good or evil comes from that instant thought." (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun) I dismissed the driver and peacefully went to work. Seeing my injuries, my family and coworkers urged me to see a doctor. On the way to the hospital, I kept my mind focused. I am a cultivator and nothing should affect me. After reviewing the test results, the doctor found it hard to believe that I could still move about like a normal person, given the severity of my injuries. I declined to follow his suggestion to get anti-inflammatory shots as a preventative measure.
After returning home, my arms and legs became so swollen that it was hard to bend them. My family insisted on me taking medicine. Once again, I told them that I am a cultivator and that nothing would affect me. However, my situation remained unchanged the next day. With uncertainty, I asked myself: Is it possible that the injuries will be healed with no medicine in such a short time? As a result, my unrighteous thoughts led to excruciating pain from the injuries, which got even more swollen. I was restless the entire night.
"Mom, you should be glad that Master has reduced the amount of your tribulations as such. Is it the right mentality to see what was left as being unbearable?" My child's words awakened me. I always thought that I wholeheartedly believed in Master and the Fa. Somehow I forgot to measure myself by the standards of a cultivator and follow the principles of the Fa. It seemed that I still had some fundamental attachments to get rid of, and that my belief in Master and Dafa must be strengthened. I decided to rectify my attitude and resume studying the Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts and doing the exercises as usual. The pain was still excruciating, but I persisted. Then a miracle happened. The pain in my legs was gone and I was able to walk and sleep again. By the next morning, the swelling disappeared. In less than a week, I was completely healed. Through this experience, I gained a better understanding of the importance of rectifying my thoughts, as well as the might of Dafa.
Lastly, I'd like to tell everyone that only by believing in Master and Dafa, doing the three things well, and truly cultivating our hearts, can we be deserving of Master's compassionate salvation. This is the only way we can be worthy of Master's compassion and live up to Master's teachings.