A Cultivation Path Full of Miracles and Tribulations
(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Gong in late September 1996. Prior to that, I suffered from numerous illnesses and had to be hospitalized regularly. It easily added up to over a year of my life. My heart problem was especially serious. I suffered from the most agonizing pain and it was constant. It was like millions of tiny needles were piercing my heart at every second. There was this constant sense of intense coldness coming from the very core of my heart. Sometimes the pain would be so intense that I didn't dare to breath. Very often, I felt like I was going to suffocate. It felt like I could die at any second. If I stood up, I felt dizzy. With all these illnesses I had, you could say I was near my deathbed. I also suffered from high blood pressure, inflammation of the trachea and nose, and had neck and lumbar vertebra problems. When my migraines flared up, the pain would be so excruciating that I would have to hold my head up against the wall. On top of everything else, I also had menstrual problems. When that happened, I would be confined to bed for the whole day and would have to struggle for survival. Because of my ill health, I incurred a lot of medical expenses, in fact more than just about anyone else in the company where I worked and hence I wasn't popular with the management committee of the company.
In one of my moments of despair, I was fortunate enough to come across a copy of Zhuan Falun. The first words that I saw when I opened the book was "cultivation practice.. I was shocked. "Wow! Cultivation indeed exists in this world! I must practice cultivation!" The moment this thought came into being, tears filled my eyes. I saw lots of circular images rotating around me. Straight away, I could move about with ease and my body felt very light. I was so excited and eager that the very same night, I went to a practice site with a practitioner. When I saw the assistant of the practice site, I just knelt down in front of him and said tearfully, "I want to learn the exercises. I beg you to show me how to do the exercises." The assistant hastily helped me up to my feet and said "Sure, sure, I will show you, I mean it." During the meditation, I endured a great deal of pain as the sitting was in full lotus position. It was nearly 30 minutes later when I finished and I was covered in sweat, but my body felt totally relaxed and comfortable. During the meditation, I could feel my heart relaxing and the feeling of suffocation disappearing. My breathing was also so much smoother. That kind of relief for me was beyond comprehension. At the Fa study group when I saw Teacher's portrait for the first time, I had this feeling that I had seen it somewhere before. Teacher looked really familiar and I felt really close to him. I just cried out to the portrait, "Teacher, you have finally came to save me. I have been waiting for you for a long time!" I knew I had finally found Teacher and Dafa. It had been a long wait, reincarnations after reincarnations.
In my cultivation, I have experienced many miracles, some of them quite hard to describe. But there was this one time when I was doing the morning shift at work. At lunchtime, I had gone across the road to a restaurant to buy noodles. The restaurant was big and it was busy. I had brought my own container for the noodles so that I could take them back to work. When it was ready I realized that they had forgotten the lid, so I had asked the waitress for it. Just then, the manager of the restaurant arrived and, looking very upset, she just grabbed the lid from the counter top and threw it towards me. She was at least two to three meters away and, as the lid hit the container, the layer of red pepper oil floating on top of the noodles and some of the vegetables splashed all over me. My uniform that was spotless before was instantly stained. By then, everyone was staring at me, including the manager. She started to look ill at ease. Just as I was about to get upset, I suddenly remembered what Teacher had said about there being nothing accidental in the conflicts that practitioners run into:
"there may be two scenarios when dealing with specific conflicts or when others treat you badly. One is that you might have treated this person badly in your previous life." "There is another issue. In conflicts, the issue of transforming karma is involved. Therefore, in dealing with specific conflicts we should be forgiving instead of acting like ordinary people." (Zhuan Falun)
I just smiled, took the container, and left. After going down the stairs, I suddenly felt like I was floating. However, when I looked down at my feet, they looked like they were taking steps but there was no sensation. I thought to myself, "Wow, I am walking above the ground and floating! How wonderful!" "One's gong level is as high as one's xinxing level." I then realized that if my xinxing improved, my physical body would experience a big change as well. From then on, whenever there is a conflict, I have known that I must maintain my xinxing level. Once, when I was doing the meditation, as I entered the state of tranquility, I could truly feel what Teacher said, "you should feel wonderful and very comfortable as though you are sitting inside an egg shell;" and "leaving only one's own mind, a little thought that one is practicing here." (Zhuan Falun)
After I started practicing Falun Gong, my life changed completely. My complexion became fair and rosy. I became very healthy. At work, I became very diligent and I accepted any task that my manager assigned to me. I also stopped causing trouble. This is because I was adhering to the requirements of Dafa to be a good and better person. When the management committee and my colleagues saw how I had changed, they were all very impressed. Many of them approached me to get a hold of Dafa books and to learn the exercises. The management committee even asked, "Can we hold a Falun Gong class in our company hall? Then we can invite all the employees to attend." I was a relatively new practitioner then, so I didn't even think of holding the "nine-day lecture" class as well. I just advised them to come to practice sites that were closest to their homes. To this day, I still regret my actions.
