(Clearwisdom.net) Recently, I experienced interference while preparing materials to clarify the truth about the persecution in China. I think the gaps in my xinxing are one of the reasons, but it is also because the evil forces are struggling on their last legs as the truth of the persecution is exposed. During this period I constantly looked for ways to improve my xinxing and found a number of human notions that I didn't realize existed. They are more clear to me now, based on the Fa principles. However, I found that the inference continued. Although sending forth righteous thoughts did effectively disintegrate the evil and eliminate the interference, as soon as I stopped sending forth righteous thought and started working on truth-clarification materials, the interference would come again. For instance, the power would go out while I was making copies.
Thus, I was trapped in a state of frustration and anxiety. I was very worried and wondered why I could not get out of this state. I also frequently asked Master to give me hints.
Several days ago, words from Master's article, "Expounding on the Fa," suddenly appeared in my mind,
"If it continues endlessly and if there do not exist other problems in your xinxing or conduct, it must be that the evil demons are capitalizing on the weak spots caused by your lack of control. After all, a cultivator is not an ordinary human. So why doesn't the side of you that is your original nature rectify the Fa?"
These words really got my full attention and I began to study the article right away.
Through studying "Expounding on the Fa" again and again, I was able to gain a deeper understanding of the Fa principles. I realized that I have always been in a passive state prior to tribulations, as if I don't have any divine capabilities and could only react to the evil. This notion is exactly the state of a human being. Can a great divine being be manipulated by the evil and yet feel helpless? Would a divine being feel he is impotent? Would a divine being be afraid of the evil? Would a divine being passively bear the tribulation and passively look for or depend on others' help? I do not think so. Only humans would get confused, feel helpless, and not know what to do; this is because humans are very weak and at the same time cannot see the truth. On the other hand, a great divine being always has a strong righteous mind, and with his boundless wisdom, he will be able to see through any tricks of the evil forces and thus completely disintegrate them. Divine beings will never hesitate. Divine beings' minds are firm and steady.
As soon as I realized this, I suddenly felt that the answers to many questions became clear. Thinking back on July 20, 1999 (when the persecution officially began), wasn't it because our righteous thoughts were not strong enough, and we hesitated and did not know what to do when facing the unexpected persecution, that the persecution could occur? Today there are still many practitioners who are in prison and are not able to get out; is it partly because of the existence of these passive factors? Can these passive factors and lack of confidence be considered a state of "righteousness?"
If these conditions are not right, but we are still quietly bearing them, aren't we acknowledging these wrong conditions in a different form? If we acknowledged these wrong conditions, how can we say that we are righteous?
Master said, "A Buddha is a defender of the universe." ("Teaching the Fa at the International Experience-Sharing Conference in Beijing") Looking at ourselves, aren't we trying to cultivate to Buddhahood? Then aren't we supposed to maintain and protect the truth of the universe and other positive factors? Are any of the tricks used by the evil, as well as the so-called "taking advantage of the gaps," positive things? Are so-called "tribulations or tests" by the evil acknowledged by Dafa? If not, can we tacitly approve them under any condition?
I feel that now I have a new understanding on "what is righteousness" as well as how to walk a righteous path. At the same time, I also have deeper thoughts and a better understanding of my mission.
I have written this article with the hope that it will encourage fellow practitioners who have been under tribulation for a long period of time. I hope that we can all share with each other, improve together, eliminate the interference by the evil, and hurry in saving sentient beings. These are just my personal understandings, and if there is anything not in accordance with the Fa, please kindly point them out.
Master also said in " Expounding on the Fa",
"As a matter of fact, this results from an inadequate understanding of the Fa by your human side. You have humanly restrained your divine side; in other words, you have restrained the parts that have been successfully cultivated and have prevented them from doing Fa-rectification."
I understood that all these are due to the lack of Fa-study and the lack of improvement in xinxing and understanding of Fa-principles. Thus, I am determined to study the Fa more. I would also like to remind fellow practitioners to place more importance on Fa-study.
