(Clearwisdom.net) While the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) continuously persecuted Falun Dafa practitioners under the pretense of "safeguarding the Olympics," I was still able to be firm, believe in Master and Dafa, and never stop doing the three things. However, subconsciously, I had the thought that it would be dangerous if I went out to clarify the truth to people face to face. I thought it was interference from the attachment of fear and from rotten substances, etc. But in actuality, it was the selfishness of waiting and expecting. I was not able to be as diligent as before and did not keep up with the process of Fa-Rectification. I thought that we could gradually clarify the truth and help people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations, and that safety was more important. In this state of not moving forward, Master helped me enlighten through a dream. In the dream, I went out to take a bus. After I got on the bus, I waited for a long time but the driver did not show up. I was very worried. After waking up, I enlightened that this was because I had an attachment to going back home, waiting for and expecting Master to rectify the Fa as soon as possible. I felt that I had done the things that I was supposed to do, and saved the people that are supposed to be saved. And for those people that could not be saved, they had made their own choices. I had a thought of giving up doing the three things. This surprised me a lot. This attachment is so selfish and complacent. I feel deeply sorry to Master. Could I return home with Master if I kept doing things like this? Could I reach consummation?
When I started to look inside myself, thinking of my shortcomings and the distance between myself and the level of Master's requirements, I realized that cultivation is very serious and I have to be more strict with myself. I should not passively endure the persecution. I should fully constrain and eliminate the persecution by the evil forces. When our righteous thoughts truly dominate, the magnificence of Dafa will be shown. We can do anything if only we truly believe in Master and Dafa. No matter when and where we are, we should let the pure energy of Dafa manifest in ourselves. We have to eliminate those bad thoughts and selfishness and not leave any gaps for them. They should not exist in us. Only if we can step out of humanness can we become divine beings. The only thing that we can do is to cultivate our hearts well, get rid of the pursuit of fame, personal interest and sentiment, assimilate to Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance, judge everything based on Dafa, and move forward doing the three things well so we don't disappoint Master and His merciful salvation.
September 22, 2008
