(Clearwisdom.net) In the ten years of my cultivation practice, I have been through numerous tribulations. My family members were opposed to me practicing Falun Dafa, so there were always misunderstandings and conflicts. I have had to endure insults being hurled at Dafa. There was always interference whenever I went out to save sentient beings.
Because I choose to believe that "Falun Dafa is good" and "Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good," I have had to suffer constant insults and abuses at home. These tribulations started when the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) decided to persecute Falun Dafa on July 20, 1999. And when I found out that my husband had been unfaithful to me, I got really upset--so much so, that I couldn't concentrate when I was studying the Fa, nor could I achieve tranquility when I was practicing the exercises. Then I recalled Teacher telling us to always look within whenever we encounter any tribulations. I realized that the fundamental problem was within myself. I hadn't been a diligent cultivator and I had too many attachments. I lacked righteous thoughts and was not capable of validating the Fa well. I harbored strong attachments, such as the competitive mentality, being fearful, resentful, revengeful and so on. All my tribulations were caused by my own low xinxing level. I hadn't assimilated to Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. Without compassion, not only could I not save sentient beings, I could possibly make them go the opposite way.
Recently, I have been cultivating my each and every thought according to the Fa principles and doing everything possible to validate the Fa. I have been abiding by Teacher's requirements, studying the Fa well and looking within. Since then, I have been more considerate and tolerant towards my family members. Now I only look at the merit and goodness of others. I no longer gossip about other people's shortcomings behind their backs. My personality has completely changed. I used to treat people with disdain and ignore them. I was prone to anger. I was judgmental and sometimes had unrighteous thoughts such as "nobody could possibly save them and the only thing waiting for them is their karmic retribution." I also realized that in order to raise my xinxing level, I must be humble, give up all attachments, be compassionate and tolerant of others.
Only Dafa can change people's bad thoughts and enable people to be kind and considerate. Teacher said,
"Compassion can harmonize Heaven and Earth, ushering in spring. Righteous thoughts can save the people in this world." ("The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos", Hong Yin II).
I am now more determined than ever to conduct myself well and carry out my actions with righteous thoughts, according to the principles of Dafa.
Since I realized my own shortcomings and decided to change, I have been able to communicate in a more cordial and sincere manner. I now treat everybody with compassion and I am truly considerate of others. As a result, the people I come into contact with have changed for the better as well. Notably my husband, who now talks to me in a gentle and kind manner, is the complete opposite of what he used to be. He is like a whole new person. He even remarked that Falun Dafa practitioners are great people and that they are kind and tolerant. As a result his health has improved as well. He doesn't interfere with my truth-clarification activities and supports me in his own way, helping to save sentient beings.
I have personally experienced the immense power of the Fa by abiding to the Fa principles in my every thought and validating the Fa in my every word and action. I will willingly and compassionately do whatever a Dafa practitioner is meant to do. I will always abide by Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I will do my best to maintain righteous thoughts and carry out righteous actions. Then I will surely follow Teacher back home. Everything in my life has been arranged by Teacher.
Category: Improving Oneself
