Upgrading Xinxing and Validating the Fa
(Clearwisdom.net) I started to practice Falun Dafa in 1996. I would like to take this opportunity to report to Teacher and share with fellow practitioners some of my experiences and understandings during my cultivation for the Fifth Mainland China Falun Dafa Practitioners Cultivation Experience Sharing Conference on the Internet.
1. Teacher Took Care of Me Even Before I Started the Practice
When I was 18 years old, I naively followed the Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) order to "fight with nature" and seek personal fame, yet these actions resulted in gynecological disease, severe anemia, thrombocytopenia (deficiency of blood platelets), bradycardia (slow heartbeat), and an autonomic nerve disorder. Later, an injury left me with a herniated disc in my lumbar region. I was very weak and passed out four times. I was "famous" at my work place because of my terrible health. When I was 40, I felt that I would not live to see my 50th birthday. But if I was gone, I wondered, what would become of my husband and our young child who was not even 10? I was very sad.
After passing out one more time on a business trip, a friend introduced a type of qigong to me. When I tried to read the qigong book, I surprisingly could not process anything of what I was reading. And as soon as I listened to the music for the exercises, I became extremely scared. So I put it aside and did not practice. Then a relative with whom I had minimal contact called me out of nowhere to come to his home. He told me how good Falun Dafa is and he gave me a copy of the book Zhuan Falun. When I opened the book and saw Teacher's picture, my eyes suddenly brightened: I was familiar with this face! He must be my family member! I guess that's what we call "predestined relationship." When I read the book, every word penetrated my heart. I found the answers to all the questions in my life. I used to have a hard time getting out of bed, but now I could get up at 3 a.m. and practice the exercises, based on what I had learned from the illustrations. My husband was really surprised. Just like Teacher said:
"They will become energetic afterwards, and will not feel sleepy even if they go two days without sleep." (Zhuan Falun)
To my surprise, a few days later a practice site was built near my home. I thought that it must have been heaven's arrangement. Actually, it was Teacher's mercy towards me--I might not have continued to practice without this local site.
In the early period of my practice, I saw and felt everything Teacher told us about. One evening I was resting on the bed with my eyes half closed, and I saw many white seeds falling onto my body. On an overcast evening, we were doing group exercises in a park. When we were doing "Penetrating the Two Cosmic Extremes," I saw that my arms were two golden bands doing the upward and downward movements. When opening the great heavenly circuit, I experienced my head nodding, waving, and lifting, exactly as Teacher described in Zhuan Falun.
Three months before I started the practice, I was hit by a van when I was crossing the road. My handbag flew far away and the items inside went everywhere. People around were all shocked. But I only felt like someone pushed my back gently and I fell down slowly next to the van. The driver took me to the hospital, where I was examined. I was totally fine. Now I understood that Teacher was already protecting me at that time.
2. When I Firmly Believe in the Fa, Nothing Can Stop My Cultivation
My fellow practitioners and I treasured our cultivation environment very much. We did group Fa study and group exercises, even if it was the unbearable heat of summer or the frigid cold of winter. When I experienced palpitations, shortness of breath, and found it hard to continue doing the wheel-embracing movement, I saw Teacher was above me and watching me. Teacher's words appeared in my mind: "I am rooted in the universe. If anyone can harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe." (Zhuan Falun) Sometimes, I felt a pair of hands gently holding my hands above my head. It made my arms so strong and the wheel-embracing movement became very relaxing. On a rainy morning, I walked on a road full of wet, tall grass. At first I wondered if I should continue: if I went on, my clothes would be wet but if I changed my route, I would be late for the group practice. At that time my whole mind was thinking I should not be late. I continued on and my pants got totally soaked when I arrived at the practice site, but I arrived on time. I was cold but I was very happy. A miracle occurred when we finished the first set. I felt a heater was heating my legs; my soaked pants dried instantly and I felt very warm. On cold winter days, sometimes my hands hurt when doing the wheel-embracing movement. Then, when overlapping my hands at my lower abdomen, I felt warm air heating my hands. Once during a serious karma elimination, I almost could not bear it. I felt lifeless and fell asleep after the first set of exercises. I saw Teacher in my dream. Teacher hinted to me that I suffered through several life cycles for today, and I came to this life for practicing Falun Dafa. I cried when I thought of Teacher's mercy.
Teacher has cleansed my body again and again. I could not imagine how much effort Teacher spent on me. Several months later, I was totally changed, not only my mind but my physical body as well. All my illnesses were gone. I became open and happy, and I treated others well. My changes showed my colleagues and boss how wonderful Dafa is. I brought them the Dafa book so they too could learn of the beauty of this practice.
When the persecution started in July 1999, many people advised me to stop the practice. I quietly looked at Zhuan Falun and asked myself: "What kind of person is Teacher Li? Is Falun Dafa good?" My conclusion was: First, there is nothing wrong with Teacher telling me to be a good person. Second, Dafa brought me good health, which is good for my family and country. So we continued to practice Falun Dafa. At one point our practice site became unavailable, so we went to another one. We stayed at that site until the army came and we could not do group exercises there anymore. At that moment, my heart was so heavy, but on the way home I heard Dafa music coming from the sky. It was so beautiful, solemn and sacred. I felt Teacher was telling me: Dafa is forever!
When I was asked to express my opinion on Dafa at my workplace, I said: "I think Falun Dafa tells people to be good. My changes have been seen by everyone. If you want to punish me for practicing Falun Gong, then go ahead." Afterwards, I continued to study the Fa and do the exercises, and at the same time "clarified the truth" to colleagues and supervisors as much as I could. My workplace did not make trouble for me, instead, I was promoted to a higher position.
In 2003, I went to another job since the old work unit at my company had dissolved. I composed myself according to the standard of a Dafa practitioner and always treated people with compassion. Many conflicts went away and I gained the trust of supervisors and colleagues. The boss promoted me to the highest position below him. I did my job well and his business also benefited. Since people trusted me, it made it easier for me to clarify the truth. Everyone in the company knew Falun Dafa is good and they even told each other that reciting "Falun Dafa is good" can help during an illness. Some of them learned Falun Dafa and did very well with truth clarification.
Above is my sharing. I will continue to raise my xinxing, follow Teacher, and reach enlightenment and completion in cultivation.
December 6, 2008