(Clearwisdom.net) I have been practicing Falun Gong for more than ten years, and I would like to thank Teacher for His compassion and share my cultivation experiences during the Fa-rectification period.
I used to have a firm belief in my own ability, and I was good at whatever I did. From childhood to adulthood, I was immersed in a chorus of praise. My family however, has been persecuted by the Chinese Communist Party for generations. I always thought I was born at the wrong time and had talent but no opportunity to use it. As a result, I became rather introverted, and was incredibly jealous and vain. I also had a strong attachment to showing off.
After beginning Falun Dafa cultivation practice, my faith in Dafa was firm. Nevertheless, I hadn't eliminated my fundamental attachments so I couldn't look inside from the standpoint of the Fa when encountering any matter, and I habitually viewed things with the standard of everyday people. Due to my attachments of jealousy and competitiveness, I brooded on others' errors and believed that all my mistakes resulted from others' faults. I hadn't studied the Fa seriously for a long time and forgot to look within based on the Fa. I became a fish out of water, but wasn't enlightening to it. I tried to cover my attachments by doing Dafa things. Unfortunately, the evil took advantage of my loophole. Our truth-clarification material production center was destroyed, and this created great losses. Although I finally escaped with Teacher's compassion and safeguarding, I was actually validating myself.
After that, I began studying the Fa more and looking inward. By reading the articles on the Clearwisdom website and sharing with fellow practitioners, I realized that my starting point of looking inward was selfish. I didn't do things according to the standard of the Fa and forgot to think from the point of the whole entity. Accordingly, I was unable to escape the old forces' arrangements. With attachments to fear and validating myself, I complained to other people when encountering any matter and was held back by not being part of the whole body. The lesson was painful and dangerous.
During the time left in Fa-rectification, I will study the Fa more and study it well. I will look inward based on the standpoint of the Fa, eliminate attachments, cooperate with the whole body of practitioners, and eliminate the divisions caused by the old forces. I will do the three things well to validate the Fa.
The above is purely my personal understanding. Please point out anything inappropriate.
