Look Within and Treat Physical Interference and Persecution with Righteous Thoughts
(Clearwisdom.net) A few days ago I attended the wedding of a fellow practitioner's child. I kind of greedily ate too much meat, causing me much grief later on. I threw up and had loose bowels the next morning when I arose to practice the exercises.
At the very beginning I thought it was evil interference to my practice, so I continued practicing. After a while, frequent vomiting and diarrhea made it difficult to persist. I went to the bathroom several times until six o'clock, one of the times we send forth righteous thoughts in unison around the world. I tried to sit up to send forth righteous thoughts and constantly eliminate all the evil lives and elements that persecuted my body. I made a plea to Teacher for strength, telling myself to believe in Dafa, believe in Teacher and give up the attachment to life and death. In the meanwhile, I looked within to discover that my own greed had been taken advantage of.
I am a doctor. I had the occasional thought that it was acute gastritis but I kept on sending forth righteous thoughts, refusing to regard what was happening to me as illness.
My husband asked, "Can you go to work while you are feeling this way?" I said, "No problem." I refused to accept that it was illness and said to the beings interfering with me, "Don't attempt to persecute me. I will not cooperate with you." I was very busy at work, but I didn't feel fatigue, hunger, or thirst after working all morning. At noon I had lunch as usual. I had no vomiting or diarrhea. I believe that Teacher endured the pain for me.
I started to again have frequent diarrhea after dinner. It was raining heavily but I went to a fellow practitioner's home because I did not want to delay Fa study. I was fine while studying Fa. After I returned home, I started having diarrhea again as soon as I entered the bathroom. I could not even leave the bathroom.
I tried to go back to my room. I dirtied several pairs of trousers. Finally I ran out of underwear. I thought: "You such a small evil being yet you want to persecute me to death? You can never do that! Teacher is here, Fa is here. You are nothing. I ask Teacher for help. I am not afraid of death. You cannot harm me." Teacher said, "Just by having your heart unaffected you will be able to handle all situations." ("Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I recited Lunyu repeatedly. I recited whichever poems in Hong Yin I could think of. I sent forth righteous thoughts and looked within myself while washing the dirty trousers. After several hours sleep, I got up in the morning to practice as usual. I didn't feel tired. After breakfast, I went to work as usual. I generally feel thirsty and drink at least 1.5 liters of water during a normal day. However, that day I drank only half a liter of water but I didn't feel thirsty, hungry or fatigued. I didn't have diarrhea, either.
Through this process of the competition between the righteous and the evil, I felt that as long as we believe in Master and Dafa, we need not be afraid of any tribulation. Tribulations are all false phenomena. "When disciples have ample righteous thoughts, Master has the power to turn back the tide." ("The Master-Disciple Bond" from Hong Yin II, translation version A)
My level is limited. Please correct me with your compassion.