(Clearwisdom.net) I am a fifty-three-year-old practitioner from Jinan City. I learned Falun Dafa in 1996. I decided to write about the lessons I have learned in cultivation.
Obtaining the Fa
Three months after my birth, my ears began to secrete pus. From then on, I began to see doctor after doctor. However, my illness was not cured. It in fact worsened; my eardrum was pierced and my face became distorted as a result. Because I was having injections every day, my buttocks and arms were also infected. I had ear surgery, in which the doctors removed the entire drum and replaced it with tissue from my leg. The anesthetics they used damaged the nerves in my nose and I lost sensation. I had headaches and felt dizzy.
I got married when I was twenty-nine, and gave birth to a child when I was thirty-two. When my child was two years old, my husband had an affair with the nanny and left me for her. The breakup of my family made me collapse mentally and the heart condition that I had worsened. In addition, my bowel had blood in it and the doctor said it was due to an ulcerous colon infection. I had to have surgery again. My child and I kept each other company and we lived a very hard life.
In 1996, a practitioner told me about Falun Gong and I acquired the book Zhuan Falun. I felt that it was telling me the truth every time I read it, and the more I read it, the more I liked it. I began to read it from the beginning, and found that the characters in it were getting bigger and brighter, so bright they dazzled my eyes. After I finished reading all nine lectures, I felt energetic. I began to attend a Fa-study group and found a group practice site. I went there at four o'clock in the morning every day. In the evening, I took my child with me to a practitioner's house to watch video recordings of Teacher's lectures. When I finished watching all nine lectures, I felt that my health had improved a lot. I could walk much faster.
Going to Beijing to Validate Dafa
On July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began to persecute Falun Gong. Four or five other practitioners and I went to Beijing to appeal to the authorities and were arrested and beaten by the police. We were detained in the police station for seven days. The officers did not feed us or give us water. Before letting me go, they extorted five thousand yuan from me, which my company paid and deducted later from my wages.
On October 1, 2000, for the week-long holiday, my first thought was to go to Beijing to validate Dafa. At 6 p.m., I went to Tiananmen Square by myself without any interference. I reminded myself of Teacher's words in the article "Rationality":
"Getting arrested is not the purpose" and "Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy."
Some practitioners were stopped and knocked unconscious on the spot by the police. I yelled, "The police should not beat people. Falun Dafa is good." I buried my head in the crowd; the police could not see me.
Fellow practitioners and I returned home and went to work the day the holiday was over. The local police said that I must have gone to Beijing since they could not find me during the holiday, so they arrested me and locked me in a small room in the police station for five days.
Validating the Fa in a Psychiatric Hospital
Later, I was arrested at my home by the police and taken to a brainwashing center. My helpless child was crying all day at home, traumatized. I was worried about my child and went on a hunger strike to protest my detention. The guards said I had to write a guarantee statement and renounce Dafa in order to go home. I wrote: "Restore the names of Teacher and Dafa. Falun Dafa is righteous and great. Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance are good. We must have freedom of belief and are entitled to an environment in which to practice." One morning, another practitioner and I were found doing the exercises by the guards. They came and beat us right away, dragging and beating us from first floor all the way to the third floor. They kicked us, pulled our hair, and threw us against the wall. On the third floor, they kept punching me on the head and neck, and forced me to stand in a half-crouching stance for a long time.
On the eighth day of my hunger strike, I was sent to a psychiatric hospital. I clarified the truth about Falun Gong to the doctor and nurses. They said, "Why don't you just stop since they don't let you practice?" I said, "I have benefited from Falun Gong. Shouldn't I say something when Dafa is being persecuted?" The doctor said, "They will start shooting Falun Gong practitioners soon. Do you want Falun Gong or your child?" I said, "I want both."
The doctor invited an expert professor to examine me. The whole room was filled with people including the department head and some nurses. I was not intimidated. I asked Teacher for help. The professor repeatedly asked me questions to see how I responded. However quick he asked the questions, I answered just as quickly, and correctly. The professor concluded on the spot that I was not a psychotic. I wept, which I had seldom done. Teacher was helping me. I took the opportunity to tell them facts about Falun Gong. "Only because I believe in Falun Gong have they persecuted me like this. No one is taking care of my child at home. No one is helping me." When I finished, the department head, the doctor, and the nurses all wept. They let me go that afternoon. The doctor that had first detained me asked, "Can you give me a copy of Zhuan Falun?" I said, "Of course." Not long after my company officials took me home, a fellow practitioner and I went and found the doctor, and gave him a copy of Zhuan Falun and some truth-clarification materials. He gladly accepted them, and asked me to watch for my own safety.
Saving Sentient Beings While Validating Dafa
In 2002, I took on the responsibility of coordinating the tasks of getting and delivering Dafa materials. I also resumed the Fa-study group. Two nights each week we got together and shared experiences. We did not make phone calls in order to avoid being monitored. For getting and delivering materials, we always used single-chain communication, and never stopped, be it rain or shine. We indeed risked our lives and were doing things right under the nose of the police. Were it not for Teacher's protection and our strong righteous thoughts, we would have been arrested. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate factors of the old forces every time I went to get the materials. I knew that I was saving people and it was the most sacred.
With Teacher's help, the year 2003 went by rather smoothly, but occasional conflicts among fellow practitioners did exist. After studying the Fa and looking inward, we passed xinxing tests quickly. My legs were so sore as I slept at night that I was afraid to move them. I said to Teacher, "I cannot hold on to these materials and must distribute them tomorrow. It is urgent for the sentient beings." As a result, everything was fine. As long as we do not have attachments, Teacher is right next to us to help us. No difficulty is too hard to overcome.
Do Not Wait For and Rely Upon Others
In 2005, we worked on urging people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations and on preparing copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and other materials. The operation of the information center went rather smoothly. However, in early 2006, the information center had difficulty. Fellow practitioners moved a printer to our Fa-study group but none of us knew how to use it and we became very worried. Materials were desperately needed for urging people to quit the CCP and the Nine Commentaries needed to be printed. Then I enlightened to the fact that all Dafa disciples are one body and I have my share of responsibilities. "Minghui Weekly" emphasized that we need to let the small information centers run and spread all over the place. I decided to follow Teacher's directions and began to work on it on my own. I could not keep waiting for and leaning on other people. Things would not always be ready for me.
At first I did not even know how to hold a mouse. My child helped me with the mouse and started the computer. Then I learned how to type and go on-line. When I successfully logged onto the Minghui/Clearwisdom website and saw Teacher's picture, I was so excited that I cried.
In March, a fellow practitioner and I bought a printer. He taught me how to operate it and I took notes. Then I followed my notes and practiced at home. Very soon I was able to produce documents and make a declaration form for quitting the Communist Party. I also learned how to do the publication layout. As soon as Teacher's new articles appeared on the website, I would print them out and deliver them to fellow practitioners. Every Friday we printed Minghui Weekly.
The process of cultivation is very serious. As long as we maintain steadfast and righteous thoughts and study the Fa diligently, Teacher will give us wisdom. I will study the Fa more so that I can elevate together with the group. I will do the three things that Teacher has asked us to do well, to end the persecution as soon as possible, so that we can follow Teacher home.
