(Clearwisdom.net) I suffered from different kinds of illnesses and was constantly in pain. I obtained a copy of Zhuan Falun in 1996. I spent seven days reading the book twice while in bed, and then a miracle happened. My physical pain lessened and I was able to do some household chores. Since then, I have persisted in studying the Fa and practicing the exercises. Eventually, my illnesses disappeared and my body felt very light.
Revered Teacher saved me and gave me a second chance to live. No words can express my gratitude. I'm determined to follow Teacher's instructions and continue to cultivate until the end. During the last several years, I have believed in Teacher and the Fa and held no fear, and my cultivation path has been relatively smooth.
Passing the Test of Sickness Karma
I've had many tests of strong sickness karma. I have slept for days without getting up. The most serious incident was in 1998 when I fell asleep on the sofa for four days straight. I remember waking up once and practicing the Standing Stance exercise. I stood for awhile, but did not change the movement. Finally, I could not endure it anymore and fell asleep again. I also recall my child shaking my head gently and loudly calling me to wake up. I awoke sluggish and told her I was fine. I said I was going to practice the exercises momentarily and then fell asleep again. The fourth night, I dreamed that my mother came to visit me. I asked her why I was sleeping so much and could not wake up. My mother said that I should prepare an urn. Her words jolted me awake and I abruptly sat up. Wasn't this a test of life and death? I must have done something wrong, but I did not know what it was. I swore to let go of fame, profit, and sentimentality and cultivate well till the end. I wanted to go home with Teacher.
This thought enabled me to wake up, as if nothing had happened. Everything was normal. I've been strict with myself since then. If I do something wrong and am not aware of it, then I fall into this state of sleepiness. I never think of dying anymore. I ask Teacher to protect me instead, so that no one can touch me. I correct myself as soon as I realize my mistakes. As I cultivate myself according to the Fa and become enlightened, I begin to feel better. It is so miraculous!
Once during February 2000, I was taken to a brainwashing center. I kept clarifying the truth to everyone I saw there. Thirty days later, the party officials decided to send those who were not "transformed" to a detention center. I knew I did not want to go there, because I did not belong in that kind of place. I wanted to go home. I felt sleepier and sleepier a few days later. One afternoon, I suddenly felt nervous and very sleepy. I asked a practitioner to feel my pulse. She said that it was beating very quickly and called for help. I was still conscious when they came, but suddenly lost consciousness. They took me out of the brainwashing center and sent me by ambulance to the hospital. The doctor saw that I was unconscious and did not want to give me any medication. He asked my husband if I had any kind of illness. My husband replied, "She was fine before they took her to the brainwashing center and now she is unconscious. What have you done to her?" The hospital staff was afraid that I was going to die, so they left me with my family. My relatives called out to me. Later, I heard them calling, but I could not open my eyes or speak. They asked if I wanted to stay at the hospital or go home. I was to nod if I wanted to stay or shake my head if I wanted to go home. I used all the strength I had to shake my head and they took me home.
I woke up once in the middle of the night at home. I awoke again the day after and had symptoms of paralysis on my right side. I was drooling, but I did not treat it as an illness. I thought that Teacher's fashen (law body) was protecting me, therefore, I would be fine. I did whatever I could. Every day I studied the Fa and practiced the exercises. I did simple household chores and was able to walk down the stairs after three days. However, I had lost part of my memory. I couldn't write because my hand trembled a lot. Since I took it lightly, the symptoms disappeared after a period of time. Sometimes I forgot to eat, but I never forgot to study the Fa, practice the exercises, and look inward.
Time after time, under Teacher's protection, I overcame sickness karma and persecution by the wicked Party.
Having Righteous Thoughts and Doing the Three Things Well
On July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party began the persecution of people practicing Falun Falun Gong. On that day, I heard that many people went to the provincial government agencies to clarify the truth. I went there around noon. I returned home and was getting ready to attend the group Fa study, when my husband stopped me. He said, "Look at what the television is reporting. You should not go." I replied with a smile, "This is such a good practice. How could I not go?" So I joined the Fa study group and read a chapter of "Zhuan Falun." Practitioners said, "Let's not do the sitting meditation, since we practice it every day." However, they were reluctant to leave, so I invited all of them to my house and we practiced the sitting meditation for an hour. After they left, my husband said, "I told you not to attend the Fa study group and then you brought all of them home." I replied, "Our home is a good place to practice. I don't think there is any problem." The practitioner in charge of bringing the tape recorder said he could not attend group exercise practice the next day, so I found a tape recorder and some batteries. The next day I woke up early in the morning to attend the group practice. As we were doing the Standing Stance, public security bureau staff and trade union staff arrived in a vehicle. They said we would be arrested if we practiced and urged us to go home. We therefore stopped having group exercise practice.