A few days after I began the practice, my celestial eye opened. A few months later, I acquired the abilities of clairvoyance and "precognition and retro-cognition." When I was doing the meditation and when I opened my eyes, I could see lotus flowers with shiny golden petals. I also saw little Arhats, all with rosy complexions and ranging from six to eight years old. My most memorable moment was when I saw our most benevolent and wonderful Teacher in person at the Singapore Lecture Conference in August 1998. I feel most fortunate.
On July 20, 1999, out of jealousy, the head of the Chinese Communist Party initiated the persecution of Falun Gong. On July 22, I went with a few fellow practitioners to appeal to the government in Beijing. Thousands of us that went there that day to peacefully appeal for Falun Gong were arrested and taken to the Beijing Fengtai Stadium. We weren't allowed to eat or drink nor use the washroom. The female practitioner who was leading the recitation of Lunyu got beaten by the armed military police officers and police officers that surrounded her. We had to shout, "No beating!" before they would stop. They then arrested and escorted away those practitioners they suspected to be the leaders. The rest of us were taken back by our individual provincial liaison offices. There, they continued to persecute us.
I was detained by the police and interrogated at the municipal 610 Office. They defamed Teacher and Dafa by saying, "What's in your book are all lies. Where can you find celestial eyes and clairvoyance? Where can you find supernormal abilities?" I said, "I can prove that what's in the book is true." So I told them that the moment I started practicing Falun Gong, all the chronic illnesses that I was suffering from completely disappeared. All this while there hadn't been any doctor, medical professional, or scientist that could help me. Then I told them that I had experienced all those supernatural abilities already. The experiences were exactly as what was mentioned in the book. They were quite taken aback by what I said. So I asked them, "Do you know why there are so many people practicing Falun Gong? It is because each and every one of us has benefited a great deal from the practice and experienced the miracles of the Fa. As people hear of our wondrous stories, they all want to practice as well. Falun Dafa is spread by word of mouth. If one does not even dare to mention one's personal experience and speak up for Dafa, then one does not deserve to be a human being." Later when a 610 Office staff person saw me and there was nobody around, he whispered to me, "Can you tell me any other miraculous things that happened to you when you started practicing Falun Gong?" I said to him, "Heavenly secrets cannot be disclosed at will. You have confiscated so many books from practitioners, you can go and check it out for yourself."
In June 2000, I went with fellow practitioners to unfurl truth-clarification banners at Tiananmen Square. There was a group of about a dozen foreign tourist taking pictures around the place. Another practitioner and I held up the banner that read "Falun Dafa Is Good." Immediately, practitioners from nearly ten different areas also started to unfurl their banners. Then all of a sudden, there were police vehicles everywhere and officers were running around seizing practitioners. A military police officer ran at me and tried to grab my banner. At the top of my voice, I shouted "Falun Dafa is good!" It was from somewhere deep inside me, the origin of my life. The practitioner who was holding the banner with me also followed and shouted "Falun Dafa is good!" At that moment, I could feel my whole being expanding, as if it was pumped with air. While I felt very grand, the Communist Party flag on the Square seemed to get smaller and smaller, until it was like a matchstick. The feeling was one of sacredness and wonder as tears came to my eyes. We were arrested and detained at the Beijing Tong County Detention Center in Tongzhou City. During the four days of detention we clarified the truth to every inmate we could get in touch with. We told them how wonderful, sacred, and miraculous Falun Dafa is. They all understood the truth and promised to learn Dafa once they got released.
From Beijing Tiananmen Police Station to Tongzhou Police Station and then to my local police station, I was searched five times. But each time, no police officer could find my copy of Zhuan Falun that was in my backpack. When I got arrested in Tiananmen Square, I had asked Teacher to safeguard my book. It was truly amazing that it never got found..
