I Got Rid of My Shortcoming of Beating and Cursing People
(Clearwisdom.net) Since I was young, I had a bad temper. Before practicing Falun Gong, I did not fear anything. I dared to fight with anyone and never yielded to anyone. When I fought with others, I would fight to the last point, as far as I could. In the workplace, I fought with leaders; at home, I fought with my husband and my son. No matter who wanted to discipline me, I just fought back.
Because I did not value morality and I behaved badly, I accumulated huge karma. As a result, I suffered many illnesses, including rheumatic heart disease, a protrusion of the lumbar vertebra disc, and neural system diseases. My face, lips, and fingernails looked dark and my gums looked white. My hand joints ached and were numb. I had difficulty breathing on cloudy or rainy days. Before I started practicing Falun Gong, I could not even have a single night of good rest. My eyes were not comfortable. I hardly opened my eyes widely. I went to the hospital about this, but no definite diagnosis was made. One of my feet grew an extra bone in the ankle. When I walked, it felt very painful.
In order to cure my illnesses, my husband took me to many big hospitals. We spent lots of money, but my situation did not turn better. I once sought help from a shaman, but the situation was made even worse. Under the manipulation of all kinds of low-level spirits, I was not clearheaded. My husband even had an affair. After I quarreled in the karaoke bar and went back home, I took sleeping pills and cut my wrists with a blade to commit suicide. I was then sent to a hospital for emergency treatment. Explosive spells always spread at home. I did not allow my husband to talk to other women. I often fought with my husband, which disturbed my neighbors. I felt tired in both my mind and my body. I painfully struggled at the verge of death.
On February 25, 1999, under one of my relatives' repeated suggestions, I started to practice Falun Gong, which is also called "Falun Dafa." Falun Dafa instructs people to cultivate according to the cosmos' highest principles of "Truthfulness, Compassion and Tolerance." A practitioner must practice the exercises and also cultivate his xinxing (heart-nature, character, morality). The prerequisite of upgrading one's xinxing is to study the Fa well. One should rectify himself with the Fa. Because I could not read, studying the Fa became a problem for me. However, I did not withdraw. When other practitioners read the Fa, I tried my best to memorize when looking at the book and drew pictures on paper according to their pronouncements. In less than half a year, a miracle occurred. I could read through smoothly all 332 pages of Zhuan Falun. My health recovered and all illnesses disappeared. My skin became delicate, reddish-white and shiny. I felt I was treading on air when walking. I am in my 50s. However, I look like I was in my 30s or 40s. Those who know me well said it seemed I had changed into another person.
With studying the Fa constantly, I came to understand that the real purpose of being a human is to return to one's nature. As practitioners, the first goal we should reach is "not fight[ing] back when being punched or insulted" (Zhuan Falun). I got rid of my shortcomings of beating and cursing people. My mind was purified and my xinxing improved. I can calmly face those who insult me in public. Before starting cultivation, when my husband and I drove around for personal errands, I often asked my workplace to reimburse the bridge tolls. After I studied the Fa, I knew that was not right. I just told my husband not to do that again and tore up the receipts.
My husband was touched after seeing my changes in both my body and mind. Although he has not entered the door of cultivation, he deeply knows that "Falun Dafa is Good" and "Truthfulness, Compassion and Tolerance are Good." With the influence of Dafa's mighty virtue, he also changed completely. When driving, if a person blocked his way, he used to just speed up to pass that vehicle, blocked that vehicle, and forced that vehicle to stop. Then, he would get out of his own car and open the other vehicle's door and beat the driver. Now, he has learned to be tolerant. He does not make trouble any more. He once said to me with emotion, "I really thank you. If you did not cultivate Falun Dafa, I do not know how much more karma I would have made." My husband tells anyone he meets, "Falun Dafa is Good." He tells them the truth that our family benefited from Dafa. Our family has become harmonious. My neighbors do not hear our quarreling anymore.