I hosted group Fa study during the day in my house, usually in the afternoon. Several coordinators were arrested the evening of July 20, 1999. Two practitioners came to my house, told us about the arrests, and advised us to be careful. Several days later, people stopped coming to my house to study the Fa. Nevertheless, I continued to study on my own every day. Back then, I could not understand why the government wanted to ban such a good practice. I read Zhuan Falun 130 times in 1999.
Personnel from the 610 Office and the police station kept harassing me at home. They asked me if I practiced Falun Gong and my answer was always the same. "This is such a good practice. Why would I not practice?" I was never afraid when they came to my house. I treated them with a calm and peaceful heart as I clarified the truth to them. I told them that practicing Falun Gong healed my illnesses and was very important to me. If it were not for the practice, I would have already died. I added that Falun Gong gave me a second chance at life, therefore, I would continue to practice.
I found out later that I was on the 610 Office "watch list." They constantly monitored my movements. I went to Beijing to validate the Fa in October 2000, was illegally arrested, and released. In February 2001, I was taken to the brainwashing center. I was able to get out of jail by keeping faith in Teacher's protection. Since then, they have tapped my phone calls, monitored my activities, and followed me everywhere. I was not afraid, though, and kept doing the three things rationally. I woke up early and went to bed late, so I could have time to clarify the truth. On rainy or snowy days, those following me could not stand the harsh weather and went home.
One time I was distributing truth clarification materials with another practitioner when we realized that three people were following us. We entered a building and sent forth-righteous thoughts. We thought that we should be fine, but when we left the building three men blocked our path. They asked if we practiced Falun Gong. I replied, "Yes, we do. So people who practice Falun Gong are not allowed to visit friends?" They said many things against Falun Gong. One of them said he knew me. He discussed letting us go with the other two.
From then on, the man who knew me kept following me. His skin was sunburned in the summer and purplish from the freezing cold during winter. I took the initiative to talk to him and advised him to stop spying on me. I suggested he learn Falun Gong. He said, "You still dare to talk about Falun Gong. Aren't you afraid of being arrested?" I replied, "I'm doing a good deed and a most righteous thing. How could I be arrested?" Every time I saw him, I told him about the Fa, clarified the truth to him, and encouraged him to learn Falun Gong. Later on, he wanted to study the Fa at my house. I said that it was not necessary since he could read Zhuan Falun on his own and cultivate and act according to the instructions in the book. Eventually this man disappeared from my life.
Assisting Fellow Practitioners in Overcoming Tribulations
There is a practitioner that is homeless and destitute due to the persecution. She fainted at her relative's home and remained unconscious. They sent her to the hospital and the doctor said she had a brain aneurysm. The doctor operated on her, but she did not have the money to buy medication. Other practitioners collected money to help her out. When I heard about the situation I said, "When practitioners take medication, it's like taking poison. Teacher has to cleanse our bodies when we take medication. I cannot donate money, but I'm still concerned about her condition." I heard later that she did not recognize anyone when she regained consciousness. One side of her body was immobile, so she used her other hand to pull out the needles. It was great that she still knew she was a practitioner and should not take any medication, even after being unconscious for several days.
A day later while studying the Fa, I immediately thought about visiting her at the hospital. If she did not have the money, the hospital might not discharge her. Therefore, I took 1,000 yuan with me. She did not recognize me. The nurse walked in and said, "You have not paid for the medication, so we cannot give you any today." I told the nurse that I had brought some money and she left. I've heard that her husband is a righteous person, so I told the family the purpose of my visit. I said to them, "I brought some money for her. Please take it and decide how you want to spend it." The family took the money. They hired a cab to take her home that night.
I found out she left the hospital, and I went to visit her at home. The doctor had ordered her to stay in bed for a month. Another practitioner and I held her up and helped her practice walking on her second day at home. Her family was so afraid that they closed the door and refused to see what we were doing. I thought that as long as Teacher's fashen was protecting her, she was going to be fine. I was not worried about it, since I'd had similar experiences. Every day I went to her house to send forth righteous thoughts with her, listen to Teacher's lectures, practice the exercises, and help her walk. Sometimes she cried from the excruciating pain of trying to walk. Another practitioner could not stand watching her suffer and suggested she stop walking. I disagreed. I thought that not encouraging her to walk was not going to help.
