(Clearwisdom.net)
1. Contacting Fellow Practitioners
I began cultivation in September 1998, and in 1999 I followed my daughter and moved to a new location. This also was the time that the persecution began. Although I was very sad, I didn't doubt Dafa and Master. I kept studying and practicing at home.
In the spring of 2003, my younger sister, who lived in another country, called me. She asked me whether I still practiced Dafa. I told her, "I do." But she said that I could not be counted as a true practitioner until I stepped forward to clarify the truth. A week later I received a package containing three CDs from my sister's overseas friend. I watched the "Tiananmen Self-immolation Incident" video and Master's lectures. I couldn't help but cry. While fellow practitioners were clarifying the truth to people, I had remained at home for several years and not done anything for Dafa and Master. I felt very bad. I decided to go back to my hometown and look for fellow practitioners.
After contacting fellow practitioners, I got some of Master's recent articles and a few truth-clarifying materials.
2. Neglecting Thorough Fa Study Left a Dark Mark on My Cultivation
When I had finished distributing the truth-clarifying materials I had received, I began to handwrite notes with phrases such as "Falun Dafa is good'" "Falun Dafa is the Righteous Fa" and post them in public places. I simply wanted to do more to make up for lost time and became attached to doing things. I didn't study the Fa seriously and didn't have sufficient righteous thoughts. The evil took advantage of my loophole. I was reported to the police in August 2004 and was sentenced to one-and-a- half years of forced labor.
The forced labor camp officials arranged two collaborators to "reform" me. Since I had not studied the Fa well enough and lacked clear thinking, after listening to them, my main consciousness was confused by their twisted logic and I was soon "reformed." The main reason for this was my fear and a selfish and the strong attachment to avoid discomfort. After that I always felt something was not right.
Once I returned home, although I had written a solemn statement [renouncing my former actions], I still felt I had let Master down. Master didn't give up on those like me who disappointed him. He repeatedly published articles to encourage us to return to the cultivation path. Confronted with our respected Master's benevolence, I thought I didn't have any excuse not to cultivate, not to purge attachments and notions. Studying Master's articles made me determined to study the Fa well, to truly cultivate in the Fa, and to catch up with Fa-rectification progress.
3. Following Fa-rectification and Destroying the Evil Persecution
I began to clarify the truth to people face to face. In a little more than three months I advised many people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I had less and less fear and felt more and more at ease explaining the truth. My xinxing kept improving as well.
One day, just after I had explained the truth to two middle school students, officers from a local police precinct stopped me and took me to the local station. Since I had been studying the Fa, my thoughts were Fa-based and I had strong righteous thoughts. I didn't cooperate with them. They interrogated me from the afternoon to the middle of the night, using both persuasion and threats. I didn't say anything, except to advise them to quit the CCP. They beat me. A person in charge of the 610 Office threatened to send me by train to a secret, remote place. I was not scared. My only focus was not cooperating with them. I kept sending righteous thoughts, and I admonished them that they lacked the authority to make any decisions. They were quite angry and didn't give up until the middle of the night. At 3:00 a.m. they announced that they were going to send me to a detention center. I kept sending righteous thoughts. There were many sentient beings waiting for me to offer them salvation. I asked for Master's help. Arriving at the detention center, the officials refused to accept me. Two police officers once again interrogated me the following day. They threatened that they would sentence me to nine years in prison if I still refused to cooperate with them. I was not affected and recited the Fa throughout the whole afternoon.
Master said,
"When disciples have ample righteous thoughts
Master has the power to turn back the tide."
("The Master-Disciple Bond" from Hong Yin II, Translation Version A)
"...just by having your heart unaffected you will be able to handle all situations."
("Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I was determined to follow Master's arrangement. I didn't reveal any information during the interrogation. Finally, they reluctantly gave up.
In the evening they called my family and let them take me home that night, saying that I had to return to the station the next day.
Many of my relatives, trying to persuade me to give up Falun Dafa for my safety, called me at home. I kept clarifying the truth to them. My children all cried terribly. My husband didn't say anything but kept chain-smoking cigarettes. The specially prepared food was removed from the freezer, because they wanted me to have a good last meal before I was taken away by the police. That night no one slept. I thought for a long time. I studied one of Master's lectures again.
Master said,
"No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's demands, orders, or what it instigates." ("Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I thought, "If I go to the local police station tomorrow as they ordered, isn't this following the old forces' arrangement? They want to put me in prison, making me unable to clarify the truth to offer people salvation. I must deny the old forces' arrangements. I will do what Master arranges for me." I didn't go to the local police station the following day, but asked my family members to go there and tell them, "Since you want to persecute her, she cannot come." The matter was thus settled.
4. Advancing Diligently on the Cultivation Path
I studied the Fa in earnest and was determined to do the three things well. I must harmonize my family and eliminate any interference. I kept sending righteous thoughts every day and often clarified the truth to my family. Several months later they were able to accept the truth. My daughter even helped me to choose and print truth-clarifying materials from the Minghui/Clearwisdom website. When she helped to select the articles on the website, she read more articles, which helped her to understand Dafa on a deeper level and learn more of the truth. All of my family members have quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations and also wrote an article about people awakening to the truth about Dafa. Now they all help me in doing Dafa work. Witnessing Dafa's mighty power made them understand the truth and accept Dafa.
I know Master takes care of every disciple. As long as we do things with a righteous mind, Master will help us.
Distributing the truth-clarification materials has raised my xinxing level as I mentioned above. I sense a diminishing of the attachments I used to have. Before, I could distribute a dozen truth-clarifying flyers a day. Now I can distribute hundreds a day and don't feel tired. Although I am profoundly nearsighted, I can climb stairs in a dark building without holding onto the railing and have never stumbled. I know it's the mighty power of Dafa. I used to fear being found using the paper money with truth-clarification messages stamped on it. Now I'm not afraid. I even deliberately show others the words on the money.
Now I also clarify the truth through letter writing. Although my limited education prevents me from writing lengthy paragraphs, I think the letters will be effective. I will continue to recite Zhuan Falun, to clarify the truth in different ways, and to advise people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I will do my best to give up all human attachments and follow closely the Fa-rectification progress.
If there are any incorrect understandings in my sharing, please kindly point them out.
January 2, 2008
