On the Path of Returning Home
(Clearwisdom.net) Greetings Teacher! Greetings fellow practitioners!
I was fortunate to come across Falun Gong in July 1996 and began my path of returning home with Teacher's guidance. Although the path has been full of tribulations and hardships, it has not affected my determination.
Before July 20, 1999, I repeatedly read Falun Dafa books in which Teacher predicted what would happen in the future. When the persecution began, the Secretary and Director of my work unit asked me to turn in one or two Dafa books. They told me that they would return them to me after the so-called "sensitive period" had passed. Muddle-headed, I turned in two books. At that time I only felt sad, but did not realize that I was treating Dafa with human notions.
In 2005, I came across the book Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. I read it several times and the many years of Party culture that was forced upon me was shattered. My mind was free. The next day, I withdrew from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) at work and on the website using my nickname.
One of my colleagues strongly dislikes the CCP because his family had been persecuted by the communist regime at one time. When I asked him to withdraw from the CCP, he surprisingly spoke up for it. However, when he was clear-minded, he would say how bad the CCP was. Another practitioner and I clarified the truth to him several times. We also sent forth righteous thought to eliminate the evil factors behind him. One time, when we went to the bank, I told him, "I have asked you to withdraw from the CCP several times. Why? It is because your life will be spared when disaster happens. If you have to choose between your life and fame, what would you choose?" He replied, "Of course I will choose my life." I then told him, "Yes, if you lost your life, where is your fame, interest and fear? There are so many natural disasters. Who knows when it will occur. If you withdraw from the CCP, your life will not be controlled by it. Our Teacher will protect you." He said, "I always wear the charm you give me. But I don't believe in God or Buddha." I said, "China's five thousand years of civilization and culture is bestowed by Heaven. People have believed in the existence of God and Buddha for thousands of years. They believe that good will be rewarded and evil will meet with retribution. It's been recorded that Buddha came to earth to save people. Buddha truly exists. Not believing in God or Buddha is the CCP's belief. Its purpose is to control and manipulate people's mind so that people will become a tool for them to use. The communist party reached its goal after fifty years of effort - people have become their puppets and have lost their own way of thinking. It is Heaven's principle that good will be rewarded and evil will meet with retribution. In the past fifty years, how many bad deeds has the CCP committed? The CCP is slated to be eliminated by Heaven. Therefore, won't those who blindly follow it also be eliminated? In addition, it is so vicious. If you are a member of the CCP, then haven't you also committed wrongdoings? If you can live until the day when Gods and Buddhas manifest in the human world, you will see everything that you don't believe in. If you could see Heaven and Gods with your own eyes, you would also start to cultivate. But you have to be given the chance to stay until that day comes. You should withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations." He said without hesitation, "Ok, I will withdraw!"
In the path of clarifying the truth and validating the Fa, I have encountered several dangerous situations. During those times, Teacher has protected me. As long as we have no fear, we can achieve anything with strong righteous thoughts.
In the past, when I studied the Fa, I thought that some of the phenomena that Teacher talked about had nothing to do with me. Instead, I felt Teacher was talking about other practitioners. However, as I studied the Fa more and constantly improved my xinxing, I learned how to look inside and realized that Teacher was talking about me. It's important that we do not to take any postnatal notions as part of ourselves and even find reasons from the Fa for them to exist. Our prenatal nature is pure. Cultivation is to eliminate the postnatal notions and return to our original nature. How can we eliminate the postnatal notions? The only way is to study the Fa. "Therefore it is said cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while transforming gong is done by one's master." (Zhuan Falun) As cultivators, we need to recognize the notions that don't conform to Dafa and eliminate them. Once we do that, our notions won't exist because Teacher will have already taken them away.
For example, every once in a while I felt depressed and didn't want to talk to others. I knew that this was not the state of a practitioner and that I needed to cultivate more tolerance. After a while, this state disappeared. Sometimes my husband would complain that the house was messy. In the beginning, I didn't mind when he complained, but when he said it many times, I could not help arguing with him. I would tell him, "Does this house belong to me only? You only stay on the sofa and the bed every day. What are you doing to keep it clean? How come you blame it on me?" My husband laughed, "Your practice would be in vain even if you practiced for one thousand years." I immediately awakened. Yes, nothing that happens to practitioners is random; they are for improving our xinxing.
As practitioners, we can choose to live the life of everyday people and go through birth, aging, sickness and death until we are completely destroyed, or to completely immerse ourself in the path of returning to our original true nature. How can we improve rapidly and avoid interference? Teacher has told us the precious way--to "study the Fa, study the Fa." As practitioners, if all we see, hear and think about are issues of everyday people, then we are just ordinary people. In order to avoid unnecessary interference, I avoid watching TV or reading everyday books. When I am not busy, I will read experience sharing articles on the Miinghui/Clearwisdom website. At noon, I send righteous thoughts and practice the exercises with fellow practitioners. Since we have begun doing morning exercises together in China, I study the Fa at noontime. When I am doing housework, I listen to Dafa music, practitioners' songs or the Divine Performing Arts performances. At night, I study the Fa or hand copy Dafa books. Every day I am immersed in the harmonious environment of Dafa and I can feel that every cell of my body is jumping joyfully, even when I lay in bed.
Our environment is created by ourselves. When we keep Dafa in our mind all the time, we are disintegrating the postnatal notions and cleansing our field. Thus we are upgrading constantly. Under such circumstances, how can things from everyday society sneak in? They would be disintegrated instantly.