Several days later, I ran into another practitioner on my way to her house. That practitioner (whose relative works at the 610 Office) asked me not to visit her anymore since her home was being monitored. I turned around and started to walk home after I heard that. I took two steps before realizing it was a test. How could I abandon this practitioner when she is going through a tribulation of life and death? Even if she was being monitored, I should still visit her. I turned and headed right to her house. After a time, this practitioner was able to walk by herself.
Later, this practitioner formed a Fa study group at her home. Three days before the Chinese New Year, three of us went to her house for Fa study. One of them was immediately arrested on her way home. The next morning another practitioner was arrested. I found out later that several practitioners who went to visit her at home were arrested as well. I was left alone, even though I visited her almost every day. This made me realize that as long as we believe in Teacher and Dafa, have righteous thoughts and no fear, Teacher will constantly protect us.
Ignore the "Sensitive Days"
I have no concept of the so-called "sensitive days." I realized that every day is an important day from a practitioner's perspective. Every day we should do well according to the Fa and Teacher's instructions. Nothing we encounter is a coincidence. They are all tests on the cultivation path we must walk. Therefore, one should not think about "sensitive days." If we dwell on it, then we are acknowledging the old force's arrangements and neglecting to deny its arrangements.
Sometimes during the "sensitive days," the coordinators are not able to distribute truth clarification materials to other practitioners. I asked them to deliver the materials to my house for me to distribute. Some practitioners don't want to distribute the material on "sensitive days," and they don't pick them up either. So as a coordinator, I go out to distribute the material myself. Once I finish distributing mine, I deliver the rest of the materials to them. I don't complain about it. Once in a while, practitioners come to my house to look for materials and I always try my best to help them. I never refuse them. I believe it is my responsibility to help them. One time, a practitioner's son came to me and said they were being monitored. He asked if they could deliver a box of materials to my house. I agreed and took the opportunity to distribute more truth clarification material.
Every day, I place Dafa first and diligently do the three things. I rationally think about everything to do with my cultivation. When I know how it needs to be done, I take care of it immediately and don't procrastinate. Previously, when I did not have enough material, I made a seal and stamped it on the walls. I stamped the words on paper to make small banners for others to post. Sometimes I'd make banners using a stamp and other times I wrote out the banners. Regardless of the size, I make them as we need them.
Later, material sites blossomed everywhere and I wanted to establish one at home. Other practitioners said that it was not suitable, so I gave up the idea. As more copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party were being distributed, there was a lack of Nine Commentaries booklets in my area. Practitioners suggested that I print them at home. So part of my house became a materials site. At the beginning, we were very slow at producing copies. Later, I suggested tri-folding the paper and another practitioner carefully designed the typesetting. We began to produce better copies of the Nine Commentaries. At the time, my 80-year-old mother was seriously ill and many people were living in my house. Once we began to print the Nine Commentaries, it took us several days and nights to make them. There were a few people working on a number of copies and we slept very little. However, we were able to supply enough booklets for the entire area. Now my home is no longer a materials site, because there are many such sites in my city.
Recently, more than ten practitioners in my area were arrested and persecuted. Some got out of the jail with righteous thoughts, some were unlawfully detained, and others were sent to the forced labor camp. We have intensified sending forth righteous thoughts as a group. We have thought about different ways to rescue them. However, some practitioners' hearts were moved. I said this to the group during our group experience sharing: "We should do even better under the current circumstances." I do what I preach. Every day, I intensify sending forth righteous thoughts. I regularly attend the Fa study group. I distribute and post truth clarification materials to expose the local wicked people. I also distribute more small booklets of the Nine Commentaries and encourage people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations. I think and act righteously, save sentient beings, and have no fear in my heart. I'm not moved by outside influences and do the three things well with confidence.
I am a fifty-some-year-old practitioner. I attended school for only six years. Initially, I did not submit any sharing articles because I do not have enough education to write well. I often read Clearwisdom sharing articles. Later I realized that I'm also a particle of Dafa and should submit articles, as this is part of my cultivation. I've submitted about 20-30 declarations and sharing articles to Clearwisdom.net and more than ten articles to Minghui Weekly since 2002. I think every practitioner should submit sharing articles, as this is part of our responsibility. I would like to say the following to the practitioners who volunteer for Clearwisdom.net, "You have been working very hard. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to share."
I believe in Teacher and the Fa. Under the benevolent protection of Teacher and the guidance of Dafa, my cultivation path has not been that difficult. There are areas where I have not cultivated well, but I will be more diligent, do the three things well, follow Teacher, and cultivate till the end.
August 17, 2007