(Clearwisdom.net) I always had the feeling that I was not diligent enough and had many attachments. What happened today shook me up quite a bit. At my plant, I saw that several workers were ready to get off duty about half an hour earlier than closing time. I was not happy about that and thought I should find them more work, so I assigned them more to do to keep them busy until the last minute. Just after closing time, a customer came up to me. I said, "We're already closed. There is no one to load your truck. You have to wait until tomorrow." The customer said, "I have only one car. It won't take too long, maybe just half an hour. Please let your workers help me."
I thought about how calculating I had been and now how could I ask them for help? Just then, these workers came out laughing and talking and said, "Sister, let us help him. How many pieces do we need to load?" I was so ashamed when I heard that. I am a practitioner, but my mindset was worse than that of a non-practitioner.
I could not sleep that night. I looked inwards. In this dimension, the customer was late and that was his fault. However, it provided me a chance to improve my xinxing. At this level, I am a woman of considerable business acumen. From a cultivation perspective, a huge attachment of selfishness was exposed. Teacher said in "Principle for Disciples Who Are Monks and Nuns" in Essentials For Further Advancement:
"As for disciples practicing cultivation at home, they will gradually, thoroughly abandon attachments to the secular world. But for disciples who are monks or nuns, this is a prerequisite that they must meet from the very beginning, as well as a requirement for becoming a monk or nun."
I was calculating, which exactly revealed my attachment to loss and gain. This is my fundamental attachment.
I was preoccupied with my personal gains and losses, but have I ever been concerned for my cultivation? Ordinary people's work takes 80 percent of my time. If I put more effort into my cultivation, I would make great strides. When I think about everyday people's things so much, I'm just an everyday person. I said to myself, "I am a practitioner. I need to get rid of everyday people's thoughts. How can I sink to an everyday persons level. From now on, I will give up human concepts for sure."
This dimension was created by Teacher to rectify the Fa and for Dafa disciples to cultivate. Our cultivation and Fa rectification are of the utmost importance. How can I forget about that? Before, I didn't conform to the Fa's standards until the matter was all over. Even now, I still hold fast to my attachments. I felt deeply ashamed facing Teacher and the Fa.
I truly hope that those practitioners who have the same thoughts as I did will rise above being human and use our righteous thoughts to cultivate every day, every minute, and every second. How many righteous thoughts could we send in one minute? How many evils can we eliminate in one second? We must seize every minute and second. Let's move forward diligently!