In early 2001, I started to produce truth-clarification materials. Because of my show-off mentality and zealotry, I was taken advantage of by the old forces and arrested by the 610 Office. At the detention center, I was cruelly persecuted. On the surface, it looked like my fellow practitioners had given up on me. However, a few months later, a practitioner who had just been arrested taught me how to send forth righteous thoughts. As soon as I erected my palm, I saw layers upon layers of evil beings, all lined up and beating their drums as they rushed towards me. I was shocked by what I saw. It was only much later that I realized what was happening after I had studied Teacher's lectures. Inside the detention center, there was no concept of time. I just kept sending forth righteous thought. A few days later, my right thumb got all swollen and painful. I couldn't even erect my palm. However, I persevered as I figured it must be due to the evil beings' interference. "Teacher has asked us to send forth righteous thoughts and that is what I need to do, as I only listen to my Teacher." After some time, my thumb went back to normal. The authorities had sentenced me to two years forced labor, but I just kept sending forth righteous thoughts to negate this arrangement. I told myself that I would never acknowledge any persecution imposed by the old forces. Ultimately, the forced labor camp refused to accept me and I was returned to the detention center. Later, under Teacher's protection and with my righteous thoughts, I managed to escape from the detention center.
After that, I went through a a period where I was very fearful. I was petrified just by the sound of footsteps, police vehicles, and people's voices from outside. I then decided to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the fear. After I had cleansed my own dimensional field, I would erect my palm to eliminate this attachment of fear. My fear had prevented me from doing the three things well, as required by Teacher. There was this one time when I saw a dark, ghost-like face. The face was covered in blisters protruding in every angle. It was horrible looking and hideous. But I knew it was my fear being materialized. The moment it realized that I could see it, it immediately turned itself into a beautiful heavenly beauty and laughed eerily. However I wasn't moved at all, and just kept reciting "mie" (eliminate). It turned around and tried to escape but it disappeared into thin air like soap bubbles, as I continually recited "mie." After that incident, I was no longer fearful.
Another time when I was sending righteous thoughts to eliminate the head of the evil in Beijing, after I had finished reciting the formula, an image in the shape of a small island appeared in front of me. The image was covered in ice. I could feel my energy enveloping it. At that time, I had no idea what it was about. A few days later, I learned that Jiang had been visiting Iceland at that time. What I enlightened to was that no matter where the evils are, they can't escape from practitioners' righteous thoughts. As long as we send forth righteous thoughts according to Teacher's requirements, our righteous thoughts will be able to find them and eliminate them.
One time when I was out with my son-in-law, the road was full of plainclothes police officers. There was hardly anybody else around and they kept to the sides of the road. My son-in-law said a motorcade must be coming, so we stopped by the side of the road and waited. When the motorcade arrived, we noticed that there were quite a few cars and the windows of the car in the middle were all covered up. At that moment, I just knew to send forth righteous thoughts. I thought, "If the people inside the car are the evil ones who undermine Dafa and persecute practitioners, let them receive their due retribution. The Fa will rectify the cosmos." Immediately, I could feel strong energy from my righteous thoughts shooting towards the car with the covered up windows. At the same time, I could feel that my hair was standing up on end because of my strong energy field. Even the ends of my hair were pointing out towards that car. After the motorcade had passed, I told my son-in-law, "There was something bad sitting in that car. They were the evil people that persecute practitioners." My son-in-law, who is not a practitioner, didn't believe me and asked how I knew. I replied that I had felt it when I was sending forth righteous thoughts. He just shook his head and walked away. That afternoon, we discovered that the Jiang had indeed been in that car. Then my son-in-law was convinced.
One of my relatives is the secretary of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) in the Power Bureau of another city. One day when he and his wife were passing near my city, they decided to visit me. I had them read the "Nine Commentaries of the Chinese Communist Party." While he was reading, I sent forth righteous thoughts beside him to eliminate every CCP evil specter and element. After a short while, he said, "This is very well written. Can I borrow it?" "Of course," I said. Then I had him read the "Declaration" from the Epoch Times as I wanted to convince him to withdraw from the CCP. Straight away, he excitedly said, "Yes, yes, everyone in our family, we all want to quit. I have seen enough of this evil Party." I gave them all pseudonyms and did the "three withdrawals" for them. When he left he said, "It looks like I came for the sole purpose of quitting the Party." I just laughed and said, "You have established for yourself a bright future."
I've been practicing Falun Dafa for 12 years. The reason why I have been able to overcome hardships and difficulties and get to where I am today is all due to our great and benevolent Teacher's protection. Only by keeping up with the Fa-rectification, doing the three things well, and looking inward at all times can I be worthy of being called a Fa-rectification Period Disciple.
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